today suppose to be happily go down to Queens Park at Cheras to shop. went with my mum, grandma, n 2 of my mum fren. so i drove my dad car there. mum decided to drive dad car than her own car as dad car got bigger space. so we went n i collect my armani exchange jeans which i alter the last time i buy from the shop there. then also got a pair of new jeans from dkny and a sweater from max mara. i like the sweater. so hot. then after done shopping, so went up the car n i drove back home. jus turn out of jalan peel and go around 2km. then the car suddenly jerk and slowly slow down n quickly manouve the car to the side and total stop there. then try to start the car again. cant. try a few times, at first thought the alarm buat hal, is not. then cant figure out as all female on board, so lucky that we stop right infront of this service factory like. i dun call it a service shop as it is huge. so called a guy came out, check on our car, cant figure out wat happen. then push into the workshop. check check, then conclude that the motor which suppose to pump the oil to the engine does not functioning well. call dad. dad insist do not change anything there. as the shop ppl might not have the knowledge for a benz car. after make things worst, then the car habis la. n that guy dun even sure where is the battery of the car locate. haha. benz car battery is under the back seat. so dad said can drive back. that guy jus knock knock ont he thing then the engine can start. so we drove off. and hopefully the car will not stop again until we reach home. we didnt even on the aircon. from cheras to reach home at 6pm, passing thru kl surely freaking jam. and while going up this bridge infront of Istana budaya, the car jerk and loss power and i quickly manourve it to the left as much as possible. as i m going uphill, cant go far. so wasnt really sticking to the curb. i guess my car stuck on the bridge make the jam behind worst. i guess if there is no jam, we can reach home smoothly. cant do anything cos we already expect that it might happen. suddenly this 2 indian guy on a bike, came beside our car, saying he is the foreman n bla bla bla.....we say we do not need his service we got our toll truck on the way. then he said u move to the side la to ease the traffic bit. so they push n really stick to the curb now. and 5 mins later, 3 traffic police riding their bike and came to the car. then the traffic police were discussing whether to get my car forward down the bridge or reverse down the bridge. but if forward down the bridge no space to put the car. then they decided that i reverse my car back down as there is this divider where there is red colour painted box. so let go my break,put to neutral, and start controlling my steering wheel. my car jus slide down, of cos need to control the speed and the direction la, the bridge is not straight. then other 2 policeman controlling the traffic down there so it was quite easy. but once a life time experience,escotted by traffic police.haha....sound grand...but.....hehe....waited for some time, my mum fren husband arrive. he try to knock the thingi under the car, the same spot the mechanic try to fix earlier on, then i went to start the car. but it does work. then i guess another half hour only the toll truck onli reach. haih so tired. all of us went into the uncle car. he is driving 5 series bmw. the new 1. loving it. the best part the top can be open. i remember there was once where i went to johor for a st john course. my fren driving this carat car, got the top opening, we went out at night for a drink. and we open up the top, standing there and let the wind blow, wow thats so hhmmm....that is a very good feeling...
will defintely get that in future....i love sea breeze too...if in future, if i got the money, i thnk i wil get a little boat for myself...hehe...
Thursday, 21 August 2008
Wednesday, 20 August 2008
movie marathon day
this morning woke up around 9. reach mid valley at 10am. got really good parking just outside of the cinema. so bought ticket.
10.45am:journey to the earth 3D
2pm: wall e
4.15pm:sex and the city
mid valley is the onli cinema with the 3D for journey to the earth. the ticket is rm17 weh...but of course they supply u with a 3d specs. that come with a theft tag.haha. and with broken or lost have to pay rm20 weh...the story line was fine, but the 3D not very enough. not scary enough....hehe...
then i and adelene went for lunch first. so decided to eat sumtime different. no chinese surely. so went to the gardens. look at the directory at last decided thai food. at flying chilies. the food not too bad. the thai ice tea was interesting and yum yum and special. and normal la, catch up time.n adelene did started talking bout gotta start finding jobs already. yup . me gotta start looking for jobs too. but i m stil not satisfy with my resume yet. i think i stil got alot of other things can add in. i not sure the company that i m interested in will be interested in taking me in. cross my finger.
then we watch wall e. ok la. is a cartoon lo. got quite some meaning bout that story la.
then sex and the city. i love that movie. i think it really meaningful and applicable to todays life where career has became 1 of the importance for women. i guess the movie did give me some enlightment on life, marriage and career altogether.
