All assignment finish...at last

At last....all my assignments is done. The last assignment was submitted yesterday. It was a group assignment. glad that i have good group members.

actually last week got back 1 of my assignment marks, it was really really bad. thank god didnt fail. i been questioning myself, bout my ability. all the while some people think that i m good, even me myself think i m not very bad quality. probably i m not as good as what you and me think I am. starting to lose confidence on myself. so many times cross my thoughts that I want to change course. probably to accounting. since i m so good in numbers. but end of day, i do agree on 2 of my best frens saying, we study is just for the knowledge, study for wat v learn, but not for the marks, grades, and classification. I do agree to that to a certain extent, but what bout my parents and the future employers??!! I dont think they will think that way. especially my parents. last week i really did break down. couldnt stand it. but i guess is just life.

but what really life is?? i always question myself. especially after my great grand ma death, i always think about life and death. probably i can live up to 70 or 80 years. but is it true that my soul does not die. is it true that there is heaven and hell?is it true that there is life after this life?what am i compare to this universe. and there is even foundings of some other galaxie. so how many galaxie there is in the universe? i m just like a dust compare to the universe. wat is the meaning to live? since it is meaningless, why do we still need to study so hard?? y?? whenever i think of the universe, then i start to feel a shiver in my body. i m scared. i m nervous. all this question will then flooded my mind.

on 29th may it will be final exam. so today was the last day of uni. got 1 week of study break. hope i relaly utilise it well. and i won't ended up last minute.

1 good news and 1 bad news today

if u want to read bad news first then press page down

good news is i got my scholarship from HELP again. this is the third time gotting it. feel good. but don't think wil get next year. here i come. no confidence to myself again.

bad news is (i suppose most people will not understand what i will be saying as it is actually very PnC stuff)
the last time i was saying that i got RM12. but it is gone now. i can onli get it next year. due to some stupid reason. i got really disappointed.
(i think onli ciwawa wil understand this)