this evening had my ballet class. for very long time didnt have such intense class before. we were so exhausted. n we also had pointe shoe session. i wear on my new pointe shoe. but after dancing 1 dance, i onli realise that i forget to stick the platform leather back. it came off last few weeks. is quite anonying dancing wit it flipping around. so i decided to change my old pair of shoe. cos i saw onli left like 20 minutes. so i thought mayb wun have that much injuries. mana tau, jus 5 minutes onli, i can feel my skin scrap off already. the photo below showing my right leg wearing tights with 1 toe bleeding.
this is how a balletrina feet looks like....UGLY!!! look at my big thumb...is bruise. i had toe nails came out b4. not once, but 3 times already. the big toe...
is so tough...i m taking a ballet exam this year. planning. i m 1 of the worst dancer. i m not talented. y m i stil dancing ballet?? passion mayb. not sure i can survive thru?? no1 is supporting me mentally...is not so easy...no1 is always there for me to lean on...no1 there to lend me a shoulder anymore....u see. now is nite time. thats y i m emotional!!!!!! cant stop it...
i think i better stop talking before i crap more rubbish...
3 comments:
aaaaauuuuchhhh!!!!! omg! i didnt know. thats nuts.
but i'm sure you love ballet so much that you dont actually want to stop so soon right?
if you like it, continue man! let the bruises be a reminded of how hard you work. it doesnt matter who is more talented that who.
I do not mean to put you down to earth, but ultimately, passion can be something to keep you on the track but some other things can pull you down.
when you realised that no one is there for you, think of me, if I'm still your 'sai lou'.
same to me how i used to feel. I rued the disappointments for not being stood by and no one understands why I did so. It's always hard for some other people to understand, but you should never make yourself confused with it.
take care, jie.
Do the best you can. As long as you can. I practiced fencing for many years. 2 times a day, standing 3+ hour session trainings. One day I got a lesion in my lower back, was the first message. Some time later the pain in my knees began, and it got worse with time, so months later it was so strong I just have to stop training. Even now, many years later, in cold evenings my knees still hurt. But to be honest I will do the same if have the opportunity. Fencing was something I just loved to much. And it left things in my heart that changed my life. I was good in fencing, got natural talent, but began too late. I was sure I will never make to the Olympics or something like that. But I am proud because I did the best which can be done in my situation. Now I work in things completely unrelated to fencing but the strength it built in my heart will last till the last day of my life.
Just be honest to yourself. Learn to judge yourself in a positive way. Know that being happy with whatever you do is the core of a successful life. And listen carefully to the messages. If it is the better for you, surely something will be there to whisper it to your heart.
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