autumn in my heart

the song autumn in my heart, whenever it is played. then i makes me think of someone. someone who i spend very little time together with, but some1 who can make such a unforgettable mark in my heart. probably it is because it was my first love. my very first puppy love i would say. however, i never in contact with him anymore. it was because the last time i lost my hp n i lost his number too. the last time i saw him when i was 18 i guess.

when i listen to the song jus now, a gush of feelings came to me...i really must blog this out.

alrite, lets talk how i know him. i was form 3 that time. i am a st john that time. he is a pbsm. my school st john n pbsm had a joint gathering. so he came to the gathering. i remember that time he n his group of frens were sitting behind me n my frens. then gathering is all bout games. there was this game, he was invited out to participate in. but he did a gurl partner for that game. he is from VI. is a boy school. so no gurls he know. he just invited me to play the game with him. alrite. the game....haha. flour game. popular tools for games back in school days. so the game is like this, one person suppose to dip the face into a plate of flour which has rubberband in it. then bite on the rubberband. and the other person is biting on a straw. so have to put as many rubberband as possible onto the straw inorder to win. so of cos he is the one who dip the face into the flour. n me holding the straw la. when he is putting the rubberband on the straw, the distance of our face are very near. b4 that was quite shy to look straight on his face. but this was the time to look clearly how he looks like. although his face full of flour, but then he stil look good. he is taller than me half a head. not fat. not skinny. overall, good looking. we were laughing at each other cos kena flour. but he got more...THE. so when we finish the game we get back to our seat. then we started to chat abit. after for a while, he borrow my hp. i tot he needed to make a phone call. so i lend him. that time so innocent. didnt know that he actually use my hp to miss call his hp to get my number. i didnt realise that even after he return to me. when i leave the place for a while, then i receive a sms from him...haha. then that time only i knew.

then since then, we start sms to each other. chat over the phone...icq...and he really a very hardworking person in terms of studies. most of time, i ask wat you doing. study normally is his answer. i was motivated to study too that time. hehe. after the gathering we did went out. the first time was he came to my school by train. behind my school is lrt station. then we went to a kfc nearby. then we makan lo. then go back to my school. however, it was heavy rain that time. so fortunately my fren stay nearby, went to her place to borrow an umbrella. then we start walking back to my school. back to school is 15minutes walk distance normally. then before reaching my school there is this park. it was under renovation. when is raining, some part get flooded. we couldnt walk over to my school. and then he suggested and say he wil carry me over that puddle of water. is not puddle of water, i was quite deep actually. i said no need. we shall just take the long way. he didnt say anything. he jus squad now and scoop me up. wow. i know. that is so the romantic. hehe.... then while walking half way, then there was this crane at the park which does the renovation work, the worker inside horn us. and tell us to get out of there. cos it mayb dangerous. then i told him, we should use the other way. then he walk back. then i saw the water stain on his pants reaches his knee. omg. that is quite deep weih....[ting ting!!!] little gurl like me felt so touched again. then we slowly walk back using the other way. then while we were passing sum of those bungalows, i remember him saying, in future, i wil own one of these kind of house. hehe...[ woohoo.... a guy with dreams....add point...] haha....lol....when we reach at the bus stop outside my school, he actually take off his shoes n turn over. it was water pouring out...haha...he was wearing leather shoes. water cant flow out..hehe...poor guy got those water in his shoe when he was in that pool of water. n is mud water....

hehe...so far...very touching... alrite, i gotta go back to study... to be continued if i m in the mood...hehe

cover page

hehe...this is the cover page of the brochure for economic department of HELP. which is the department i m studying at...hehe. that day i was with my fren adelene in the library. she suddenly got a call from the marketing dpt that they need to product the brochure like urgent. than jus grab me to take photos. hehe. there i am...hehe..i m not that ugly afterall..hehe.. :P

maxis broadband

using this maxis broadband. hehe. the device is really cute. is so slim n sexy. is in white colour. but speed of cos uncompatible with streamyx la. wireless sure lose out in speed. but slightly better than dial up. not very good for downloading big files. cos modem spoilt. stil considering whether to get the maxis broadband. frens recommendation to use the trial. is free for 7 days. hehe. so try lo. but need to go return back to maxis centre onli..sigh bit mafan. nvm la. at least i tried. after exam, onli go buy a modem back. haih.

towards the end of college life

am doing my last assignment for my degree. stil got 1 more final exam coming. and a final presentation for my thesis. thats all. OMG. cant believe it. my college life is going to over. half happy half sad. happy cos i can start earning money. sad cos no more companionship of friends and the amount of free time we have. hehe.

wants to start dating

so freaking bored....wants to start dating...but no1 is available for me at the moment...hehe.

Mass CPR

Check out this link for the mass cpr event. got my photos in it...and sum comment on me..hehe..

http://sjamsriaman.blogspot.com/2008/12/national-mass-cpr-ou.html

such a failure of me..

It has been quite some time i didnt feel this way bout myself in this organisation body. it was such a failure... or is actually is just ok?? i dunno....but most of the ppl say, this place is terrible. is not good. response sucks.. i dunno what to expect at all for this event actually. it could be alot or could be very little. is kinda expected or non expected. it also due to before this was too busy with my thesis till friday only i have the time to do preparation for this event. i dunno what, how, why...... i dunno...i m quite disappointed with the result. i m dunno should i be disappointed of myself. i not sure did i did the right thing for choosing this place. but, at last i get to try organising event at this place. i had long wanted to organise event for this organisation body at this palce. after going thru everything. i think is worth the lesson. i can be better in the future. but i guess, end of the day, there is surely blame to be put on a person. i m sure i m the 1 who to be blame to. although it will not be said out, but is defintely in their heart is them.

crossroads

if all my current 3 subjects go on smoothly, then i will be graduating. graduation is only in april. but now, everyone are asking, so when are u graduating? then i say end of the year finish my studies. then they will ask, so wats ur plan after u finish? i say hhmm.. work loh...where? hhmm, dunno yet. most probably in marketing dpt. what company they normally wil also ask...hhmm, should be sum companies which related to cosmetics and fashion gua...

sigh....till now, haven really apply for any job, except for 1 application in jobstreet for loreal company. but that was like 1 month plus ago. til now, no news, means no la. and there are 2hundred plus ppl who apply for it. and 20 ppl who have higher education than me.. omg... how the hell i m gonna get it la... so far found 1 company with vacancy, will apply for it once i hand in my thesis. then later will start sending out resume to some of the companies..hhmm...not sure when i m gonna get a job. some even say, so u going back to ur parents copmany to work?? haha. i smiled at them and say, it is the last thing i would do. unless i really cant find a job. if i do find one, hopefully can start in feb. but before feb and after my exams, i m going to work in their office. mum already booked me to work there...

another crossroads i m facing, on every sunday i have salsa class from 3-4.30pm. and next year aug, will be my ballet dance school concert. from dec onwards, we need to start doing rehearsals. and the rehearsal time would be from 10am-2pm. then 2pm-5pm. the 10am one is for the opening and closing ceremony. the 2pm one, is a dance on point shoe name call firebird(i guess). and gosh, it clashes my salsa class. actually before that already did cross my mind that the rehearsal time might clash with my salsa class. but the confirm schedule not out yet ma. so now..hhmmwat i know, my salsa class dun have any other time for the same class level. so now, gotta reconfirm with them again on other class availability. which i doubt so. and then next next week, when rehearsal start, need to talk to the choreographer on the arrangements. sad...

still remember half year ago, i was in another big crossroads. and after deciding on taking road A, then already rejected to take road B. then later only found out that road A is blocked already. aarrrggghhhh.....

human life is all about coming to crossroads and decision making...

SCORPIO - The Addict

SCORPIO - The Addict

EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring.

the above i got it from an email, which says, horoscope, very accurate. and say such things like if u dun forward, you will get 4 years of bad luck. but i never forward all this, unless i think is something really hilarious or important.

so let me go through this whole thing bit by bit and see is it that accurate. some say, how can u believe on this horoscope thingi, how can the world divided to 12 types of people only. hehe

- extremely adorable: i dun think i am.
- loves to joke: oh yes. i joke with all kind of things.
- very good sense of humour: issit same as loves to joke. not sure.
- will try almost everything once: hhmm, it said almost everything. yes, i would love to try almost everything. i m very adventurous. but except anything got to do with insects or animals. of cos except drugs and suicide and.....
- love to be pampered: of cos.
- energetic: yes. but not sure what others think
- predictable: not i cant tell. my fren gotta tell me
- good kisser: haha. i not sure. but got guys told me b4 that i m. hehe.
- always get what they want: disagree. i dun really get whatever i want.
- attractive: i dun think i am
- loves being in long relationship: not for now. yes when i grow old.
- talkative: yes i am.
- loves to party but at times to the extreme: yes i like. but got barriers of going out now.
- love to smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it: oh yes. money is not everything but without money lots of things cannot be done. am i good at making it? hhmmm....i thought i can. but haven start working, so i dunno. good at spending it? hell yeah! who does not know how to spend.
- very protective over loves one: yes i would so. used to fought for him with parents.
- hardworkers: i would say yes when i have the heart to do and i love and enjoy doing it. but at times, i m a great procrastinator.
- can be a good friend but if disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end: yes i can be a good friend. if disrespected only, dun think will end the relationship. probably is the person betray me more than once, then yes. first time normally give chance.
- romantic : i cant evaluate me myself
- caring: i think i am. if i want to ..

boring days during uni days

when is the most boring days during uni days?? not when the time you got no homework to do. is the time when you got the most homework to do. alrite, in uni, we got no homework. only assignments. when the time we got assignments to do, especially when is going to due in 1 week time. most of ur classmate will not ask you out, cos they also kononnya want to do assignments. yes, doing assignments. but the whole day, probably spend one fourth of the time to do assignments. the other time, not lepaking outside. but is wondering around the internet. go facebook la, go chat chat here and there la, go play round of computer game la, or munching on food or watch a downloaded movie....that also include me and of cos my fren. hehe. but you wun think of going out to reduce the boringness. cos you will keep thinking, no!! i stil got assignments to do. thats apply to a few of my fren. but accept a few who finish their assignments exceptionally fast. they wil finish ahead of others very fast. probably 2 weeks faster than others. then they love the feelings of making others sad cos they haven finish. haha... then i got 1 fren, who is exceptionally good at their studies, who always said they are lucky for getting such high marks, which still goes out during assignment-ing time. their progression normally slower than others. but slumber only. but stil got superb high marks. that their talent i guess which i never had. hehe. i am a very very slow worker. i could not concentrate. although i start reading up early, but i never able to pull in all my thoughts into words quickly. i will always only finish it the night before. i jus always have this lacking of inspiration before the due dates are nearing. then adrenalin jus kick in when i feel excited...hehe... THUS, i got a very successful in business fren said, i can work under pressure. he said is good. i hope so. hehe. but procrastinating is terrible. i know since long time ago. but till now i m stil procrastinating. my fren ask me for movie today, i said cannot la, need to do thesis, then sumore at nite already agreed to my good fren to have dinner with him. but then end up in the afternoon. watching 1 movie n doing sum st john stuff. cos the st john stuff need to submit tomoro as sum superior going to the HQ tomoro.

procrastinate, procrastinate = me.....