then went to office after that for dinner. then my mum anak angkat came to see her. so her anak angkat means my adik angkat. so he sendiri pandai pandai call me kakak angkat. hehe. the last time he visit us 1 month ago saying that he is going to australia for a tour to visit his brother who is studying over there. asking us do we want any souvenir from there. so i requested nougat. hehe. is quite hard to get over here especially the whole pack which have a varieties 1. yup, he came up today, pass us the souvenir. he really got it for us. didnt noe he really bought it. he bought those big pack 1 which have 4 flavours in it. it has the original flavour 1, the cappucino, green tea and peppermint.. the green tea and peppermint i guess is really new flavour. never try that before. i quite like the soft nougat especially the peach flavour soft nougat. but he got the crunchy nougat. is stil really good. i cant wait to reach home to try the 2 new flavour. i straight away already open up the green tea and peppermint, and YUMMY....is really good.....
10.45am:journey to the earth 3D
2pm: wall e
4.15pm:sex and the city
mid valley is the onli cinema with the 3D for journey to the earth. the ticket is rm17 weh...but of course they supply u with a 3d specs. that come with a theft tag.haha. and with broken or lost have to pay rm20 weh...the story line was fine, but the 3D not very enough. not scary enough....hehe...
then i and adelene went for lunch first. so decided to eat sumtime different. no chinese surely. so went to the gardens. look at the directory at last decided thai food. at flying chilies. the food not too bad. the thai ice tea was interesting and yum yum and special. and normal la, catch up time.n adelene did started talking bout gotta start finding jobs already. yup . me gotta start looking for jobs too. but i m stil not satisfy with my resume yet. i think i stil got alot of other things can add in. i not sure the company that i m interested in will be interested in taking me in. cross my finger.
then we watch wall e. ok la. is a cartoon lo. got quite some meaning bout that story la.
then sex and the city. i love that movie. i think it really meaningful and applicable to todays life where career has became 1 of the importance for women. i guess the movie did give me some enlightment on life, marriage and career altogether.
then went to office after that for dinner. then my mum anak angkat came to see her. so her anak angkat means my adik angkat. so he sendiri pandai pandai call me kakak angkat. hehe. the last time he visit us 1 month ago saying that he is going to australia for a tour to visit his brother who is studying over there. asking us do we want any souvenir from there. so i requested nougat. hehe. is quite hard to get over here especially the whole pack which have a varieties 1. yup, he came up today, pass us the souvenir. he really got it for us. didnt noe he really bought it. he bought those big pack 1 which have 4 flavours in it. it has the original flavour 1, the cappucino, green tea and peppermint.. the green tea and peppermint i guess is really new flavour. never try that before. i quite like the soft nougat especially the peach flavour soft nougat. but he got the crunchy nougat. is stil really good. i cant wait to reach home to try the 2 new flavour. i straight away already open up the green tea and peppermint, and YUMMY....is really good.....
Saturday, 16 August 2008
movie marathon
i guess the coming week i m going on a movie marathon..
this sunday going with a fren for the MUMMY and wed plan to watch 3 movies in a row with some friends. so happy...not sure what 3 movies we gonna watch, but confirm is sex and the city....watching the movie mummy with a fren where i meet him the same place i meet mummy...haha...interesting...but the mummy not really the egypt mummy, is the china mummy...probably china mummy is cuter....LOL
on 25th or probably 24th evening i m going down to kota bharu to visit a classmate. gonna be back on 27th..... yup...at least no pulau stil got KB. keke..but afterall, i guess 2 gurls going to pulau is quite dangerous, we are not familiar with the ppl and the place, kena tangkap wanna get help also difficult....
yup, so i guess most of the following week wil be enjoying then working..keke...
salsa this sunday, cant wait to learn some new shines and turns. i wanna learn that triple turn....cool...i dun think is hard if got the technique. but first of all i stil need to get a pair of SHOES!!!!
this sunday going with a fren for the MUMMY and wed plan to watch 3 movies in a row with some friends. so happy...not sure what 3 movies we gonna watch, but confirm is sex and the city....watching the movie mummy with a fren where i meet him the same place i meet mummy...haha...interesting...but the mummy not really the egypt mummy, is the china mummy...probably china mummy is cuter....LOL
on 25th or probably 24th evening i m going down to kota bharu to visit a classmate. gonna be back on 27th..... yup...at least no pulau stil got KB. keke..but afterall, i guess 2 gurls going to pulau is quite dangerous, we are not familiar with the ppl and the place, kena tangkap wanna get help also difficult....
yup, so i guess most of the following week wil be enjoying then working..keke...
salsa this sunday, cant wait to learn some new shines and turns. i wanna learn that triple turn....cool...i dun think is hard if got the technique. but first of all i stil need to get a pair of SHOES!!!!
