financial freedome

i need a financial freedome...the actual meaning is u r not owing any money...

but to me, it means i am earning the money myself, i can do watever i like with it, with the money i earn myself, i dun have to look at the colour of the face of the people to do things. i can just do watever i want, whenever i want.

it trigger me again today jus cos parens office had 1 permanent stuff resigned last week, then 1 part time stuff stop working tomoro n another 1 next week stopping work cos they r going to study. so left no more clerk. then there is another 1 suppose to come today but she didnt appear. so..... on the 5th apr wil b st john area dinner, is a charity dinner, s usual i m the committee. but that day mum wil b at ipoh wit her frens. n dad ask me m i going to work tat day, then b4 this i already discuss wit mum then she said the gurl which suppose to appear today is going to work on 5th apr, so she said i can go do my st john stuff. but then dad suddenly was piss off n said the gurl is unreliable n bla bla bla...n start scolding there... so is st john paying my living cost...n is my mum fren paying her living cost...(means that the business is paying our living cost, is paying for our shoppings n bla bla bla) that time mum wasnt there so couldnt clarify wit her...n then i kena marah pulak!!!! aarrrggghhhh....

even i have a good living now, get to travel all the time, get to buy branded stuff, dun have to worry bout food, etc but not all the time m happy...but i stil have to b grateful la...not every1 can have perfect life...so patience is stil the golden word here...

thats y all the while i cant wait to start working....every1 said enjoy while u study dun think of going to work onli...but me, is opposite..of cos i do enjoy studying n enjoy the accompany of college frens... if i start working later n if they stil so kongkong my life, then i wil definitely get out... then i can any f***ing thing i wanna do!!!!!