:)

panda bear is blogging

panda bear..who?? of cos me la... panda eyes getting bigger and blacker..

jus handed up an assignment yesterday. stil got 2 more to pass up. one really big big 1. which is 90%. my thesis lo. however was glad that i have this another lecturer, of cos not my supervisor la, this other lecturer who willing to help me with it. he really did give me lots of extra things that i can add on to the thesis. at first i did the topic jus for the sake of assignment. but then now, i do see it as a more useful paper. and i believe i can bring with me in my interview. hhmm.

got another assignment. is writing a business plan. the dateline changed from 1st dec to 12 dec. omg. too long already. i need to prepare for my marketing exam on 16 dec. aarrgghh..nvm..hopefully i wil get to focus then. hehe.

today the whole day i didnt do anything at ALL. afternoon was chatting with fren over msn for 2 hours. then watch tv series after series. until dinner. then after dinner, play game. then surfing the web. then now type blog. hehe. whole day gone. sumore got some st john work for me to settle. and i m sleepy now. hehe. thats me. not til the last minute also not excited to do my work. padan muka saya. hehe.

random thoughts

today at last i submitted the first assignment of the semester. i wasnt really that satisfied with this assignment. i feel that i could have done better. hehe. every assignments also the same. never satisfied. i m a person who always looking for improvements. never easily satisfied. for almost everything i would said. is the first time me paying a person to look thru the english for the assignments. this lecturer very particular bout grammar in the assignments. so he recommended some1 to us. and is rm50 per hour. we ended up there for 2.5 hour. so is rm125. divided by 4 person, rm32 per person.....argh.... but i think is a better piece of work after the editing la....the lecturer did look thru our assignment this morning b4 we handed in. however, his face was quite sour. means not a very good piece of work. probably to him, is jus a pile of RUBBISH. he just said that we lack of the conclusion. we can still hand it in the following class. so thats bout the 1st assignment la.

tomoro morning need to meet up with another group. is another group assignment. is for marketing subject. this subject assessment got 25% group presentation, 25% individual report, both is base on the same case study. and another 50% for final exam. the only final exam paper for the sem.the case study is on a device which use to catch a rat. boring nya this case study. compare to the other subject assignment we had last sem also by the same lecturer was on ice cream. i suppose every1 really enjoy that. hehe ....omg...talking bout rat....eelllll....

dad asked me to do some stuff, is some office stuff..then i told him to ask the tuition employee to do it la. i m going back home after had my dinner. he ask wat u going to do at home? i said assignments la. he said u today not pass up 1 already meh....i stare at him and ask him, i 1 sem only 1 assignment onli meh....aiyo.....why they always try to find out wat i m doing with my studies. why u go there. why u need to go 1 utama to do your discussion....and all those stupid question. as if afraid i wil go lepak o sumting. dammm!!! i m crazily stress out with all my assignments. where the hell i have time to lepak la...dun even have enough to sleep la...they always saying people are stupid for sending their children to study overseas. local cannot study meh. those who study local also can get very high pay. study overseas have to pay thru their nose or their child might stay there and not come back. my parents are jus so ignorant. they do not realy understand what is the outside world like. they dunno what is the education system overseas. even the degree i m doing is a UK degree, my cert will be from UK also. but then is the process of study. studying a degree is not for that paper, is for the knowledge. i would say studying in malaysia for a degree is a waste of time. especially if study in a college where the CEO are some kedekut chinese businessman n who love to hire old people and doing non efficient job. dun talk bout facilities like computer or gym those la. those not very important. talk bout database to search for article, we were only offered with ONE....ONE!!!!! only. and can barely find any articles from there. compare those who study overseas, they called it the super library where got tons of articles to search from....help needs help...i seriously quite unhappy the fact that i wasnt sent overseas. really hate them saying others stupid for sending their children overseas. they never had their tertiary education b4. n my dad a so called teacher also tak paham what is really a tertiary education should be.

now mum already start saying that once u start work, these these expenses wil b on ur own n bla bla bla...saying i m 21 n is a freedom for them cos they no need to bare my cost anymore... yup, going to be 21 very soon...will i really get my so called freedome which i have been long waiting for?? i doubt so. unless i start working. i slowly i jus have to be tough enough. not going to depend on them at all and then i can just do watever i farking want. i would say now i m worry my farking big car. the installment everymonth is not little. so the biggest consequences i can imagine of going against them would be them not paying for the car installment. even after selling the car, minus the depreciation and interest, i think i wouldnt have money left to buy another car. probably a 10 yr old kancil mayb....haha.... then probably i wil jus use the no11 bus, which is my pair of legs. i will definetely need to really work hard, which i will. i even love to shift out, but shifting out have too much things to be concern of, the cost of the rental, the cost of everything in the new place. n also me tak sampai hati to leave my coming new house...

i m going to be 21....ppl say is merdeka for me...hell no!!!...so i dun think it will be a happy 21st birthday afterall....

what do i really want

what do i really want ?? something which is compatible or something which is comfortable. compatible means you wil get really selfish. but comfortable means you are shy to bring out. this has been always conflicting in me. when the time comes, i hope i really know what i really want.

21st Birthday Wishlist

friends are asking me for my birthday wish list. at last i can make a list out already.


1. Christian Dior Holiday Lip Palette. OMG... i really like this. this is just so pretty and so functional...everytime i pick it up i wil defintely think of you..hehe

2. a PDA phone....i know is quite impossible for any1 to get me this. other than my parents. which they will not get for me. hehe. u see, this is a wish list ma. i can just wish for anything.

3. so a more practical one and not so pricey one, an organiser. 2009 is coming, and i going start to work (if i do find a job), so means got alot of things to remember. so definitely i need an organiser. not too big ya. but also not too small. probably a A5 size... no pink. no black. something sharp but not cute, must be elegant. it would be best those which i can refill. means after 2009, i stil can use back the same cover and i just buy the refill for the following years.

4. a bluetooth might be nice too. never had one before. i think i need one. so i can very conveniently talk when i drive.

let me think of sumore then i wil post up again.

no need of perfume. i m getting 2 perfumes this year. cant wait for my 2 new perfume to join my collection.

comparative study

comparison of Starbucks(SB) and coffee bean (CB) ..[cb means sumting terrible in chinese]

i am at coffee bean now online-ing. how come a starbucks fan is at a coffee bean now. haha. cos this coffee bean is really near to my house. this coffee bean is at desa parkcity. is less than 5 minutes drive from my house. parking is just very nearby and is free.

so now lets compare the drinks. (CB) dun have caramel marchiato. probably they dun have it cos is the best seller of SB and if cb does it badly then it will be critic. haha... when u want to have ice tea, they only have 2 at max for u to choose from. but SB, wil make it on the spot for u(btw, only certain SB, not all would do that also, but still...) i m having this salmon bagel an is 15.90. i dun think is worth it after it is served to me. the salmon is so little. and the side salad they gave is so little and so kedekut with their dressings. however, some of the whole food at CB are made fresh rather than SB all their food are pre made then later reheat or rebake.

at CB they only u to use credit card when ur bill is 25 n above. but SB any amount. at SB, you can get 10% discount when you use ur J card but only if ur bill is RM30 n above. [last time used to be any amount]. where else, CB had this card thingi. which u apply the first time is RM25 u get rm25 value. then the next time u top up, min amount of rm20 then u wil get value of rm22. so is like a 10% thingi. is like a prepaid card.

alrite, come to the conclusion, there are pros and cons for both.

Assignments

assignments are going to kill me slowly in 7 more weeks time
basically every 2 weeks from now on, i wil have 1 assignment to pass up.
everyday, i dun really seem to know what i should do.
and this is my final semester, it is very important as it will affect my classification for the degree. i m aiming for a second upper. aim easy to say. but can get anot is really another matter. aarrgghh....really worry.

especially the entrepreneurship subject. that lecturer is very particular with every single words is type into the presentation. OMG!! even for the presentation his expectation also so high, it wil be even worst for the assignment. and this subject is a 90% assignment. so i m dee ee eh dee.

My Final Ball

This friday is going to be my department ball. the economics department ball. and is also the last ball i wil ever attend in my college life. hehe. btw, since i m in my pre U, i attend each year ball. I do enjoy going to ball. especially when your whole group of friends are attending together just like this year. hehe. however, this year ball is ONLY at the flamingo hotel. and we have to pay rm100 for such type of hotel only. which alot of people think is not very worth it. but hell ya, is my final year, so got to attend. since last week, all the gurls been discussing what they should do with their hair la and make up. whether to do it themselves or pay sum1. for me, this fri going to retouch back the colour of my hair. so ask them to do my hair together. hehe. dun have to pay extra for it ma. keke...
this year theme is vintage. who would have vintage clothings la. gurls would be those dress with really big gown at the bottom, really push up top. guys would be tuks. aiyo, gurls dun own those dress, dun even know where to get those. college guys ah, dun think they would even want to own 1.