Thursday, 14 August 2008
another awful day
is quite a awful day today, i think for the past 20 years plus of my life, most of the day that i spent are quite awful. as long the day are spent in this house with THEM, then is very awful. i always tell myself, i m so much lucky than those unfortunate people. but i stil very suffering being here. i really hate being here. i dun feel like i m owning my life. i have been hoping that every seconds, every minutes, each day, each month will pass away faster so i can start working and start be independent. one day, when i start to work, can i really be independent?? i dunno....i dun dare to think. all those things had runing around in my head for the whole afternoon, n my whole day mood was so bad. it all started actually cos of me going to pulau trip.
sometime i really feel my heart got crush so badly, there is no one who could understand wat i m going thru. why must they always need me to think from their side, but they never think bout my feelings?? why watever they do is defintely right, and watever others do which contradicts them is wrong. they are not that smart and wise after all.
why do i just act like a tame pet to them, why i never had the guts to betray them, to shout at them, to run away from them. i m so so tired. i think i have been blogging bout this feeling for so many times. i guess everyday it stil have the same conclusion,
NOTHING THAT I CAN DO...
i hate myself for being so restless....for being so useless.......
sometime i really feel my heart got crush so badly, there is no one who could understand wat i m going thru. why must they always need me to think from their side, but they never think bout my feelings?? why watever they do is defintely right, and watever others do which contradicts them is wrong. they are not that smart and wise after all.
why do i just act like a tame pet to them, why i never had the guts to betray them, to shout at them, to run away from them. i m so so tired. i think i have been blogging bout this feeling for so many times. i guess everyday it stil have the same conclusion,
NOTHING THAT I CAN DO...
i hate myself for being so restless....for being so useless.......
Wednesday, 13 August 2008
Chee Hwa
Happy Birthday to Chee Hwa. His birthday is on 13th August. He is 24 years old rite now. He is a friend of mine which i had known him for 5 years already. that can be said as long , can also be said as short. i known him through St John. i would say, in St John he is my best fren and closest friend. Still remember that time I and him was also the chairman of our respective school's St john society. so every year my school st john surely organise 1 gathering. so i m the chairman, i got to contact with all the other chairman from the other schools. we did talk on the phone few times before the gathering. i remember him telling me after knowing me better that i did not really give him a good impression in the phone. hehe.
so on that day gathering day, my ex chairman did introduce him further to me as my ex chairman knew him in the last camp. i dun really remember wat happen that day, but i just know that we wasnt talking alot during the gatherings as i m busy, and i m not that good at socialising with ppl i just know them. thats my weakness.
so day after day, we start to sms, then start talk on the phone. and it got more frequent. then we started to discuss bout our everydays feelings. til 1 of this day i late for school, and i told him. then he started waking me up in the morning everyday. he will give me a morning call everyday when i need to go to school. and til today, i stil rely on his morning call once a while. whenever there is an important function in the morning, or i was too lazy to inform my mate to wake me up, or is so early that my maid not even awake yet, so normally i wil drop him a sms , then the next morning i wil b receiving his morning call. hehe. so lucky of me. stil remember that time, when i knew him i was form 4 and he was in upper 6. so the following year, i m in form 5 and he is not studying. jus waiting for result. morning school have to wake up at 6am. that time he got no school to go to. but every morning, without fail, he stil wakes me up to go to school. i think that is a very sweet thing done by my friend.
last time when i stil were at secondary school, we used to send letter to each other using snail mail. we used to hand written those letter in chinese. i still keeping all of his letter. but it is also my habit of keeping every single card or letter sent by my friends. i love spraying some of my perfume on the letter i sent him. when he is reading the letter, i guess the scent will make him feel better. i stil remember once he told me, he normally keeps all my letter in his drawer with his school tie. so his tie will smell like my perfume too.. hehe..
few years back, both of us did have some sparks happen. but the sparks did not spark at the same time. but then, we are still very good frens now.
i think he is 1 of the first few person where i wil share my ups and downs with. for example, that day when i suppose to go collect my result, i was so excited and nervous on getting my result, i sms him n told him bout it, then he wil reply back and calm me down. whenever i m not happy or anything, i would normally think of him and tell him that i m not happy, then he wil start consoling me. every few days, he will call in and check on me how m i doing n etc. i guess he is the onli fren who do so.
all birthday present given by him to me, are normally quite handycraft like. there was this 1 year, where he fold stars and put it in a jar, with some cotton underneath with some perfume. hehe...cos i love perfume, keke.... he loves giving me things with my name in it. like a handphone string, with my name on it. a key chain with my name on 1 side and happy birthday on other side.
so now, i m stil thinking of wat to present to him. i ask him wat he wants, he stil refuse to. he just keep saying think of something myself. n he requested me to write a blog about him. yea, so i did, this it is. so i stil gotta think of what to buy for him which is special enough to be present by me.
