Sick

I am very sick now. had fever, flu and cough. not only me, but the whole family. no mood to study at all. is like die la. before i was sick i also barely study. i stil got 3 days more to study. got so much study for IT subject. and for asian business environment, worried for the high expectation of the lecturer.i never felt this way before other than the last semester the subject which i got very low marks for.

i feel my standard drop a lot. last time used to be the hardworking girl. got highest marks for this or that. but now. i m nothing. felt so useless.

i don't even know how to score well in the following exams, the following semester. in my life, is it just all about scoring??!!

read 1 of my fren,fc blog today, he talk about life seems to be meaningless. i always agree that life is empty and meaningless. it depends on how we put meaning into it. wat kind of meaning to be put in??i also dunno. my dream seems to be more far to be achieved. last time i used to be a girl who is very ambitious that it even drive some guys away from me. but now, all my ambition and dream seems to be so hard to be acheived.

m i no good??m i lazy??or this is just what life is?? i dunnoo...some1 pls tell me.