such a failure of me..

It has been quite some time i didnt feel this way bout myself in this organisation body. it was such a failure... or is actually is just ok?? i dunno....but most of the ppl say, this place is terrible. is not good. response sucks.. i dunno what to expect at all for this event actually. it could be alot or could be very little. is kinda expected or non expected. it also due to before this was too busy with my thesis till friday only i have the time to do preparation for this event. i dunno what, how, why...... i dunno...i m quite disappointed with the result. i m dunno should i be disappointed of myself. i not sure did i did the right thing for choosing this place. but, at last i get to try organising event at this place. i had long wanted to organise event for this organisation body at this palce. after going thru everything. i think is worth the lesson. i can be better in the future. but i guess, end of the day, there is surely blame to be put on a person. i m sure i m the 1 who to be blame to. although it will not be said out, but is defintely in their heart is them.

crossroads

if all my current 3 subjects go on smoothly, then i will be graduating. graduation is only in april. but now, everyone are asking, so when are u graduating? then i say end of the year finish my studies. then they will ask, so wats ur plan after u finish? i say hhmm.. work loh...where? hhmm, dunno yet. most probably in marketing dpt. what company they normally wil also ask...hhmm, should be sum companies which related to cosmetics and fashion gua...

sigh....till now, haven really apply for any job, except for 1 application in jobstreet for loreal company. but that was like 1 month plus ago. til now, no news, means no la. and there are 2hundred plus ppl who apply for it. and 20 ppl who have higher education than me.. omg... how the hell i m gonna get it la... so far found 1 company with vacancy, will apply for it once i hand in my thesis. then later will start sending out resume to some of the companies..hhmm...not sure when i m gonna get a job. some even say, so u going back to ur parents copmany to work?? haha. i smiled at them and say, it is the last thing i would do. unless i really cant find a job. if i do find one, hopefully can start in feb. but before feb and after my exams, i m going to work in their office. mum already booked me to work there...

another crossroads i m facing, on every sunday i have salsa class from 3-4.30pm. and next year aug, will be my ballet dance school concert. from dec onwards, we need to start doing rehearsals. and the rehearsal time would be from 10am-2pm. then 2pm-5pm. the 10am one is for the opening and closing ceremony. the 2pm one, is a dance on point shoe name call firebird(i guess). and gosh, it clashes my salsa class. actually before that already did cross my mind that the rehearsal time might clash with my salsa class. but the confirm schedule not out yet ma. so now..hhmmwat i know, my salsa class dun have any other time for the same class level. so now, gotta reconfirm with them again on other class availability. which i doubt so. and then next next week, when rehearsal start, need to talk to the choreographer on the arrangements. sad...

still remember half year ago, i was in another big crossroads. and after deciding on taking road A, then already rejected to take road B. then later only found out that road A is blocked already. aarrrggghhhh.....

human life is all about coming to crossroads and decision making...

SCORPIO - The Addict

SCORPIO - The Addict

EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring.

the above i got it from an email, which says, horoscope, very accurate. and say such things like if u dun forward, you will get 4 years of bad luck. but i never forward all this, unless i think is something really hilarious or important.

so let me go through this whole thing bit by bit and see is it that accurate. some say, how can u believe on this horoscope thingi, how can the world divided to 12 types of people only. hehe

- extremely adorable: i dun think i am.
- loves to joke: oh yes. i joke with all kind of things.
- very good sense of humour: issit same as loves to joke. not sure.
- will try almost everything once: hhmm, it said almost everything. yes, i would love to try almost everything. i m very adventurous. but except anything got to do with insects or animals. of cos except drugs and suicide and.....
- love to be pampered: of cos.
- energetic: yes. but not sure what others think
- predictable: not i cant tell. my fren gotta tell me
- good kisser: haha. i not sure. but got guys told me b4 that i m. hehe.
- always get what they want: disagree. i dun really get whatever i want.
- attractive: i dun think i am
- loves being in long relationship: not for now. yes when i grow old.
- talkative: yes i am.
- loves to party but at times to the extreme: yes i like. but got barriers of going out now.
- love to smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it: oh yes. money is not everything but without money lots of things cannot be done. am i good at making it? hhmmm....i thought i can. but haven start working, so i dunno. good at spending it? hell yeah! who does not know how to spend.
- very protective over loves one: yes i would so. used to fought for him with parents.
- hardworkers: i would say yes when i have the heart to do and i love and enjoy doing it. but at times, i m a great procrastinator.
- can be a good friend but if disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end: yes i can be a good friend. if disrespected only, dun think will end the relationship. probably is the person betray me more than once, then yes. first time normally give chance.
- romantic : i cant evaluate me myself
- caring: i think i am. if i want to ..

boring days during uni days

when is the most boring days during uni days?? not when the time you got no homework to do. is the time when you got the most homework to do. alrite, in uni, we got no homework. only assignments. when the time we got assignments to do, especially when is going to due in 1 week time. most of ur classmate will not ask you out, cos they also kononnya want to do assignments. yes, doing assignments. but the whole day, probably spend one fourth of the time to do assignments. the other time, not lepaking outside. but is wondering around the internet. go facebook la, go chat chat here and there la, go play round of computer game la, or munching on food or watch a downloaded movie....that also include me and of cos my fren. hehe. but you wun think of going out to reduce the boringness. cos you will keep thinking, no!! i stil got assignments to do. thats apply to a few of my fren. but accept a few who finish their assignments exceptionally fast. they wil finish ahead of others very fast. probably 2 weeks faster than others. then they love the feelings of making others sad cos they haven finish. haha... then i got 1 fren, who is exceptionally good at their studies, who always said they are lucky for getting such high marks, which still goes out during assignment-ing time. their progression normally slower than others. but slumber only. but stil got superb high marks. that their talent i guess which i never had. hehe. i am a very very slow worker. i could not concentrate. although i start reading up early, but i never able to pull in all my thoughts into words quickly. i will always only finish it the night before. i jus always have this lacking of inspiration before the due dates are nearing. then adrenalin jus kick in when i feel excited...hehe... THUS, i got a very successful in business fren said, i can work under pressure. he said is good. i hope so. hehe. but procrastinating is terrible. i know since long time ago. but till now i m stil procrastinating. my fren ask me for movie today, i said cannot la, need to do thesis, then sumore at nite already agreed to my good fren to have dinner with him. but then end up in the afternoon. watching 1 movie n doing sum st john stuff. cos the st john stuff need to submit tomoro as sum superior going to the HQ tomoro.

procrastinate, procrastinate = me.....

:)

panda bear is blogging

panda bear..who?? of cos me la... panda eyes getting bigger and blacker..

jus handed up an assignment yesterday. stil got 2 more to pass up. one really big big 1. which is 90%. my thesis lo. however was glad that i have this another lecturer, of cos not my supervisor la, this other lecturer who willing to help me with it. he really did give me lots of extra things that i can add on to the thesis. at first i did the topic jus for the sake of assignment. but then now, i do see it as a more useful paper. and i believe i can bring with me in my interview. hhmm.

got another assignment. is writing a business plan. the dateline changed from 1st dec to 12 dec. omg. too long already. i need to prepare for my marketing exam on 16 dec. aarrgghh..nvm..hopefully i wil get to focus then. hehe.

today the whole day i didnt do anything at ALL. afternoon was chatting with fren over msn for 2 hours. then watch tv series after series. until dinner. then after dinner, play game. then surfing the web. then now type blog. hehe. whole day gone. sumore got some st john work for me to settle. and i m sleepy now. hehe. thats me. not til the last minute also not excited to do my work. padan muka saya. hehe.