PS to Chee Hwa:
I hope you will be happy everyday. Your always happy go lucky attitude do brighten my days alot. I appreciate for all the things you had done for me. I am very thankful for all the time you spent hearing to my downs. I am very glad that i have such a good friend. Thanks for being my alarm clock even you are not suppose to wake up at such early morning. Hope our friendship will last forever. Muaks!!!! hugsss.....
so on that day gathering day, my ex chairman did introduce him further to me as my ex chairman knew him in the last camp. i dun really remember wat happen that day, but i just know that we wasnt talking alot during the gatherings as i m busy, and i m not that good at socialising with ppl i just know them. thats my weakness.
so day after day, we start to sms, then start talk on the phone. and it got more frequent. then we started to discuss bout our everydays feelings. til 1 of this day i late for school, and i told him. then he started waking me up in the morning everyday. he will give me a morning call everyday when i need to go to school. and til today, i stil rely on his morning call once a while. whenever there is an important function in the morning, or i was too lazy to inform my mate to wake me up, or is so early that my maid not even awake yet, so normally i wil drop him a sms , then the next morning i wil b receiving his morning call. hehe. so lucky of me. stil remember that time, when i knew him i was form 4 and he was in upper 6. so the following year, i m in form 5 and he is not studying. jus waiting for result. morning school have to wake up at 6am. that time he got no school to go to. but every morning, without fail, he stil wakes me up to go to school. i think that is a very sweet thing done by my friend.
last time when i stil were at secondary school, we used to send letter to each other using snail mail. we used to hand written those letter in chinese. i still keeping all of his letter. but it is also my habit of keeping every single card or letter sent by my friends. i love spraying some of my perfume on the letter i sent him. when he is reading the letter, i guess the scent will make him feel better. i stil remember once he told me, he normally keeps all my letter in his drawer with his school tie. so his tie will smell like my perfume too.. hehe..
few years back, both of us did have some sparks happen. but the sparks did not spark at the same time. but then, we are still very good frens now.
i think he is 1 of the first few person where i wil share my ups and downs with. for example, that day when i suppose to go collect my result, i was so excited and nervous on getting my result, i sms him n told him bout it, then he wil reply back and calm me down. whenever i m not happy or anything, i would normally think of him and tell him that i m not happy, then he wil start consoling me. every few days, he will call in and check on me how m i doing n etc. i guess he is the onli fren who do so.
all birthday present given by him to me, are normally quite handycraft like. there was this 1 year, where he fold stars and put it in a jar, with some cotton underneath with some perfume. hehe...cos i love perfume, keke.... he loves giving me things with my name in it. like a handphone string, with my name on it. a key chain with my name on 1 side and happy birthday on other side.
so now, i m stil thinking of wat to present to him. i ask him wat he wants, he stil refuse to. he just keep saying think of something myself. n he requested me to write a blog about him. yea, so i did, this it is. so i stil gotta think of what to buy for him which is special enough to be present by me.
PS to Chee Hwa:
I hope you will be happy everyday. Your always happy go lucky attitude do brighten my days alot. I appreciate for all the things you had done for me. I am very thankful for all the time you spent hearing to my downs. I am very glad that i have such a good friend. Thanks for being my alarm clock even you are not suppose to wake up at such early morning. Hope our friendship will last forever. Muaks!!!! hugsss.....
Saturday, 9 August 2008
9 aug
couldnt sleep last nite. dunno why. i think i only get to sleep around 3 sumting in the morning. then i gotta wake up at 6sumting in the morning. so basically i only slept 3 hours.