1101

aaahhh!!!! today magnum came out 1101 for special prize....haha. i didnt buy. it is almost 3 weeks already. and the car already has milage of 1000 km. tomoro dad bringing the car to fix the window which had some hair line crack. then together service also lo.

today my car kena 3 spot of bird shit...damn!!!! :'(

Salsa Advance Beginner

i had finish 1 level of salsa already. and that is only 3 months. hehe. that was fast. now i m in advance beginner level now. got more shines and turn combination to learn. as usual, some guys can really lead you and some guys just cant. hehe. and those good 1 really give u the right amount of strength, not too light or too much, to turn u around or lead u. for those, i think my turn wow, can go so smoothly. hehe. our teacher was saying, haha, when later you all get the double turns, it wil be much harder. hhmm.. i think i can gua. :) really tired today. yesday had ballet class, and i slept real late last nite. so muscle aching today. after salsa class, the aching was worst..

Cambodia Trip (Day 1)

Woke up at 3.30am. the flight is at 7am. as the night before just came back from ipoh. so only sleep around 1am. so went to LCCT airport. they are doing some small renovations. even is so early in the morning, but the airport is already pack with people. probably is because it is the holiday season. not really excited on going on this trip. as all of them are at least 20 years older than me. so it will be boring. although all this adults love cracking some dirty jokes yet most of the time i m fast asleep once i am on the bus. haha.

it is a 2 hour flight, flying from KL to siem reap. once i m up the flight. i slept the whole way. there are 11 of us, some are relative some are my parents friends. when we reach there, a local guide welcome us. we were provided with this mini bus. i took the last row all by myself. we were took the the tonle sap lake first. it is the largest lake in south east asia.

then we were took to a souvenir shop. they demonstrate how they do the silk scarf, wooden monuments and all those souvenirs thingy la. then finally bring you to their shop. and watever sold there are crazily expensive. so every1 ended up empty handed.

then we went for lunch. after lunch, we were brought to our hotel. overall. i quite like the hotel. clean, pretty, got quite a big swimming pool. went to the room to rest for 2 hour. then we were given a free massage for 1 hour by the tour company. so we were brought to this place for the massage. first, they wash our feet with some soap. then change on a pair of slipper. then they ask us to change into the provided tshirt and pants. all of us in 1 room. we were asked to lie down on a mattress.. then they wil start massaging. after the 1 hour massage, body feel so good.

then later we go to the Angkor site, to 1 of this temple which is build on this little hill to watch the sunset. took around half hour to reach the peak of the hill. then we need to climb up the temple. wy do i say climb, cos their staircase are very steep. it is at 70 degree. the steps are very narrow. the steps are build that way because in ancient time, they want the common people to bow down when they climb the staircase. to show respect to the god. if you do not show respect, you will have accident at the staircase. so reach up there, but is quite cloudy. cant see the whole sun as in the egg yolk shape. not like in egypt, i think i saw few times of sun rise and sun set in the whole egg yolk shape.

once the sun set, oohh shit.is so dark. when going down the hill, is so dark. cant really see the road properly also. and is not tar road. all mud road. have to be careful. then went for dinner. is a buffet dinner. got cultural show. is called the bbq buffet. but wat is bbq, only some pork or some beef in a satay stick, BBQed. then went back hotel. sleep like a pig.

i had lost my way somehow

i m abit of without directional now...in what sense?? in everything i guess. i am just doing what others are doing. other does their degree. follow lo. parents said what is better. follow lo. there are certain times, where i though i found the path, but somehow, it just seem to be unreachable. or it is jus too common where every1 is also using the same path. just getting so bored and sick of everything. i always think of death. i m afraid of it. life is too short. too short that i am so afraid of death. am i too young to be worried of it. i dunno. but average life i guess is onli 60-70. means max i left another 50 years. now i already had 20 years passed. another 2n a half 20 years to go. my pass 20 years, dun seem meaningful at all. whenever i start thinking up to this point, i will be so terrified. what is life?? whats after death?? in our religion, we were alwiz told that there is an afterlife. issit true.....??? if is true, how long will i be in that afterlife?? i m always so afraid that i might die tomorrow. cos i m jus too young, so many more things i have not done and tried and experienced. whenever i m alone during the nite, i often thinking bout this. it is so scary.

1101

chinese love buying numbers, especially during special occasion. which 1 of the common 1 is when sum1 you are close with bought a new car, then you will buy the car plate number. so last mon my fren were saying need to buy my plate number. so my fren jowen actualy did bought the number on last wed. even me also not that excited to buy the number. but that day the number came out which was very close is 1106. then i bought the number for last sat and sunday at magnum. then my fren wye mun told me sunday came out 1102. haha....

today after class, went to bangsar village with a few classmate. need to go there to do some research for our assignment. so all of course wanted to sit my car. hehe.. then after do wat we need to do, then we went to eat chocolate fondue at the shop name CHOCOLATE. i like the hot milk chocolate. i got a fren miss liew, she said yih i dun really like this. but she keep drinking it. then i ask her u said not nice, how come keep drinking it?? she said cos i paid already ma....haha!!!!...cha tou....yesday bought the cable to connect my ipod with the aux jack in my car. so fun now. i do not need to change cd after cd anymore. hehe. jus plug in the cable. then i got thousands over songs waiting to be played. start getting used of driving the car already., when i jus started driving the car, stil quiet jerky. now better. can control the acceleration better.

coming holiday

on the 1st and 2nd of oct will be going down to ipoh. then from ipoh go up to cameron highland. hhmmm....nice weather....got fresh strawberry. i wish i could buy some flowers back to put at home. but too bad, once m back on the 2nd, and leave to cambodia on 3rd morning. will only be back on the 6th evening. so i guess the time i m back, all the flowers wil be dried already. plan to buy some good tea from cameron.. hehe...but somehow, those good ones are imported. hehe... i guess that 6 days will be very tired especially on the 3rd oct. on the 2nd travel down from cameron to kl. then next morning the flight is at 7am. so means leave home around 4.30am. means wake around 3.30am. this trip have around 10 plus of relatives and parents frens. i suggest maybe we should play mahjung whole nite. no need sleep. haha!!!!!....

i wil be skipping 1 day of class which is on the 6th monday. wil be missing 2 marketing lectures. nvm... once i m back from the holiday, i need to really concentrate on my studies. especially my thesis. i been borrowing books back, but hardly touches them.. sigh.....

tomoro morning, wake up early to go open tuition centre. got replacement class. then both parents would be out for morning exercise. then afternoon going for ballet class. then going for highway duty at night. the duty starts at 8pm-8am. this will be my 3rd time going on highway duty. wish to gain some experience but of cos dun hope to have any accidents happen.

then sunday maybe going out with a fren from penang. she coming to kl for holiday. then mon and tue is going to college. means i dont have much time left to do all the things i need to do....sigh....me the lazy pig...

WRU 1101 is handsome and sexy

i got the car on tuesday. dad drove me to the showroom to take the car. once i reach there, i jump down from the car. then the first thing is to look for my car. then i saw 1 civic in sparkling gray colour. so i quickly went over to look at the plate number. TAADDAAA!! WRU 1101!! hehe...OMG....the sunshine was shining on it, the colour was so so so cantek!!! that time look like gray colour. when no sunshine, the colour will look like blue. loving the colour giler!!!

so then later went to sign some documents. then the salesman explain further all the functions of the car and bla bla bla..... the handbreak is very cute. very different from normal car. then the storage space between the driver and the passenger seat was quite big. oh ya, very nice cup holder. but the dashboard really long. cant really see the end of it. the out look of the car is sexy.....got quite high bump...hehe...

then next day send to the shop to fix the alarm and those plastic for the glass but not vkool brand. is 3M brand. it said to screen off 97% heat. which is better than vkool. then got those theft prevention kind, which wun break so easily. then the alarm was cool. i can lock and unlock my car using my hp. and arm and disarm my car using my hp too. hehe..but when the guy want to stick the thing on the glass time, then saw a very very very very tiny hair line crack on the front left window. you just look like that cant realise it. unless go realy really near and see properly only can see. took to show my salesman. he said need to send the photo up to the office then wait for reply lo.

week 4 of final semester

today is the first day of week 4 of final semester. i got total of 14 weeks. and i got total of 4 assignments and 1 exam for this semester. but i of the assignment is my thesis paper which carries lots of marks. this is already week 4. means 1 month of this semester going to passed. and i have done nothing. ZERO!!!!! i have done nothing for my thesis paper. i have done nothing for anything.....

not excited over the new car at all

even i know i m getting the car maybe tomorrow or wednesday, but i dun feel very excited which i suppose to be. just the fact that i can plug in my ipod and play with my player directly, that excites me abit la. thats why i m tidying up my ipod library which was a total mess before this. hehe.

watch out for my new outlook

This is the car i m driving soon.... WRU 1101
This is the colour of it:sparkling gray......

should i be happy or not

should i be happy or not?? recently there are quite some perk ups at home which really upset me. i think is not only recently, it has been always. i do not know whether to say myself shud b happy with what i have or sad with wat i dun have. so let me list down wat i have and dun have:
(purple is wat i have and red is wat i dun have)

- a brand new car, a honda civic, with a plate number of WRU 1101 which is my birthday, it is in sparkling gray colour

- i do not have the freedome of go wherever i want without asking permission. i have to tel them where i m going, then they wil ask specificly how many ppl is going and who is going and how am i going. where and how stil understandable. if i said i m going with my classmate then farking stop asking how many going and wat are the names who are going. n as if u remember them. sumtime they even mix them up and i have to farking explain to them everytime who is who. and not only asking b4 i go. and even when i m back they farking like to ask again who was there. didnt i told u who was there b4 i went. i m so sick!!!!!!

