such a failure of me..

It has been quite some time i didnt feel this way bout myself in this organisation body. it was such a failure... or is actually is just ok?? i dunno....but most of the ppl say, this place is terrible. is not good. response sucks.. i dunno what to expect at all for this event actually. it could be alot or could be very little. is kinda expected or non expected. it also due to before this was too busy with my thesis till friday only i have the time to do preparation for this event. i dunno what, how, why...... i dunno...i m quite disappointed with the result. i m dunno should i be disappointed of myself. i not sure did i did the right thing for choosing this place. but, at last i get to try organising event at this place. i had long wanted to organise event for this organisation body at this palce. after going thru everything. i think is worth the lesson. i can be better in the future. but i guess, end of the day, there is surely blame to be put on a person. i m sure i m the 1 who to be blame to. although it will not be said out, but is defintely in their heart is them.