So woke up get ready then went to kelana jaya our training centre, we are suppose to give exam to the group of medical students which i gave course last week. so went there, most of them reach already. hehe. they are early. i would say this group of students so far i do not see any latecomers before other than the first day where 1 student forget bout the course. quite good students i would say. so we started with the practical exam first. as my senior officer is there, so obviously she wil take the cpr part. then me the fracture, bandage and transportation. basically all of them also know how to do their things. just some minor minor things which they forgot.
so the guy which i said which keep bugging me last week, wasnt really bugging me that much. but stil got abit la. probably he is just too busy with his exam.hehe.
i pass around a piece of namelist which i require them to sign then the guy which i said who did caught my attention, when i reach home, looking thru the list, i saw him draw a smiley beside the signature. and then i was marking their theory paper just now, i notice this guy got so high marks. i was quite surprise as he is one of the 2 which is not medical student. then i mark the guy which sit beside him, that guy got 100 marks. n i can see the style of answering of the 100 marks guy quite similar to the guy which sign with a smiley. LOL,....i think that guy curi tengok la....can see easily as the words use quite similar and with shorter answer...then the sequence of the answer is the same...
after finish the exam, so they request for a group photo, is more for proof of them attending the course...haha...then after that, quite alot of them did came and thanks me. thats the best part, where watever your hard work is being appreciated. i m happy that i m teaching others how to help others. so is a very missionary job i m doing...hehe....lagak pulak...keke..
then after that went to work. so freaking tired n sleep. then later went home ready for ballet class. then took a short nap. then go for ballet. a ballet fren of mine is going back to canada. she came back for semester break. she changed so much. she had more style and more self confident. so proud of her. and even her 1 year of not dancing, she stil can dance quite well...hehe...wish her all the best.
then went home after ballet, my relative from australia reached my house already. so long time didnt see her. but i dun really have much things to share wit her, as she is in her 50s la..i where got conversation topic with her 1 la...she keep saying that she saw all my photos on facebook la...so dolled up la...she wished her son was younger or sumting...lol...but her son is 33....kaka....
sad thing is she and her husband is using my room and my toilet. basically i took some of my clothes down to my study room, all my face things are in my study room. then i wil sleeping in the tv room.....sob sob....my room....sob sob....
had flu today..probably not enough sleep thats y nose quite sensitive. so tired now....tomoro morning have to go back to kelana jaya for st john area meeting....then afternoon going for SALSA...haha....
So woke up get ready then went to kelana jaya our training centre, we are suppose to give exam to the group of medical students which i gave course last week. so went there, most of them reach already. hehe. they are early. i would say this group of students so far i do not see any latecomers before other than the first day where 1 student forget bout the course. quite good students i would say. so we started with the practical exam first. as my senior officer is there, so obviously she wil take the cpr part. then me the fracture, bandage and transportation. basically all of them also know how to do their things. just some minor minor things which they forgot.
so the guy which i said which keep bugging me last week, wasnt really bugging me that much. but stil got abit la. probably he is just too busy with his exam.hehe.
i pass around a piece of namelist which i require them to sign then the guy which i said who did caught my attention, when i reach home, looking thru the list, i saw him draw a smiley beside the signature. and then i was marking their theory paper just now, i notice this guy got so high marks. i was quite surprise as he is one of the 2 which is not medical student. then i mark the guy which sit beside him, that guy got 100 marks. n i can see the style of answering of the 100 marks guy quite similar to the guy which sign with a smiley. LOL,....i think that guy curi tengok la....can see easily as the words use quite similar and with shorter answer...then the sequence of the answer is the same...
after finish the exam, so they request for a group photo, is more for proof of them attending the course...haha...then after that, quite alot of them did came and thanks me. thats the best part, where watever your hard work is being appreciated. i m happy that i m teaching others how to help others. so is a very missionary job i m doing...hehe....lagak pulak...keke..
then after that went to work. so freaking tired n sleep. then later went home ready for ballet class. then took a short nap. then go for ballet. a ballet fren of mine is going back to canada. she came back for semester break. she changed so much. she had more style and more self confident. so proud of her. and even her 1 year of not dancing, she stil can dance quite well...hehe...wish her all the best.
then went home after ballet, my relative from australia reached my house already. so long time didnt see her. but i dun really have much things to share wit her, as she is in her 50s la..i where got conversation topic with her 1 la...she keep saying that she saw all my photos on facebook la...so dolled up la...she wished her son was younger or sumting...lol...but her son is 33....kaka....
sad thing is she and her husband is using my room and my toilet. basically i took some of my clothes down to my study room, all my face things are in my study room. then i wil sleeping in the tv room.....sob sob....my room....sob sob....
had flu today..probably not enough sleep thats y nose quite sensitive. so tired now....tomoro morning have to go back to kelana jaya for st john area meeting....then afternoon going for SALSA...haha....