- branded clothes, branded handbags

- dont get to buy new handphone whenever i like

- travelling around the world

- go clubbing all i want to go. they think go clubbing means drinks will get spike and then wil get rape!!!!! not that them saying that out. i guess had been a long time me not going to clubbing. the reason is i m too lazy to tel them that i want to go. then they wil ask even more question or even disallow me to go. i rather dun ask so watever they said are not going to spoilt my mood of the day. with them spoiling my mood, the whole day, i m unproductive at all. which is bad for studies, dun they farking understand!! i m defintely going all i like when i start working. cos i do not need to farking depend on them anymore. they not happy with me, i shift out onli la.

i hope the car that i m getting enough to make me happy for sum time.

hard day

omg....i shouted til my throat hurts...but they all stil so damm noisy..

went to this private school at pj to teach them first aid class. they are group of secondary and primary student. most of them are not interested in the class. some of them even sleep. and i guess there are 50 of them. n they got 5 teacher advisor. i repeat 5!!!! but they dun seem like teacher who can control their student. u see, rich kids school. cant scold or cant be harsh to them. if they complain to their mama papa, means no business to the school. after the director of the school fire the teacher lo..haha..

most of them are talking there, i gotta speack really loud so they can actually hear me, for those who want to learn something la. i do see some students who are interested in learning. they ask alot of questions. but most of those who are interested in learning are the primary students. but got a few really participate but always talk crap. then onli got 2 or 3 of the secondary students ask me questions.

conclusion, they are the worst students.

so much things to blog but just too lazy

i had so much things to do, but every night just seem to be so lazy. this 3months really make me so lazy. once i m back from work, then i wil on my tv and on my laptop. i wil be watching the tv and also online. nothing much that i had done during the holiday other than at work la.

btw, let me update on my life since the last blog.

on 24th sunday, after usual salsa class, then i and adelene rush off cos we are going to KOTA bharu. our classmate, han syn hometown. we went to the lrt station, taman bahagia station near adelene house. then we sit lrt to kl sentral. we are like some jakun who never ride on a lrt before. we took photo in the lrt. haha. i guess there are some ppl who are looking at us. lucky there are only afew ppl on board. we want to take photo to show every details of the trip. hehe. another trip of me and adelene. then from kl central go to lcct with the sky bus. i guess i m not going to talk much of the trip in this post up as we are planning to start a new blog to put up details of our trip and of course PHOTOS!!!..

back from kota bharu on wednesday, bad bad sore throat. took some medicine. throat stil very pain. mum also got sum chinese medicine for me.thursday, work lo. then fri work half day, then evening went to a st john dinner. at klang. as usual, dinner at klang means hokkien hall. this dinner is the state dinner in conjuction of 100 years birthday of st john malaysia. as usual wear mess kit.

this is the photo of me and chee hwa. as usual, hate wearing this mess kit. n is freaking hot even the place is air conditioned. this is the onli photo i receive during the nite. u see normally i dun bring camera out. took quite some photos with others, waiting for them to send over.

sat, afternoon went to work. then ballet. got relative from ipoh came. so went out with family to japanese food. then back home, watch tv n online. then onli get to sleep around 3am.

on 31st aug, my parents are going on a 1day trip to bentong with their frens. 1 bus load of them. so of cos i m not interested la. so boring. no friends. all their children are so young. nothing to talk at all. they keep asking me where m i going n bla bla weeks before the trip. then i said wil b out with frens la. but ended up the few fren which i always go out with r all not at kl. so i decided that i m going to walk around alone. since on sunday, i also got salsa class at 3pm. then i need to get a dinner wear.so went to gardens look see around. wanted to buy a movie ticket online.. but gsc website quite screwed up sumtime. so cant buy. then cudnt wake up cos woken up by grandma early in the morning at 5sumting. cos she slept in my room, she is following my parents to the trip. she dun noe how to on the heater of my room. then onli sleep back at 8sumting. suppose wanted to wake up at 9am and go to mid valley to get ticket. mana tau onli wake at 10am. by the time i park my car is already 11am. so decided not to watch movie at mid valley. as queue defintely will be crazily long especially on a public holiday. so decided go to gardens to watch movie la. bought death race ticket at 12.45pm. so went around to look for the evening wear. but look the whole midvalley and gardens stil cant find 1 which is even worth trying on. then time to go for movie. haven got my lunch. order a sandwich at the cafe of the cinema. they deliver to your seats. hehe. the sandwich not too bad, of course la, as the price i m paying for it. death race i think is quite exciting. but not much meaning. then after movie, went to salsa class at hartamas.

salsa class combine a few shine together and become 1 complicated shines. interesting and FUN.. then this week very unusual, as normally class has gurls more than guys. however, today guys more than gurls. haha. normally the second half of the class, we do partner work. so a gurl and a guy dance together. and we line ourself in a big circle in the classroom. normally the guys will anti clockwise. so means we actually get to dance with different guys. probably each guys around 3-5 times in a class la. however, today got guys more than gurls. the gurls are suppose to be the 1 rotating. means the guy stay put, n we gurls go around. hehe. so awkward. cos use to guys rotating for 2months already. hehe. we are learning more tricks and more routines.

after class, went to bangsar village. trying to find a evening wear. but stil cant find 1. then went to mph. bought a entrepreneur magazine and bought a first aid manual. which i lost mine 2 years back. i wanted to get 1 quite long time already. hehe.then went sakae sushi ate cold soba. hehe..not eating sushi as the nite b4 already had.

then went home, slept really early at 9 sumting. but woken up by family when they were back. so annoying. dun they know that i had sleeping problem. if i fall asleep before i really sleep like a pig, and i got woke up that time, is very very hard for me to sleep back. if i dun get to sleep back, i wil b awake for hours and very hard to sleep back. yup, they dun understand. DUMB... lucky stil get to sleep back after few attemps of sleeping and got woken up by those dumbies.

this morning woke up, go for lunch at a korean restaurant at hartamas as my relative is going back to ipoh. n omg, i saw this 2 korean working at this restaurant, 1 is very cute, 1 is quite cute. they work mostly around the counter. not sure are they related to the boss of the restaurant. the very cute 1 i saw him the last time i went to the restaurant. the quite cute 1 first time saw him at the restaurant. you know, sumting you might accidently both person eye just look to each other, yup, the quite cute 1 did had that eye contact, n he smile and a he nod his head a lil. the quite cute got good figure weh. not to say those 6packs kind la, tall, not skinny and not fat la.

then after that went to klcc to look for the evening dress. at last i found 1 from BCBG. is black long dress. wowhoo...look so good on me, love it. bought it at last. wil post up sum photos of me n the dress and sum other photos of me trying other dress. hehe.

jun asked me to sleep early as college is starting already. but now is almost 2am. gotta disappoint you again. hehe. but at least i already bloggged.

my worst day at Cheras

today suppose to be happily go down to Queens Park at Cheras to shop. went with my mum, grandma, n 2 of my mum fren. so i drove my dad car there. mum decided to drive dad car than her own car as dad car got bigger space. so we went n i collect my armani exchange jeans which i alter the last time i buy from the shop there. then also got a pair of new jeans from dkny and a sweater from max mara. i like the sweater. so hot. then after done shopping, so went up the car n i drove back home. jus turn out of jalan peel and go around 2km. then the car suddenly jerk and slowly slow down n quickly manouve the car to the side and total stop there. then try to start the car again. cant. try a few times, at first thought the alarm buat hal, is not. then cant figure out as all female on board, so lucky that we stop right infront of this service factory like. i dun call it a service shop as it is huge. so called a guy came out, check on our car, cant figure out wat happen. then push into the workshop. check check, then conclude that the motor which suppose to pump the oil to the engine does not functioning well. call dad. dad insist do not change anything there. as the shop ppl might not have the knowledge for a benz car. after make things worst, then the car habis la. n that guy dun even sure where is the battery of the car locate. haha. benz car battery is under the back seat. so dad said can drive back. that guy jus knock knock ont he thing then the engine can start. so we drove off. and hopefully the car will not stop again until we reach home. we didnt even on the aircon. from cheras to reach home at 6pm, passing thru kl surely freaking jam. and while going up this bridge infront of Istana budaya, the car jerk and loss power and i quickly manourve it to the left as much as possible. as i m going uphill, cant go far. so wasnt really sticking to the curb. i guess my car stuck on the bridge make the jam behind worst. i guess if there is no jam, we can reach home smoothly. cant do anything cos we already expect that it might happen. suddenly this 2 indian guy on a bike, came beside our car, saying he is the foreman n bla bla bla.....we say we do not need his service we got our toll truck on the way. then he said u move to the side la to ease the traffic bit. so they push n really stick to the curb now. and 5 mins later, 3 traffic police riding their bike and came to the car. then the traffic police were discussing whether to get my car forward down the bridge or reverse down the bridge. but if forward down the bridge no space to put the car. then they decided that i reverse my car back down as there is this divider where there is red colour painted box. so let go my break,put to neutral, and start controlling my steering wheel. my car jus slide down, of cos need to control the speed and the direction la, the bridge is not straight. then other 2 policeman controlling the traffic down there so it was quite easy. but once a life time experience,escotted by traffic police.haha....sound grand...but.....hehe....waited for some time, my mum fren husband arrive. he try to knock the thingi under the car, the same spot the mechanic try to fix earlier on, then i went to start the car. but it does work. then i guess another half hour only the toll truck onli reach. haih so tired. all of us went into the uncle car. he is driving 5 series bmw. the new 1. loving it. the best part the top can be open. i remember there was once where i went to johor for a st john course. my fren driving this carat car, got the top opening, we went out at night for a drink. and we open up the top, standing there and let the wind blow, wow thats so hhmmm....that is a very good feeling...

will defintely get that in future....i love sea breeze too...if in future, if i got the money, i thnk i wil get a little boat for myself...hehe...

movie marathon day

this morning woke up around 9. reach mid valley at 10am. got really good parking just outside of the cinema. so bought ticket.

