random thoughts

today at last i submitted the first assignment of the semester. i wasnt really that satisfied with this assignment. i feel that i could have done better. hehe. every assignments also the same. never satisfied. i m a person who always looking for improvements. never easily satisfied. for almost everything i would said. is the first time me paying a person to look thru the english for the assignments. this lecturer very particular bout grammar in the assignments. so he recommended some1 to us. and is rm50 per hour. we ended up there for 2.5 hour. so is rm125. divided by 4 person, rm32 per person.....argh.... but i think is a better piece of work after the editing la....the lecturer did look thru our assignment this morning b4 we handed in. however, his face was quite sour. means not a very good piece of work. probably to him, is jus a pile of RUBBISH. he just said that we lack of the conclusion. we can still hand it in the following class. so thats bout the 1st assignment la.

tomoro morning need to meet up with another group. is another group assignment. is for marketing subject. this subject assessment got 25% group presentation, 25% individual report, both is base on the same case study. and another 50% for final exam. the only final exam paper for the sem.the case study is on a device which use to catch a rat. boring nya this case study. compare to the other subject assignment we had last sem also by the same lecturer was on ice cream. i suppose every1 really enjoy that. hehe ....omg...talking bout rat....eelllll....

dad asked me to do some stuff, is some office stuff..then i told him to ask the tuition employee to do it la. i m going back home after had my dinner. he ask wat u going to do at home? i said assignments la. he said u today not pass up 1 already meh....i stare at him and ask him, i 1 sem only 1 assignment onli meh....aiyo.....why they always try to find out wat i m doing with my studies. why u go there. why u need to go 1 utama to do your discussion....and all those stupid question. as if afraid i wil go lepak o sumting. dammm!!! i m crazily stress out with all my assignments. where the hell i have time to lepak la...dun even have enough to sleep la...they always saying people are stupid for sending their children to study overseas. local cannot study meh. those who study local also can get very high pay. study overseas have to pay thru their nose or their child might stay there and not come back. my parents are jus so ignorant. they do not realy understand what is the outside world like. they dunno what is the education system overseas. even the degree i m doing is a UK degree, my cert will be from UK also. but then is the process of study. studying a degree is not for that paper, is for the knowledge. i would say studying in malaysia for a degree is a waste of time. especially if study in a college where the CEO are some kedekut chinese businessman n who love to hire old people and doing non efficient job. dun talk bout facilities like computer or gym those la. those not very important. talk bout database to search for article, we were only offered with ONE....ONE!!!!! only. and can barely find any articles from there. compare those who study overseas, they called it the super library where got tons of articles to search from....help needs help...i seriously quite unhappy the fact that i wasnt sent overseas. really hate them saying others stupid for sending their children overseas. they never had their tertiary education b4. n my dad a so called teacher also tak paham what is really a tertiary education should be.

now mum already start saying that once u start work, these these expenses wil b on ur own n bla bla bla...saying i m 21 n is a freedom for them cos they no need to bare my cost anymore... yup, going to be 21 very soon...will i really get my so called freedome which i have been long waiting for?? i doubt so. unless i start working. i slowly i jus have to be tough enough. not going to depend on them at all and then i can just do watever i farking want. i would say now i m worry my farking big car. the installment everymonth is not little. so the biggest consequences i can imagine of going against them would be them not paying for the car installment. even after selling the car, minus the depreciation and interest, i think i wouldnt have money left to buy another car. probably a 10 yr old kancil mayb....haha.... then probably i wil jus use the no11 bus, which is my pair of legs. i will definetely need to really work hard, which i will. i even love to shift out, but shifting out have too much things to be concern of, the cost of the rental, the cost of everything in the new place. n also me tak sampai hati to leave my coming new house...

i m going to be 21....ppl say is merdeka for me...hell no!!!...so i dun think it will be a happy 21st birthday afterall....

what do i really want

what do i really want ?? something which is compatible or something which is comfortable. compatible means you wil get really selfish. but comfortable means you are shy to bring out. this has been always conflicting in me. when the time comes, i hope i really know what i really want.