Friday, 8 August 2008
7aug
today i got my new shower screen.....it is so so so so so pretty and hot n sexy....it has picture on it....guess wat....i did not choose those flower pattern on it, but i choose a gurl which only covered with some piece of cloth on the important part, can see her long slim legs, the figure...yum yum...i just wish i have such smooth skin, such pretty and long legs and such pretty face. which quite impossible. so thats for me to dream of...haha....but the effect of the picture is good. i got bit of 3D effect....from the inside or outside, it also look like the picture is facing you. got few times of mumble from dad cos of this shower screen. cos he been saying la you all should have bla bla bla,,, you just like your mum, go do only, never think. ya la, we got no brain 1 la.....quite piss of actually, whenever he not happy with my mum and he will mumble mumble all on me....i m like the mangsa.....i think i gonna go nuts already....
this year btw i am having my birthday party at some quite grand place. usually parents call their frens. n normally their frens bring their spouse and children. n furthermore this time it is the company 10 anniversary. is celebrating it together. i was telling him so prepare your guest list i need to print the invitation card already. n then he start asking so where is ur guest list. i said when i want to print i jus straight type into the computer. he said i want to see your guest list first. he start saying bout himself, those fren i have ah, which not very close ah, i CANCel their name out. i dun simply call any1 to come. i call those who are really FRIEND to me. WTF!!!! we are expecting 250 guest. n i think the most all my fren can occupy is 50 - 60. only fucking 20% of the total. and half of the event is mine, not URS.... i m jus fucking taking 20% only. i want to invite who then who la. why shud he fucking care so much. really pissed off. actually got quite some ppl which i really wanted to invite which i think i gotta not invite them. as my parents would be wondering how come you invite this person, you very close to this person ah.... even in my past birthday, i got these 2 malay classmate which were very close to me in form 4 n 5 time. in my 17 birthday, they came with both their bf. n 1 bf got long hair. n not very tidy kind. very very skinny. n then another fren punya bf got pierce all around, probably like 3 or 4 pierce in his whole head la. n dyed blonde hair. then i tell you, the STARE that my dad gave to my fren that time was so scary. what is his problem man. is there a problem for my fren having such a bf. my dad is always with his judging pair of eyes to my frens. guy with long hair means bad. guys with any piercing means bad. gurl with more than piercing on the ears means bad. i stil remember i had this course mate, he got quite long hair, he always wear his cap. n the only brand of cap he wear is FCUK. n this year he came to my birthday, with his usual cap FCUK and he wearing this red blouse which normally the chinese guy wear during the chinese new year type. then my parents then came to me keep asking me who is this guy la n bla bla bla. they pulak sangat jakun dunno wat is FCUK stands for. they just thought it was in purpose on spelling FUCK wrongly. althought i was luckier than so many other ppl that i have my birthday party every year. but i can say probably i m not that happy after all.. most of the ppl who attend the party are my parents frens n their family and my relatives. my frens probably 20% the most. this is birthday party meh....then every time after my party, then my parents will be questioning so who is this guy, who is this gurl...
this coming 1 is my 21st birthday, if they are so restricting, i think i would rather called off the birthday then rather having a non happy birthday party.
my parents always thinks that they give me the best thing and i should be grateful of it and i should not compare with my friends. although i have most of the thing to be branded and so forth. but everything single thing also need to be approved by them. even if i want to change a hp, i m not allowed to unless i have a reason to do so. so far the hp i m owning now is the 4th one. the first was 3210, was passed down by my mum, that one drop to the mangkuk tandas. then 2nd was 3310. is like the cheapest model at that time. i didnt get to change it for 3 years until it wasnt really functioning well. then i got this sony ericsson hp but i cant remember its model name. but defintely the cheapest 1. then later my handbag got snatch, then i got this nokia 6230 that i m using for i think 3 years already. even getting a 1K model hp also with some condition which i exchange with my mum. which is attending this thing called the Landmark Forum which it supposingly get to transform you. my mum hope this can transform me into not such a rebellious daughter. HAHA...gladly, it fucking not work. cause from day 1 onwards, i already tune my mind that i came here cause of my phone...haha...and when later part we had this group thingi. n every1 in the group knew that i attended the forum cos of the HP....haha...but something i was so happy that i meet this fren, name chee chung. will talk bout him next blog.
come back to my fucked up life at home, yup, basically i got not much life at home. so my fren, dun be surprised that if i called off my this year birthday party.
