is quite a awful day today, i think for the past 20 years plus of my life, most of the day that i spent are quite awful. as long the day are spent in this house with THEM, then is very awful. i always tell myself, i m so much lucky than those unfortunate people. but i stil very suffering being here. i really hate being here. i dun feel like i m owning my life. i have been hoping that every seconds, every minutes, each day, each month will pass away faster so i can start working and start be independent. one day, when i start to work, can i really be independent?? i dunno....i dun dare to think. all those things had runing around in my head for the whole afternoon, n my whole day mood was so bad. it all started actually cos of me going to pulau trip.
sometime i really feel my heart got crush so badly, there is no one who could understand wat i m going thru. why must they always need me to think from their side, but they never think bout my feelings?? why watever they do is defintely right, and watever others do which contradicts them is wrong. they are not that smart and wise after all.
why do i just act like a tame pet to them, why i never had the guts to betray them, to shout at them, to run away from them. i m so so tired. i think i have been blogging bout this feeling for so many times. i guess everyday it stil have the same conclusion,
NOTHING THAT I CAN DO...
i hate myself for being so restless....for being so useless.......
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
1 comment:
hey... after so so long, finaly i can come on9, haha... well... As wat i told others, no one is useless, and no one can tell u that u are useless...
well... i will think becoz ur their daughter, that's why u dun have thosr "guts"...anyway, i dun think u need those "guts"... i believed ur just as beautiful as who you are now...
im not goana command on anything here...since i think wat we can share with u is only two thingy... to support you, or to support them...either side...haha...
so, i will just stand in the middle, and tell you...
Jia you, jia you, jia you...
One day everything will come to an end, and all the unhappiness, stress, down or wat so ever, you wouldn't feel it anymore... but all those are those that made you a better, tougher girl that stand on your feet that day...
Look forward and keep you direction forward, who noes what's awaiting ahead, maybe something very suprising, mayb...maybe not...
jia you and hang on tight la my dear fren...n_n
Believed with u, dat u can...put a smile, and go go go!
Post a Comment