21st Birthday Wishlist

friends are asking me for my birthday wish list. at last i can make a list out already.


1. Christian Dior Holiday Lip Palette. OMG... i really like this. this is just so pretty and so functional...everytime i pick it up i wil defintely think of you..hehe

2. a PDA phone....i know is quite impossible for any1 to get me this. other than my parents. which they will not get for me. hehe. u see, this is a wish list ma. i can just wish for anything.

3. so a more practical one and not so pricey one, an organiser. 2009 is coming, and i going start to work (if i do find a job), so means got alot of things to remember. so definitely i need an organiser. not too big ya. but also not too small. probably a A5 size... no pink. no black. something sharp but not cute, must be elegant. it would be best those which i can refill. means after 2009, i stil can use back the same cover and i just buy the refill for the following years.

4. a bluetooth might be nice too. never had one before. i think i need one. so i can very conveniently talk when i drive.

let me think of sumore then i wil post up again.

no need of perfume. i m getting 2 perfumes this year. cant wait for my 2 new perfume to join my collection.

comparative study

comparison of Starbucks(SB) and coffee bean (CB) ..[cb means sumting terrible in chinese]

i am at coffee bean now online-ing. how come a starbucks fan is at a coffee bean now. haha. cos this coffee bean is really near to my house. this coffee bean is at desa parkcity. is less than 5 minutes drive from my house. parking is just very nearby and is free.

so now lets compare the drinks. (CB) dun have caramel marchiato. probably they dun have it cos is the best seller of SB and if cb does it badly then it will be critic. haha... when u want to have ice tea, they only have 2 at max for u to choose from. but SB, wil make it on the spot for u(btw, only certain SB, not all would do that also, but still...) i m having this salmon bagel an is 15.90. i dun think is worth it after it is served to me. the salmon is so little. and the side salad they gave is so little and so kedekut with their dressings. however, some of the whole food at CB are made fresh rather than SB all their food are pre made then later reheat or rebake.

at CB they only u to use credit card when ur bill is 25 n above. but SB any amount. at SB, you can get 10% discount when you use ur J card but only if ur bill is RM30 n above. [last time used to be any amount]. where else, CB had this card thingi. which u apply the first time is RM25 u get rm25 value. then the next time u top up, min amount of rm20 then u wil get value of rm22. so is like a 10% thingi. is like a prepaid card.

alrite, come to the conclusion, there are pros and cons for both.

Assignments

assignments are going to kill me slowly in 7 more weeks time
basically every 2 weeks from now on, i wil have 1 assignment to pass up.
everyday, i dun really seem to know what i should do.
and this is my final semester, it is very important as it will affect my classification for the degree. i m aiming for a second upper. aim easy to say. but can get anot is really another matter. aarrgghh....really worry.

especially the entrepreneurship subject. that lecturer is very particular with every single words is type into the presentation. OMG!! even for the presentation his expectation also so high, it wil be even worst for the assignment. and this subject is a 90% assignment. so i m dee ee eh dee.

My Final Ball

This friday is going to be my department ball. the economics department ball. and is also the last ball i wil ever attend in my college life. hehe. btw, since i m in my pre U, i attend each year ball. I do enjoy going to ball. especially when your whole group of friends are attending together just like this year. hehe. however, this year ball is ONLY at the flamingo hotel. and we have to pay rm100 for such type of hotel only. which alot of people think is not very worth it. but hell ya, is my final year, so got to attend. since last week, all the gurls been discussing what they should do with their hair la and make up. whether to do it themselves or pay sum1. for me, this fri going to retouch back the colour of my hair. so ask them to do my hair together. hehe. dun have to pay extra for it ma. keke...
this year theme is vintage. who would have vintage clothings la. gurls would be those dress with really big gown at the bottom, really push up top. guys would be tuks. aiyo, gurls dun own those dress, dun even know where to get those. college guys ah, dun think they would even want to own 1.