this year btw i am having my birthday party at some quite grand place. usually parents call their frens. n normally their frens bring their spouse and children. n furthermore this time it is the company 10 anniversary. is celebrating it together. i was telling him so prepare your guest list i need to print the invitation card already. n then he start asking so where is ur guest list. i said when i want to print i jus straight type into the computer. he said i want to see your guest list first. he start saying bout himself, those fren i have ah, which not very close ah, i CANCel their name out. i dun simply call any1 to come. i call those who are really FRIEND to me. WTF!!!! we are expecting 250 guest. n i think the most all my fren can occupy is 50 - 60. only fucking 20% of the total. and half of the event is mine, not URS.... i m jus fucking taking 20% only. i want to invite who then who la. why shud he fucking care so much. really pissed off. actually got quite some ppl which i really wanted to invite which i think i gotta not invite them. as my parents would be wondering how come you invite this person, you very close to this person ah.... even in my past birthday, i got these 2 malay classmate which were very close to me in form 4 n 5 time. in my 17 birthday, they came with both their bf. n 1 bf got long hair. n not very tidy kind. very very skinny. n then another fren punya bf got pierce all around, probably like 3 or 4 pierce in his whole head la. n dyed blonde hair. then i tell you, the STARE that my dad gave to my fren that time was so scary. what is his problem man. is there a problem for my fren having such a bf. my dad is always with his judging pair of eyes to my frens. guy with long hair means bad. guys with any piercing means bad. gurl with more than piercing on the ears means bad. i stil remember i had this course mate, he got quite long hair, he always wear his cap. n the only brand of cap he wear is FCUK. n this year he came to my birthday, with his usual cap FCUK and he wearing this red blouse which normally the chinese guy wear during the chinese new year type. then my parents then came to me keep asking me who is this guy la n bla bla bla. they pulak sangat jakun dunno wat is FCUK stands for. they just thought it was in purpose on spelling FUCK wrongly. althought i was luckier than so many other ppl that i have my birthday party every year. but i can say probably i m not that happy after all.. most of the ppl who attend the party are my parents frens n their family and my relatives. my frens probably 20% the most. this is birthday party meh....then every time after my party, then my parents will be questioning so who is this guy, who is this gurl...
this coming 1 is my 21st birthday, if they are so restricting, i think i would rather called off the birthday then rather having a non happy birthday party.
my parents always thinks that they give me the best thing and i should be grateful of it and i should not compare with my friends. although i have most of the thing to be branded and so forth. but everything single thing also need to be approved by them. even if i want to change a hp, i m not allowed to unless i have a reason to do so. so far the hp i m owning now is the 4th one. the first was 3210, was passed down by my mum, that one drop to the mangkuk tandas. then 2nd was 3310. is like the cheapest model at that time. i didnt get to change it for 3 years until it wasnt really functioning well. then i got this sony ericsson hp but i cant remember its model name. but defintely the cheapest 1. then later my handbag got snatch, then i got this nokia 6230 that i m using for i think 3 years already. even getting a 1K model hp also with some condition which i exchange with my mum. which is attending this thing called the Landmark Forum which it supposingly get to transform you. my mum hope this can transform me into not such a rebellious daughter. HAHA...gladly, it fucking not work. cause from day 1 onwards, i already tune my mind that i came here cause of my phone...haha...and when later part we had this group thingi. n every1 in the group knew that i attended the forum cos of the HP....haha...but something i was so happy that i meet this fren, name chee chung. will talk bout him next blog.
come back to my fucked up life at home, yup, basically i got not much life at home. so my fren, dun be surprised that if i called off my this year birthday party.
Monday, 4 August 2008
2aug - 4 aug
2nd aug
so today woke up quite early to go down to kelana jaya, our st john there is a group of medical year 2 student from IMU are coming to attend the course. there are 24 of them. so most of them are around the same age as me. i was really worried that they will ask me certain question or disagree on my saying as watever they learn could be more than i know. i was really worried. afterall, i m not that good in first aid after all. at the end of the day, i do find them very nice ppl. they didnt really give me any hard time. n they are quite crazy too. haha. n i can see some of them do quite respect me although i do not have much incredibility in first aid...hehe...
i did spot 1 guy which quite interesting to know further. hhmm..he is not a medical student. but 1 of the medical student brought his gf and his brother to attend the course too. n that guy was quite interested in knowing my age. but that was quite early part of the course, i didnt really review my age because if you are too young, ppl might doubt your credibility...hehe...so he was guessing i m 21-23. which supposingly i m not even 21 til my birthday. today mostly are the theory part, n quite worried that if i said anything wrong.hehe..but afterall, bravo to me,i did well..keke
3 aug.
