7aug

today i got my new shower screen.....it is so so so so so pretty and hot n sexy....it has picture on it....guess wat....i did not choose those flower pattern on it, but i choose a gurl which only covered with some piece of cloth on the important part, can see her long slim legs, the figure...yum yum...i just wish i have such smooth skin, such pretty and long legs and such pretty face. which quite impossible. so thats for me to dream of...haha....but the effect of the picture is good. i got bit of 3D effect....from the inside or outside, it also look like the picture is facing you. got few times of mumble from dad cos of this shower screen. cos he been saying la you all should have bla bla bla,,, you just like your mum, go do only, never think. ya la, we got no brain 1 la.....quite piss of actually, whenever he not happy with my mum and he will mumble mumble all on me....i m like the mangsa.....i think i gonna go nuts already....

this year btw i am having my birthday party at some quite grand place. usually parents call their frens. n normally their frens bring their spouse and children. n furthermore this time it is the company 10 anniversary. is celebrating it together. i was telling him so prepare your guest list i need to print the invitation card already. n then he start asking so where is ur guest list. i said when i want to print i jus straight type into the computer. he said i want to see your guest list first. he start saying bout himself, those fren i have ah, which not very close ah, i CANCel their name out. i dun simply call any1 to come. i call those who are really FRIEND to me. WTF!!!! we are expecting 250 guest. n i think the most all my fren can occupy is 50 - 60. only fucking 20% of the total. and half of the event is mine, not URS.... i m jus fucking taking 20% only. i want to invite who then who la. why shud he fucking care so much. really pissed off. actually got quite some ppl which i really wanted to invite which i think i gotta not invite them. as my parents would be wondering how come you invite this person, you very close to this person ah.... even in my past birthday, i got these 2 malay classmate which were very close to me in form 4 n 5 time. in my 17 birthday, they came with both their bf. n 1 bf got long hair. n not very tidy kind. very very skinny. n then another fren punya bf got pierce all around, probably like 3 or 4 pierce in his whole head la. n dyed blonde hair. then i tell you, the STARE that my dad gave to my fren that time was so scary. what is his problem man. is there a problem for my fren having such a bf. my dad is always with his judging pair of eyes to my frens. guy with long hair means bad. guys with any piercing means bad. gurl with more than piercing on the ears means bad. i stil remember i had this course mate, he got quite long hair, he always wear his cap. n the only brand of cap he wear is FCUK. n this year he came to my birthday, with his usual cap FCUK and he wearing this red blouse which normally the chinese guy wear during the chinese new year type. then my parents then came to me keep asking me who is this guy la n bla bla bla. they pulak sangat jakun dunno wat is FCUK stands for. they just thought it was in purpose on spelling FUCK wrongly. althought i was luckier than so many other ppl that i have my birthday party every year. but i can say probably i m not that happy after all.. most of the ppl who attend the party are my parents frens n their family and my relatives. my frens probably 20% the most. this is birthday party meh....then every time after my party, then my parents will be questioning so who is this guy, who is this gurl...

this coming 1 is my 21st birthday, if they are so restricting, i think i would rather called off the birthday then rather having a non happy birthday party.
my parents always thinks that they give me the best thing and i should be grateful of it and i should not compare with my friends. although i have most of the thing to be branded and so forth. but everything single thing also need to be approved by them. even if i want to change a hp, i m not allowed to unless i have a reason to do so. so far the hp i m owning now is the 4th one. the first was 3210, was passed down by my mum, that one drop to the mangkuk tandas. then 2nd was 3310. is like the cheapest model at that time. i didnt get to change it for 3 years until it wasnt really functioning well. then i got this sony ericsson hp but i cant remember its model name. but defintely the cheapest 1. then later my handbag got snatch, then i got this nokia 6230 that i m using for i think 3 years already. even getting a 1K model hp also with some condition which i exchange with my mum. which is attending this thing called the Landmark Forum which it supposingly get to transform you. my mum hope this can transform me into not such a rebellious daughter. HAHA...gladly, it fucking not work. cause from day 1 onwards, i already tune my mind that i came here cause of my phone...haha...and when later part we had this group thingi. n every1 in the group knew that i attended the forum cos of the HP....haha...but something i was so happy that i meet this fren, name chee chung. will talk bout him next blog.

come back to my fucked up life at home, yup, basically i got not much life at home. so my fren, dun be surprised that if i called off my this year birthday party.