10.45am:journey to the earth 3D
2pm: wall e
4.15pm:sex and the city

mid valley is the onli cinema with the 3D for journey to the earth. the ticket is rm17 weh...but of course they supply u with a 3d specs. that come with a theft tag.haha. and with broken or lost have to pay rm20 weh...the story line was fine, but the 3D not very enough. not scary enough....hehe...

then i and adelene went for lunch first. so decided to eat sumtime different. no chinese surely. so went to the gardens. look at the directory at last decided thai food. at flying chilies. the food not too bad. the thai ice tea was interesting and yum yum and special. and normal la, catch up time.n adelene did started talking bout gotta start finding jobs already. yup . me gotta start looking for jobs too. but i m stil not satisfy with my resume yet. i think i stil got alot of other things can add in. i not sure the company that i m interested in will be interested in taking me in. cross my finger.

then we watch wall e. ok la. is a cartoon lo. got quite some meaning bout that story la.

then sex and the city. i love that movie. i think it really meaningful and applicable to todays life where career has became 1 of the importance for women. i guess the movie did give me some enlightment on life, marriage and career altogether.

then went to office after that for dinner. then my mum anak angkat came to see her. so her anak angkat means my adik angkat. so he sendiri pandai pandai call me kakak angkat. hehe. the last time he visit us 1 month ago saying that he is going to australia for a tour to visit his brother who is studying over there. asking us do we want any souvenir from there. so i requested nougat. hehe. is quite hard to get over here especially the whole pack which have a varieties 1. yup, he came up today, pass us the souvenir. he really got it for us. didnt noe he really bought it. he bought those big pack 1 which have 4 flavours in it. it has the original flavour 1, the cappucino, green tea and peppermint.. the green tea and peppermint i guess is really new flavour. never try that before. i quite like the soft nougat especially the peach flavour soft nougat. but he got the crunchy nougat. is stil really good. i cant wait to reach home to try the 2 new flavour. i straight away already open up the green tea and peppermint, and YUMMY....is really good.....

movie marathon

i guess the coming week i m going on a movie marathon..

this sunday going with a fren for the MUMMY and wed plan to watch 3 movies in a row with some friends. so happy...not sure what 3 movies we gonna watch, but confirm is sex and the city....watching the movie mummy with a fren where i meet him the same place i meet mummy...haha...interesting...but the mummy not really the egypt mummy, is the china mummy...probably china mummy is cuter....LOL

on 25th or probably 24th evening i m going down to kota bharu to visit a classmate. gonna be back on 27th..... yup...at least no pulau stil got KB. keke..but afterall, i guess 2 gurls going to pulau is quite dangerous, we are not familiar with the ppl and the place, kena tangkap wanna get help also difficult....

yup, so i guess most of the following week wil be enjoying then working..keke...

salsa this sunday, cant wait to learn some new shines and turns. i wanna learn that triple turn....cool...i dun think is hard if got the technique. but first of all i stil need to get a pair of SHOES!!!!

another awful day

is quite a awful day today, i think for the past 20 years plus of my life, most of the day that i spent are quite awful. as long the day are spent in this house with THEM, then is very awful. i always tell myself, i m so much lucky than those unfortunate people. but i stil very suffering being here. i really hate being here. i dun feel like i m owning my life. i have been hoping that every seconds, every minutes, each day, each month will pass away faster so i can start working and start be independent. one day, when i start to work, can i really be independent?? i dunno....i dun dare to think. all those things had runing around in my head for the whole afternoon, n my whole day mood was so bad. it all started actually cos of me going to pulau trip.

sometime i really feel my heart got crush so badly, there is no one who could understand wat i m going thru. why must they always need me to think from their side, but they never think bout my feelings?? why watever they do is defintely right, and watever others do which contradicts them is wrong. they are not that smart and wise after all.

why do i just act like a tame pet to them, why i never had the guts to betray them, to shout at them, to run away from them. i m so so tired. i think i have been blogging bout this feeling for so many times. i guess everyday it stil have the same conclusion,

NOTHING THAT I CAN DO...

i hate myself for being so restless....for being so useless.......

Chee Hwa

Happy Birthday to Chee Hwa. His birthday is on 13th August. He is 24 years old rite now. He is a friend of mine which i had known him for 5 years already. that can be said as long , can also be said as short. i known him through St John. i would say, in St John he is my best fren and closest friend. Still remember that time I and him was also the chairman of our respective school's St john society. so every year my school st john surely organise 1 gathering. so i m the chairman, i got to contact with all the other chairman from the other schools. we did talk on the phone few times before the gathering. i remember him telling me after knowing me better that i did not really give him a good impression in the phone. hehe.

so on that day gathering day, my ex chairman did introduce him further to me as my ex chairman knew him in the last camp. i dun really remember wat happen that day, but i just know that we wasnt talking alot during the gatherings as i m busy, and i m not that good at socialising with ppl i just know them. thats my weakness.

so day after day, we start to sms, then start talk on the phone. and it got more frequent. then we started to discuss bout our everydays feelings. til 1 of this day i late for school, and i told him. then he started waking me up in the morning everyday. he will give me a morning call everyday when i need to go to school. and til today, i stil rely on his morning call once a while. whenever there is an important function in the morning, or i was too lazy to inform my mate to wake me up, or is so early that my maid not even awake yet, so normally i wil drop him a sms , then the next morning i wil b receiving his morning call. hehe. so lucky of me. stil remember that time, when i knew him i was form 4 and he was in upper 6. so the following year, i m in form 5 and he is not studying. jus waiting for result. morning school have to wake up at 6am. that time he got no school to go to. but every morning, without fail, he stil wakes me up to go to school. i think that is a very sweet thing done by my friend.

last time when i stil were at secondary school, we used to send letter to each other using snail mail. we used to hand written those letter in chinese. i still keeping all of his letter. but it is also my habit of keeping every single card or letter sent by my friends. i love spraying some of my perfume on the letter i sent him. when he is reading the letter, i guess the scent will make him feel better. i stil remember once he told me, he normally keeps all my letter in his drawer with his school tie. so his tie will smell like my perfume too.. hehe..

few years back, both of us did have some sparks happen. but the sparks did not spark at the same time. but then, we are still very good frens now.

i think he is 1 of the first few person where i wil share my ups and downs with. for example, that day when i suppose to go collect my result, i was so excited and nervous on getting my result, i sms him n told him bout it, then he wil reply back and calm me down. whenever i m not happy or anything, i would normally think of him and tell him that i m not happy, then he wil start consoling me. every few days, he will call in and check on me how m i doing n etc. i guess he is the onli fren who do so.

all birthday present given by him to me, are normally quite handycraft like. there was this 1 year, where he fold stars and put it in a jar, with some cotton underneath with some perfume. hehe...cos i love perfume, keke.... he loves giving me things with my name in it. like a handphone string, with my name on it. a key chain with my name on 1 side and happy birthday on other side.

so now, i m stil thinking of wat to present to him. i ask him wat he wants, he stil refuse to. he just keep saying think of something myself. n he requested me to write a blog about him. yea, so i did, this it is. so i stil gotta think of what to buy for him which is special enough to be present by me.

PS to Chee Hwa:

I hope you will be happy everyday. Your always happy go lucky attitude do brighten my days alot. I appreciate for all the things you had done for me. I am very thankful for all the time you spent hearing to my downs. I am very glad that i have such a good friend. Thanks for being my alarm clock even you are not suppose to wake up at such early morning. Hope our friendship will last forever. Muaks!!!! hugsss.....

9 aug

couldnt sleep last nite. dunno why. i think i only get to sleep around 3 sumting in the morning. then i gotta wake up at 6sumting in the morning. so basically i only slept 3 hours.

So woke up get ready then went to kelana jaya our training centre, we are suppose to give exam to the group of medical students which i gave course last week. so went there, most of them reach already. hehe. they are early. i would say this group of students so far i do not see any latecomers before other than the first day where 1 student forget bout the course. quite good students i would say. so we started with the practical exam first. as my senior officer is there, so obviously she wil take the cpr part. then me the fracture, bandage and transportation. basically all of them also know how to do their things. just some minor minor things which they forgot.

so the guy which i said which keep bugging me last week, wasnt really bugging me that much. but stil got abit la. probably he is just too busy with his exam.hehe.

i pass around a piece of namelist which i require them to sign then the guy which i said who did caught my attention, when i reach home, looking thru the list, i saw him draw a smiley beside the signature. and then i was marking their theory paper just now, i notice this guy got so high marks. i was quite surprise as he is one of the 2 which is not medical student. then i mark the guy which sit beside him, that guy got 100 marks. n i can see the style of answering of the 100 marks guy quite similar to the guy which sign with a smiley. LOL,....i think that guy curi tengok la....can see easily as the words use quite similar and with shorter answer...then the sequence of the answer is the same...

after finish the exam, so they request for a group photo, is more for proof of them attending the course...haha...then after that, quite alot of them did came and thanks me. thats the best part, where watever your hard work is being appreciated. i m happy that i m teaching others how to help others. so is a very missionary job i m doing...hehe....lagak pulak...keke..

then after that went to work. so freaking tired n sleep. then later went home ready for ballet class. then took a short nap. then go for ballet. a ballet fren of mine is going back to canada. she came back for semester break. she changed so much. she had more style and more self confident. so proud of her. and even her 1 year of not dancing, she stil can dance quite well...hehe...wish her all the best.

then went home after ballet, my relative from australia reached my house already. so long time didnt see her. but i dun really have much things to share wit her, as she is in her 50s la..i where got conversation topic with her 1 la...she keep saying that she saw all my photos on facebook la...so dolled up la...she wished her son was younger or sumting...lol...but her son is 33....kaka....

sad thing is she and her husband is using my room and my toilet. basically i took some of my clothes down to my study room, all my face things are in my study room. then i wil sleeping in the tv room.....sob sob....my room....sob sob....

had flu today..probably not enough sleep thats y nose quite sensitive. so tired now....tomoro morning have to go back to kelana jaya for st john area meeting....then afternoon going for SALSA...haha....