today is the 2nd day of the course. wasnt really worried today already.as today mostly are practicals. but there is another officer who will be doing most of the talking today. i will only back him up on any circumstances or just add on to wat he left. so today i do realise this guy which is quite fond of talking to me, keep asking me question, keep having conversation with me. can see that he is the only guy doing that. even the other officer also realise that. so i went to mc'd to makan. some of them did follow, n so do this guy. this guy was very obvious at mc'd was trying to sit beside me. supposingly on my left is a walkway, but he put a chair on my left, then on his left he purposely like buat buat to reserve a seat for his other fren who is ordering food. but mana tau, his fren sit somewhere else. so he have to retract the chair beside me, n sit on the chair which he reserve for his fren. then he actually went to the basin to wet his hair. EEELLLLL...... to show he look cool i guess. haha...or probably he jus runs out of gel today, he shud use glue la to stick his hair up....LOL....so then i was half way eating, then he ask me, so that ring who gave me. i always wear this ring which my mum bought for me which i like a lot on my right index finger. i said my mum. then he ask ur 21st birthday present. i said nope. i not even 21 yet. not til my birthday. he said...oohhh, so gonna be 21 la...btw, he is the same age as me. cos on their attendance list got ic number. then the speaker of the day was telling me that, even him can see that this guy was hitting on me...haha....he said ppl talk to u then dun talk back la. i said cannot, thats so rude...hehe...then later part, where 1 of the practical is transportation. 1 of the transporting method is piggy back. so he was trying to piggy back this other gurl which is quite big size. but fail. then he ask me to go over. n let him piggy back. then i like hhmmm....so i jus go over la...cos this method is the casualty suppose to sit on the chair n get piggy back. so i sit on the chair. he got my leg and hand la. then the st john officer was looking at me n smiling ahead there. i stare him back n rolled my eye at him. he start laughing at me over a corner quietly n observe wat this guy do to me..kaka..but that guy stil fail to piggy back me up, cos he lack of techniques la...hehe....so 1 of the other transport method is craddle, means like carry a child on ur arm. so the officer assistant was very heavy. 70kg. compare to me 50kg. so he carry me la. so he carry me up and walk a few step, once he carry me up, and all the students were like "aaawwwwwhhhhh" (sound out). it actually let me remember back wat my first ex did to me many many years ago. where he cradle me in his arm n walk across this flooded area. was so touched that time. when i leave, some of them did said formally, thank you sheryn. or thanks alot sheryn......i was so trilled. i think i wasnt that bad afterall....keke.....
stil like yesday nite mood, very very moody...dunno why....probably cos my body is aching...n the day is very very hot..make me really not feeling good.then went out for lunch wit family. then went to bank to run some errands. then go work. then went to a member house at sri damansara to collect the st john flag day tin. cos tonite some officer gonna come to do the counting of the money we collected from the tin. the amount that they collected were onli half of the amount last time we used to collect. sigh. wat to do. members now do not have such a commitment anymore.
5 aug
quite happy and excited as at nite i m going to meet up with my frens, 2 of them which i long time didnt see them. i went out with adelene, michelle and vern may. last time there there were 5 of us which named by a fren of us as 'glamours' ...haha...not sure why we were given that name. but that time during foundation we were very close. we go everywhere together 5 of us. even we decided to eat instant noodle for lunch at college, all 5 will go buy a bowl of instant noodle from Kiosk then our college have water filter, and it has the hot water. so soak the noodle with the hot water, then all 5 of us will be sitting at the long corridor of help underground building eating our maggi....haha...there were once all 5 of us brought laptop to use during our break, all 5 were displaying our laptop 1 row...haha...that was the fun time la...1 of them is in perth now studying. another 2 is stil at HELP but doing another program at another block, hardly get to see them. semester break and exam time all different. then me n adelene together at this program.
so michelle and vern may was talking bout the eshopping business that they are doing. cant believe it...me n adelene the business student haven even think bout doing business now, but the psychology student is doing it....haha...can see that they are doing very well..so happy for them..when i reach home, i was so excited to view their eshopping site. as usual, the site which design by michelle is fantastic. looking thru their site, got quite a few wows...hehe...so proud of them.
had a really great catch up with everybody's life. every1 seem happy. n all 4 of us will be graduating in the same convo. quite happy actually...i really do miss andrea alot.
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