i had lost my way somehow

i m abit of without directional now...in what sense?? in everything i guess. i am just doing what others are doing. other does their degree. follow lo. parents said what is better. follow lo. there are certain times, where i though i found the path, but somehow, it just seem to be unreachable. or it is jus too common where every1 is also using the same path. just getting so bored and sick of everything. i always think of death. i m afraid of it. life is too short. too short that i am so afraid of death. am i too young to be worried of it. i dunno. but average life i guess is onli 60-70. means max i left another 50 years. now i already had 20 years passed. another 2n a half 20 years to go. my pass 20 years, dun seem meaningful at all. whenever i start thinking up to this point, i will be so terrified. what is life?? whats after death?? in our religion, we were alwiz told that there is an afterlife. issit true.....??? if is true, how long will i be in that afterlife?? i m always so afraid that i might die tomorrow. cos i m jus too young, so many more things i have not done and tried and experienced. whenever i m alone during the nite, i often thinking bout this. it is so scary.