7aug

today i got my new shower screen.....it is so so so so so pretty and hot n sexy....it has picture on it....guess wat....i did not choose those flower pattern on it, but i choose a gurl which only covered with some piece of cloth on the important part, can see her long slim legs, the figure...yum yum...i just wish i have such smooth skin, such pretty and long legs and such pretty face. which quite impossible. so thats for me to dream of...haha....but the effect of the picture is good. i got bit of 3D effect....from the inside or outside, it also look like the picture is facing you. got few times of mumble from dad cos of this shower screen. cos he been saying la you all should have bla bla bla,,, you just like your mum, go do only, never think. ya la, we got no brain 1 la.....quite piss of actually, whenever he not happy with my mum and he will mumble mumble all on me....i m like the mangsa.....i think i gonna go nuts already....

this year btw i am having my birthday party at some quite grand place. usually parents call their frens. n normally their frens bring their spouse and children. n furthermore this time it is the company 10 anniversary. is celebrating it together. i was telling him so prepare your guest list i need to print the invitation card already. n then he start asking so where is ur guest list. i said when i want to print i jus straight type into the computer. he said i want to see your guest list first. he start saying bout himself, those fren i have ah, which not very close ah, i CANCel their name out. i dun simply call any1 to come. i call those who are really FRIEND to me. WTF!!!! we are expecting 250 guest. n i think the most all my fren can occupy is 50 - 60. only fucking 20% of the total. and half of the event is mine, not URS.... i m jus fucking taking 20% only. i want to invite who then who la. why shud he fucking care so much. really pissed off. actually got quite some ppl which i really wanted to invite which i think i gotta not invite them. as my parents would be wondering how come you invite this person, you very close to this person ah.... even in my past birthday, i got these 2 malay classmate which were very close to me in form 4 n 5 time. in my 17 birthday, they came with both their bf. n 1 bf got long hair. n not very tidy kind. very very skinny. n then another fren punya bf got pierce all around, probably like 3 or 4 pierce in his whole head la. n dyed blonde hair. then i tell you, the STARE that my dad gave to my fren that time was so scary. what is his problem man. is there a problem for my fren having such a bf. my dad is always with his judging pair of eyes to my frens. guy with long hair means bad. guys with any piercing means bad. gurl with more than piercing on the ears means bad. i stil remember i had this course mate, he got quite long hair, he always wear his cap. n the only brand of cap he wear is FCUK. n this year he came to my birthday, with his usual cap FCUK and he wearing this red blouse which normally the chinese guy wear during the chinese new year type. then my parents then came to me keep asking me who is this guy la n bla bla bla. they pulak sangat jakun dunno wat is FCUK stands for. they just thought it was in purpose on spelling FUCK wrongly. althought i was luckier than so many other ppl that i have my birthday party every year. but i can say probably i m not that happy after all.. most of the ppl who attend the party are my parents frens n their family and my relatives. my frens probably 20% the most. this is birthday party meh....then every time after my party, then my parents will be questioning so who is this guy, who is this gurl...

this coming 1 is my 21st birthday, if they are so restricting, i think i would rather called off the birthday then rather having a non happy birthday party.
my parents always thinks that they give me the best thing and i should be grateful of it and i should not compare with my friends. although i have most of the thing to be branded and so forth. but everything single thing also need to be approved by them. even if i want to change a hp, i m not allowed to unless i have a reason to do so. so far the hp i m owning now is the 4th one. the first was 3210, was passed down by my mum, that one drop to the mangkuk tandas. then 2nd was 3310. is like the cheapest model at that time. i didnt get to change it for 3 years until it wasnt really functioning well. then i got this sony ericsson hp but i cant remember its model name. but defintely the cheapest 1. then later my handbag got snatch, then i got this nokia 6230 that i m using for i think 3 years already. even getting a 1K model hp also with some condition which i exchange with my mum. which is attending this thing called the Landmark Forum which it supposingly get to transform you. my mum hope this can transform me into not such a rebellious daughter. HAHA...gladly, it fucking not work. cause from day 1 onwards, i already tune my mind that i came here cause of my phone...haha...and when later part we had this group thingi. n every1 in the group knew that i attended the forum cos of the HP....haha...but something i was so happy that i meet this fren, name chee chung. will talk bout him next blog.

come back to my fucked up life at home, yup, basically i got not much life at home. so my fren, dun be surprised that if i called off my this year birthday party.

2aug - 4 aug

2nd aug

so today woke up quite early to go down to kelana jaya, our st john there is a group of medical year 2 student from IMU are coming to attend the course. there are 24 of them. so most of them are around the same age as me. i was really worried that they will ask me certain question or disagree on my saying as watever they learn could be more than i know. i was really worried. afterall, i m not that good in first aid after all. at the end of the day, i do find them very nice ppl. they didnt really give me any hard time. n they are quite crazy too. haha. n i can see some of them do quite respect me although i do not have much incredibility in first aid...hehe...

i did spot 1 guy which quite interesting to know further. hhmm..he is not a medical student. but 1 of the medical student brought his gf and his brother to attend the course too. n that guy was quite interested in knowing my age. but that was quite early part of the course, i didnt really review my age because if you are too young, ppl might doubt your credibility...hehe...so he was guessing i m 21-23. which supposingly i m not even 21 til my birthday. today mostly are the theory part, n quite worried that if i said anything wrong.hehe..but afterall, bravo to me,i did well..keke

3 aug.

today is the 2nd day of the course. wasnt really worried today already.as today mostly are practicals. but there is another officer who will be doing most of the talking today. i will only back him up on any circumstances or just add on to wat he left. so today i do realise this guy which is quite fond of talking to me, keep asking me question, keep having conversation with me. can see that he is the only guy doing that. even the other officer also realise that. so i went to mc'd to makan. some of them did follow, n so do this guy. this guy was very obvious at mc'd was trying to sit beside me. supposingly on my left is a walkway, but he put a chair on my left, then on his left he purposely like buat buat to reserve a seat for his other fren who is ordering food. but mana tau, his fren sit somewhere else. so he have to retract the chair beside me, n sit on the chair which he reserve for his fren. then he actually went to the basin to wet his hair. EEELLLLL...... to show he look cool i guess. haha...or probably he jus runs out of gel today, he shud use glue la to stick his hair up....LOL....so then i was half way eating, then he ask me, so that ring who gave me. i always wear this ring which my mum bought for me which i like a lot on my right index finger. i said my mum. then he ask ur 21st birthday present. i said nope. i not even 21 yet. not til my birthday. he said...oohhh, so gonna be 21 la...btw, he is the same age as me. cos on their attendance list got ic number. then the speaker of the day was telling me that, even him can see that this guy was hitting on me...haha....he said ppl talk to u then dun talk back la. i said cannot, thats so rude...hehe...then later part, where 1 of the practical is transportation. 1 of the transporting method is piggy back. so he was trying to piggy back this other gurl which is quite big size. but fail. then he ask me to go over. n let him piggy back. then i like hhmmm....so i jus go over la...cos this method is the casualty suppose to sit on the chair n get piggy back. so i sit on the chair. he got my leg and hand la. then the st john officer was looking at me n smiling ahead there. i stare him back n rolled my eye at him. he start laughing at me over a corner quietly n observe wat this guy do to me..kaka..but that guy stil fail to piggy back me up, cos he lack of techniques la...hehe....so 1 of the other transport method is craddle, means like carry a child on ur arm. so the officer assistant was very heavy. 70kg. compare to me 50kg. so he carry me la. so he carry me up and walk a few step, once he carry me up, and all the students were like "aaawwwwwhhhhh" (sound out). it actually let me remember back wat my first ex did to me many many years ago. where he cradle me in his arm n walk across this flooded area. was so touched that time. when i leave, some of them did said formally, thank you sheryn. or thanks alot sheryn......i was so trilled. i think i wasnt that bad afterall....keke.....

4 aug


stil like yesday nite mood, very very moody...dunno why....probably cos my body is aching...n the day is very very hot..make me really not feeling good.then went out for lunch wit family. then went to bank to run some errands. then go work. then went to a member house at sri damansara to collect the st john flag day tin. cos tonite some officer gonna come to do the counting of the money we collected from the tin. the amount that they collected were onli half of the amount last time we used to collect. sigh. wat to do. members now do not have such a commitment anymore.



5 aug

quite happy and excited as at nite i m going to meet up with my frens, 2 of them which i long time didnt see them. i went out with adelene, michelle and vern may. last time there there were 5 of us which named by a fren of us as 'glamours' ...haha...not sure why we were given that name. but that time during foundation we were very close. we go everywhere together 5 of us. even we decided to eat instant noodle for lunch at college, all 5 will go buy a bowl of instant noodle from Kiosk then our college have water filter, and it has the hot water. so soak the noodle with the hot water, then all 5 of us will be sitting at the long corridor of help underground building eating our maggi....haha...there were once all 5 of us brought laptop to use during our break, all 5 were displaying our laptop 1 row...haha...that was the fun time la...1 of them is in perth now studying. another 2 is stil at HELP but doing another program at another block, hardly get to see them. semester break and exam time all different. then me n adelene together at this program.

so michelle and vern may was talking bout the eshopping business that they are doing. cant believe it...me n adelene the business student haven even think bout doing business now, but the psychology student is doing it....haha...can see that they are doing very well..so happy for them..when i reach home, i was so excited to view their eshopping site. as usual, the site which design by michelle is fantastic. looking thru their site, got quite a few wows...hehe...so proud of them.

had a really great catch up with everybody's life. every1 seem happy. n all 4 of us will be graduating in the same convo. quite happy actually...i really do miss andrea alot.

28 july

woke up around 11sumting. need to get ready to go out. today work only start at 5pm. need to meet up with a landscape designer to discuss about new house landscaping. so the person office is at hartamas. and hartamas has lots of korean restaurant. so far we only tried 1 of the restaurant, that 1 is good, been there around 5 times already. so thought maybe we should try some other ones. so we try the 1 jus opposite the designer office. the designer told us last time it was quite good. there are 4 of us, me, parents and our architect. so we order 1 set is the beef set. it comes with 4 types of beef for bbq. then 1 stone rice and 1 soup. that suppose is for 2 person. so we order a seafood pancake and a ox soup. the beef set is only rm120. but is so worth it. u got 4 type of beef for bbq. although the portion is smaller. the normal 1 beef bbq cost up to 40 plus or 50 plus. so i think is quite worth it. yum yum....i guess jun is drooling when he reads bout korean food.

then after meet up with the landscape guy. he showed us some of his previous projects. then he was showing that there is this bungalow which cost 15million to build. OMG. n WTF. so much...SIAO.... the designer was showing 1 of this picture which is 2 lying kind of chair which put beside the pool, each of the chair cost rm30,000. SIAO!!! i cant really see what kind of material is the chair made of. but is crazily expensive. probably the owner just got too much money n the bank book got not enough space to put in the zeros...so they just gotta stuff those money sumwhere.

i got a close fren, andrea who is studying landscaping. but too bad, she is stil studying. stil got quite some time b4 she graduate. just wish that she can do my house landscaping. probably she can do my room landscaping, i got a little so called garden outside of my bathroom. i hate to maintain it. not sure what should i put there. probably just put my tortoise there.

i m going to collect my results tomoro. and also my thesis proposal. hope the marks wun be lower than i expected. hope is not lower than 2nd lower class. if not really lost hope to myself la.