1101

aaahhh!!!! today magnum came out 1101 for special prize....haha. i didnt buy. it is almost 3 weeks already. and the car already has milage of 1000 km. tomoro dad bringing the car to fix the window which had some hair line crack. then together service also lo.

today my car kena 3 spot of bird shit...damn!!!! :'(

Salsa Advance Beginner

i had finish 1 level of salsa already. and that is only 3 months. hehe. that was fast. now i m in advance beginner level now. got more shines and turn combination to learn. as usual, some guys can really lead you and some guys just cant. hehe. and those good 1 really give u the right amount of strength, not too light or too much, to turn u around or lead u. for those, i think my turn wow, can go so smoothly. hehe. our teacher was saying, haha, when later you all get the double turns, it wil be much harder. hhmm.. i think i can gua. :) really tired today. yesday had ballet class, and i slept real late last nite. so muscle aching today. after salsa class, the aching was worst..

Cambodia Trip (Day 1)

Woke up at 3.30am. the flight is at 7am. as the night before just came back from ipoh. so only sleep around 1am. so went to LCCT airport. they are doing some small renovations. even is so early in the morning, but the airport is already pack with people. probably is because it is the holiday season. not really excited on going on this trip. as all of them are at least 20 years older than me. so it will be boring. although all this adults love cracking some dirty jokes yet most of the time i m fast asleep once i am on the bus. haha.

it is a 2 hour flight, flying from KL to siem reap. once i m up the flight. i slept the whole way. there are 11 of us, some are relative some are my parents friends. when we reach there, a local guide welcome us. we were provided with this mini bus. i took the last row all by myself. we were took the the tonle sap lake first. it is the largest lake in south east asia.

then we were took to a souvenir shop. they demonstrate how they do the silk scarf, wooden monuments and all those souvenirs thingy la. then finally bring you to their shop. and watever sold there are crazily expensive. so every1 ended up empty handed.

then we went for lunch. after lunch, we were brought to our hotel. overall. i quite like the hotel. clean, pretty, got quite a big swimming pool. went to the room to rest for 2 hour. then we were given a free massage for 1 hour by the tour company. so we were brought to this place for the massage. first, they wash our feet with some soap. then change on a pair of slipper. then they ask us to change into the provided tshirt and pants. all of us in 1 room. we were asked to lie down on a mattress.. then they wil start massaging. after the 1 hour massage, body feel so good.

then later we go to the Angkor site, to 1 of this temple which is build on this little hill to watch the sunset. took around half hour to reach the peak of the hill. then we need to climb up the temple. wy do i say climb, cos their staircase are very steep. it is at 70 degree. the steps are very narrow. the steps are build that way because in ancient time, they want the common people to bow down when they climb the staircase. to show respect to the god. if you do not show respect, you will have accident at the staircase. so reach up there, but is quite cloudy. cant see the whole sun as in the egg yolk shape. not like in egypt, i think i saw few times of sun rise and sun set in the whole egg yolk shape.

once the sun set, oohh shit.is so dark. when going down the hill, is so dark. cant really see the road properly also. and is not tar road. all mud road. have to be careful. then went for dinner. is a buffet dinner. got cultural show. is called the bbq buffet. but wat is bbq, only some pork or some beef in a satay stick, BBQed. then went back hotel. sleep like a pig.

i had lost my way somehow

i m abit of without directional now...in what sense?? in everything i guess. i am just doing what others are doing. other does their degree. follow lo. parents said what is better. follow lo. there are certain times, where i though i found the path, but somehow, it just seem to be unreachable. or it is jus too common where every1 is also using the same path. just getting so bored and sick of everything. i always think of death. i m afraid of it. life is too short. too short that i am so afraid of death. am i too young to be worried of it. i dunno. but average life i guess is onli 60-70. means max i left another 50 years. now i already had 20 years passed. another 2n a half 20 years to go. my pass 20 years, dun seem meaningful at all. whenever i start thinking up to this point, i will be so terrified. what is life?? whats after death?? in our religion, we were alwiz told that there is an afterlife. issit true.....??? if is true, how long will i be in that afterlife?? i m always so afraid that i might die tomorrow. cos i m jus too young, so many more things i have not done and tried and experienced. whenever i m alone during the nite, i often thinking bout this. it is so scary.