2nd salsa class

today is my 2nd salsa class. i learnt 2 shine and 1 type of turn. i realy really need to get a pair of shoe specially for dancing salsa. but have no idea where to get it. i love salsa...

26 jul

only slept for 3 hours, then woke up at 6am. need to reach pj at 7am. so tired n sleepy. i didnt know my that ceremonial uniform need to wear glove. too bad, already reach the venue. impossible for me to get any. supposingly the letter sent to me said that there is a rehearsal at 7.15, but there were no rehearsal. so we waited waited n waited. then the event start. start giving up the warrant for officer. then later is the promotion letter. then later is the best member n officer award. then is the 5 years service medal. wow, the rm50 sumting medal, is heavy. haha. so i guess it is slightly worth its money.

so after that there is some refreshment.

then went back. plan to take 1 hour nap. then i only woke up after 2 hours. supposingly i wanted to wake up to prepare some of my MC speech for the Hi tea event. mana tau slept too much. quickly woke up get ready then left to the venue. lucky i wasnt late. then reach there, quickly prepare my speech. is jus a very small event, so not much speech i have to do. i did some call card, only 8 pieces needed. thats how little things i need to talk. the VIP came really late. other wise everything else run OKly.

nite went to watch movie RED CLIFF wit parens. cos they wanted to watch movie. RED CLIFF part one, the movie really ended with no ending of the story. the movie is to be continued. but jus wonder when the part 2 going to be out. cos the movie is GOOD. but if u want to understand the movie better then gotta understand a bit of the CHINA history , the 3 kingdom legend.

St John accessories are so expensive

this year, i have been awarded with this award called the 5 years award. so the area will gift us the medal which is to be put on our ceremonial uniform. we as officer got 3 set of uniform. 1 is duty uniform which we wear most of the time. 1 is ceremonial uniform which the top only cost me rm150 which we wear during parades and certain ceremony. i would said thats the cheapest tailor in KL. the 1 more is called the mess kit which the top also cost rm150 and it is only wear during st john dinner. so the 5 years service medal need to be put on the 3 set of uniform. it is not a must. but it is an indication of seniority i would say. so i need to buy the service medal for the mess kit 1. it is a miniature size to the ceremonial medal. cos today i went down to our state level hq at klang, i saw the price was rm36. is such a little thingi. and when i was wowing on the price,my area commander said the 1 which the area giving to us is rm50 sumting ah. i m like...hhhmmmm....so expensive. jus now i open up the plastic, n is so small n so light only. omg.... but it stil look so pretty la...haha.... i wonder those very senior 1, they got their long service award, n also other award, i wonder in total how much they have paid to hang on their uniform. i think u rompak 1 of their uniform, probably u sell also can get three four hundred. haha...the ceremony to receive my that 5 years award is this sat. sigh. gotta wake up at 6am. sien....

then in the afternooon is the hi tea event, n i m the MC. at last i already figure out wat to wear already.my mum suggested me to wear my white blazer and those formal long sleeve collar shirt. and formal pants. wow!! formal. adelene said look PRO...kaka...but i have not prepare my speech yet. DIE...

I passed all subjects

thank god...i passed all the subjects in the last semester

han syn this evening called me up and said that results can be view online. normally the online result can only see whether pass or fail. but there is no indication of what gred. at least better than nothing. in my previous blog i did mention that the finance subject had lots of ppl fail. so i m really worried. once i got back home, then i straight away went to check. lucky i passed. actually cant be said luck or anything, is all the hard work i put in. i would not say is very very hard work. but sufficient of effort to allow me to pass. hehe...now waiting for the results with gred to be out. before i reach home to check my result, i was kinda worried. wat if i fail 1 subject??!! means i have to retake it not this coming semester, but the semester after the coming 1. which mean i will only graduate 1 semester than expected. that is 4 months. no way.... i already plan to start working already....i already plan to start be financially independent already...

results

results gonna be out soon in 2 weeks time. i m very very worried. adelene told me the other day that there are quite alot of ppl fail finance subject. i m not that confident in that subject. our thesis proposal can be collected already, actually can be collected quite some time ago already. around 1 month ago. but either dun have the guts go collect or when i m around that area is a sunday. college is close. so....

time flies. semester gonna start soon. i suppose to start with my thesis. but til now, have not started. so....ya la...me stil procrastinating....

salsa class...

salsa is
FUN!!!
123..567... got no 4 and 8
is quite easy
is a very good form of excercise where u work out most part of your body, except the arms la. probably i wil loose some fats at my butt cos lots of butt swaying...
is interesting...

btw, it is just my first class but i m so excited to learn more. first of all , i need to get myself a good pair of ballroom heels first. just a regret that i only get to start it so late. i m so excited to learn more moves.

today we learn 2 shines and 2 turns. cos we rotate partners. we all stand in a circle. and the guy wil change partner anti clock wise. so basically we get to dance with all the guys in the class. some are very good lead. some of them really very (dunno how to describe them) normally after doing 1 turn, suppose to do a set of basic step before doing another set of turn. we learn 2 type of turn. n this guy, lead me to single right turn, then immediately after the turn set, then he lead me to another turn which is the cross body lead. cos normally wat the instructor does after every turns set or shines set wil also recover back to the basic step. thank god la, i pick up quite fast n didnt missed even A STEP!! really testing my limit man. then the class after our beginner class is the intermediate class, so some of them reach early. so we lack of guys, so 1 of this guy from the intermediate class join in the circle. he is quite tall. n he is the only guy who lead me the turn, and his hand sweep pass my hair.. gggrrrr......so many other guy who is shorter than him n lesser experience than him also didnt terkena my hair....

actually didnt plan to start the class today, just thought of checking out the classes schedule, so didnt really get a more appropriate pair of shoe. yup. so my feet got quite some bruises. as i told my mum b4, my feets are used to torture already. numb. cos of those pointe shoe. haha.

if time is right, most probably i m thinking of taking up either ballroom and latin. i hope can take up both. but dun think i really have the time to do it.

MC

i m going to be MC again. it has been a while. in st john, i am the famous MC choice. any event the 1st person they would think bout is me. haha... there was once, it was a competition event. i was part of the committee. supposingly another lady officer suppose to b the MC. i do not know wat was the reason that they suddenly just ask me to b the MC. and you know when they inform me bout i m going to b the MC??? 5 minutes before the event. 5 MINUTES k?? omg. i cudnt prepare anything. i was only a member. so dare not to question those officer y suddenly change ppl. that lady is a much more experience st john person than me. wat the ..... then within the 5 minutes i quickly gather all the information needed. then went up the stage to start off the event. normaly closing ceremony for competition event sure get some ppl to go up the stage to give speech. so when the ppl is up to give speech, then i wil start scribble things on the paper, then also start thinking what to talk later. what are the better wordings to use. but afterall, i stil give myself a 8/10 marks for that mc performance. hehe.

btw, i m going to be the MC for next sat event. n i m thinking wat to wear. shud i wear a skirt or pants? i decided on a knee length skirt. it wil b a pencil shape skirt. but i still have not figure out wat to wear for the top. shud i wear sumting formal like a blazer or long sleeve collar shirt, or shud i wear a sleeveless shirt. i know wat shoe to wear already. haha. my new shoe which i jus bought today at isetan gardens. Anne klein. when my dad saw that brand, eh, anne klein ah, not calvin klein ah? {cos the whole family also got quite some CK garments} i said is anne klein la. so calvin klein and anne klein mayb sister brother ah...haha....i said dunno. i heard bout anne klein, but very little knowings bout it. haven done any research on anne klein b4. so i surf the net to check. i type anne klein and calvin klein. the first search i found was a person asking yahoo answer is anne klein and calvin klein related or married.?? haha. i guess quite some ppl do have the same thoughts too. both also are at the same price range. anne klein is not so well known in malaysia. as they do not have any independent store in malaysia. onli at isetan i guess. anne klein is based at new york. when i do further research on anne klein, found out that anne klein do name has a line call anne klein new york = AKNY. so it sound bit like DKNY rite whcih is donna karen new york. haha, u guess akny copy dkny or dkny copy akny? give u 2 seconds to think bout it.







is DKNY copy AKNY. is not copy copy kind la. jus that anne klein, the founder of AKNY pass away in the 70s, it was continue by donna karen. so, hehe.

btw, come to the MC part, it is not a very big event, but got lots of big shorts attending it. so have to be very careful with the protocols. and also those big shorts name n gelaran. very confusing punya. n dunno wat is the appropriate shirt to put on. it is a farewell event. for this person from stjohn which is quite high post. n it is not a dinner. is a hi tea. at 2pm - 4pm. so wat to wear la. is not at hotel ballroom or wat. is at a club house multi purpose hall. with quite a small stage i guess. so wat to wear??!!! aarrgghhh

laptop gotta format soon

sigh...laptop so so so in bad condition. my msn i been using this thingi called ebuddy. kinda troublesome. wait til i finish all my st john work then i wil start formatting it.

updates of my boring life from 14-18 july

14 jul
woke up. start processing my 2 feet high of st john documents. real hectic. caught a flu. nose sensitive wit the dust. cos that lady is packing my so called study room aka store room. a st john fren came over to settle his pile of stuff. he was asking me has i been talking with my ex.
me: dun have la. i even block him from my msn.
him: oohh really ah. no wonder la he asked me bout u.
me:really ah
him : ya la
me: so wat he ask bout me?
him: he asked how are u doing? do u have new bf. i told him dun have. he ask m i happy? or m i worse off without him? he said that he thinks ur life will b worse off without him. i told him i think u r happy.
me: seriously he ask u such question ah. omg. haha..loll...cant believe it..

omg. i cant believe it he can say such thing. such an [eh as as h oh el ee]

then evening went to work. back home. rest.

15 jul
stay at home, didnt go work to finish up my paper work. so much more to do.

16 jul
morning went to office cos programmer coming over. mana tau, after half hour of the appointment time onli he called me up n informed that his car battery flat. gotta change the appointment to afternoon. (if battery flat, arent he suppose to know it once he try to leave his place??....) then me went home, continue my work. when he reach office, onli ask the lady to call me. then at nite, some st john ppl come over to sign the form, some to redo their forms, some to help to recheck the documents again.

17 jul
same thing, morning woke up, do some paper work. thank god, it is almost done already. i think i m with it for days or even centuries already. so sick of it. then later went to work. nite, went for a st john meeting. then home. i was very tired. very very. but didnt feel like sleeping yet. so s usual, once in my room, then i on the tv, n online. then was clearing off my mail box. my hotmail got 300 over mails. my yahoo mail got 700 over mails. gotta slowly clear off. then i was trying to fall asleep from 2am. til 4sumting i think almost 5am onli really fall asleep. i was thinking so so so much. thinking bout wat i m going thru now. thinking bout wat is coming up for me. thinking of wat i have been thru so far. all the ups and downs. thinking of certain things which i have done which to others is a very bad thing, but to me, m i doing the right thing?? thinking of certain ppl. i was thinking til a certain extend where i m start whippping there. get really emotional...then i even thinking more. caused me cudnt sleep. when i cudnt sleep but so tired, i realy so frustrated.



18 july

got up really late. felt so tired. cos didnt sleep well. after lunch. went to work. then went home. so there goes 1 week. that is how boring my life now is.

jun: thats why for the whole week didnt really have any post up. nothing seem interesting in my this boring world.

another sunday passed.

today morning early morning wake up at 7am. cos i gotta be at bangsar for the exam at 8am. the group of public which i mention in my past blog. examining them, was really different with examining those school kids. they are even harder to control. they can just go off for makan without informing. they can come at 10am even the exam start at 8am. n sluber only, bring in a cup of tea which bought from mc'd. lol. cos the venue is a judo centre, n i suppose sum of them actually a student of there. so some of them were judoing there. lol... some of them so playful while doing the exam. tak boleh tahan. i can only laugh. they are not normal secondary school member, cant scold. none of them is younger than me k. some even 20 years older than me. then everything went on quite fast. by 11am i already start doing the theory paper.then after they finish the paper, then i had discussion with them. then whenever they had a wrong answer, they would be debating with me bout the answer. i learnt a lesson from here, never discuss paper with adult public anymore. but quite happy that all of them actually did learn something, and they keep thanking me.

then later went to mid valley to meet up wit a fren to makan. cos got some extra time before the show.

the show is the HSBC classics piano festival. it was good. it started off with the winner for the best composer. the composer play the piano, n accompany by other 4 who play the string quartet. then 15 min intermission. then ochestra, it was lead by a conductor. then after they perform finish 1 piece, then the conductor went in and came out with his violin n join the ochestra. then Denise Lee, a famous pianist,he base at england, but he is a malaysian. he plays the piano and conduct the ochestra at times too. n he did 3 pieces. then later he left the stage. ppl keep clapping for encho. so he came out n say i wil perform 'impromptu b major' if not mistaken thats the name la. it was good. btw, i got in free. cos my uncle is the piano tuner for the event. manage to get 2 free ticket for me n his daughter.

so went home. sleep 1 hour. wake up for dinner. then so tired. lying on my bed. i dozed off for about 3 hours. at 11sumting, my mum knock on my door. benci, i woke up already. cant sleep back. then watch tv til now. gotta sleep now. nite.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Angus steak house

angus steak house at pavilion. i would recommend every1 to go. the steak is so yum yum, is so juicy, is so tender, although it does not come with much sos, but it taste great. so original flavour. angus steak house uses beef from japan. probably is the way they rare them. thats y is quite pricey too. their normal beef cost around 60 for 150gm only. if 250gm, i think around 80 or 90. they have another type which is called the wagyu beef, is graded as 9+. and cost 200 for 150gm. but 200 is for the set menu. the normal beef cost around 80 for set menu. so the starter came. it has mashed potato. then got a quite small piece of fish fillet. then it has this sotong cut into very tiny pieces. then came the soup. it was pumpkin soup. i hate pumpkin. but the soup taste great, cos it was mix with milk. then came the salad. the salad does not have salaad sos. but cos it is a little japan theme restaurant, they put japan soya sauce over the salad. it turn out to be great too. i should try that next time with my salad. then here come the grade 9 tenderloin. then came the lamb. then came the normal rib eye.the lamb was so so yummy. it was so tender n juicy. i was joking about the grade 9 beef, it taste so good n so pricey probably because the cow drinks shark fin soup, drink bird nest, eats abalone. haha... then after the main course, then here comes the dessert. it was tiramisu. but very small piece. i would said it is fine dining. the appetiser and dessert come in big plate, but small portion, beautifully garnished.

victoria station still have a standing in my heart. both have different standards and pricing. different style.

deposit paid

deposit already paid, but mood didnt get better.

reason: cos of them.

mayb i shudnt even get that car, mayb i shud not change car. then i dun need to depend on them later.

conflicting myself.

i dun undersand even got a guy coming after which i m not interested, they also wanna campur tangan so much. then bebel this bebel that. benci giler.....

hate being me...

6 july 08

today was such a long day. the nite before went to the Garden with parents. did some shopping. gotta start buying some clothes preparing for my coming job.hehe..mayb this is too early. but i guess is the right time. cos normally i prefer to buy branded when they are on sales. but also have to find the really right 1. so cant be simply. end up buying a shirt n skirt from raoul. they are hot. i like wearing long sleeve shirt. make me look so pro. i love wearing those pencil shape shirt. (erm...izzit call pencil shape..not sure) is knee length, then bit low waist. the back of it really follow the butt curves. bought a pair of shoe from nine west. once i put it on, it is so damm comfortable. so so so comfortable. then got a shirt from CK. they always have quite funny design. but it always look good. bought a top, erm, the shirt is those type which are not proportionate. i like the back part of it the most. it reveal abit of the middle of the back.



then at garden i met 2 fren. both also related to st john 1. 1 of them is my best fren gf. she is working at the machines. then watch hancock. dad requested to watch that movie.quite good. but his movie u can use ur brain think logically la.



so reach home around 2. slept at 2.30



woke up this morning at 7.30. onli had 5 hours sleep. cos need to go down to klang for a ISO meeting under st john punya la. at first wanted to go for breakfast wit a fren, then tunggu the whole day also no reply. then tot, mayb he not interested. then a st john fren call me said she got no transport, she wants to follow my car. then i agreed lo. then the klang guy onli contact me n said ok for breakfast. aiyak, i jus agreed to pick up another person. how can bring her together for breakfast. not so nice ma. so end up didnt go for the brekfast lo.



then after that rush over to 1 utama. supposingly have gathering with my ballet friends. that gathering actually mainly because some of our ex ballet classmate, went overseas to study, n they are back now. then mana tau, at first 10 became 6 onli. although the hi tea lost its meaning. but we stil enjoy ourselves. cos of the laughter we had over the hi tea. we went to the Cinnamon at 1st world hotel. it is rm64 nett. but it is not worth it.some of the food are lousy. wat i had the most over there, is the fresh salmon n the tuna belly. (sashimi la, not sure is that tuna belly.) cos thats wat didnt got screwed up. n is value gain lo.hehe....got lok lok. got chicken rice, chocolate fondue, all kind of satay stuff. i think i would rather spend another rm10 for jogoya. some of the food this afternoon quite lousy. some of the food dun really have taste. but some are good too la. especialy their dessert la. creative and good taste.



then after that, onli left me n alicia wanted to watch movie. so we went to buy ticket at gsc. decided to watch made of honour. is the onli movie which both of us also haven watch. then met up with this family. erm, i would said i noe them since i were a baby. i used to go to a baby sitter near my house and this family live few houses away. dunno how, my mum noe their mum. then end up we going to the same primary school. cos can car pool ma. the worst part is during standard 1 , i have to be the same school with this family eldest son. he is same age as me. but he is like a kayu onli. that time standard 1 not sure why he disgust me also. then that time his mum purposely ask the teacher to arrange him sitting beside me. OMG....wat is this man?? is like i need to take care of him....but i was a smart kid that time, i went into the 1st 3 class, he is jus in the middle class. so since standard 2 til 6 i never same class as him. but i stil see him everyday. cos we been either car pooling or use the same transport lady. so that been for 6 years. then i went to a gurl school. sure tak sama school la...

their mother:we are watching movie cos (the gurl) is going to UK soon to study
me: oh. so which uni?
daughter: oxford bust
me: oxford wat?
daughter: oxford BUST (not sure how to spell the bust, but thats the pronounciation i heard) is beside oxford university
me: oohh
mother: a sister university of oxford
me:doing wat course?
daughter: law
mother: k.s.(the son) going to london also end of the year
daughter:oohh..doing wat course?
mother:ACCA
me:oohh
mother: so when u finish your degree?
me: end of this year
mother: where you studying? LOCAL rite?
me: ya local. i m going to graduate already. no need to go overseas.

i went to search online, cant find bout the university. anyone know bout the university please provide some information. cos when they tell me the word 'oxford bust', they really emphasize the word 'oxford' but not 'bust'. i m so eager to find out as these auntie and her daughter love to boast around...not to say i pandang rendah la, but with her result, i dun think she is that excel to enter top universities like oxford. must be just another common university.

so we went in for the movie. the movie is good. very meaningful.storyline is good.