Ballet journey

i am sure all of you all know i dance ballet. lots of people say"wa...u learnt for so many years already, can be teacher already la." wats my reaction? i wil smile and say " no la, i m not that good. cant teach yet." at this point of time, I am not very proud of my achievement in ballet or maybe my dancing life. even now i am learning hip hop, but i still havent get to master it the most important element:body feel. i does not have it at all.



let me count, how many time i fail in my ballet exam. 1- grade 4, 2- grade 5, 3- grade 6, 4-elementary. that is many time of failure man!!! and there are even some grades which i took 1 year more than others before i could take exam. Y?? cos i m not good enough lo.. when i fail my elementary, when was that? oh yea, during my spm year. i even took the exam. cool rite? oh yea, is a thing to be remember. it is even remember by many people. that year spm year, i took my ballet exam and even participate in my dance school concert. haha. thats me. but that year ballet exam i fail. spend 1 year on that grade. during that 1 year, i really struggle. we even had triple class. that is so tiring. still remember it was friday, saturday then monday. i stil remember friday was at 8.30pm. then saturday class was at 1pm. is like less that 24 hour got to go back to the 'torture room' again. at that time, ballet class really like a nightmare. bit of phobia going for class. but i must pass for the exam. so even the triple class is so so so tiring, i still try to stay very strong to avoid myself giving up on me myself..



at last left 1 more week to ballet exam..haha...sumting bad really happen to me and my partner..my handbag got snatch by a thief..then i fell on the tar road.. and i got some wounds on my face, hand, arm, knee etc...couldnt really dance..then my exam gotta postpone..and my partner got dengue fever..cos she also couldnt dance, we ended up taking the exam 1 week later from the actual date..and you noe wat, i PASS..not only pass but MERIT!! i m overjoy..even me cacat abit, but then stil got MERIT..it might not be really i m that good, could be the examiner giving some pity mark to me this cacat fellow..

I guess since last year i been only doing ballet once a week. and i really feel i got no progression at all. so recently i had decided to go for double lesson. so i will not feel too lazy everytime going for class. and the most important i will have progression in my ballet techniques. last time i used to have a thinking, since i m not good at it, then just take it easy. just go for single lesson and continue dancing. don't take exam. but then now i think since i m doing it, why not i do it better. YES!! this is suppose to be ME!! haha....

probably or i would say definitely after i graduate school, i will go learn ballroom. after watching today so u think u can dance, i think contemporary is such a beautiful art. is like a expression shown by the dance. just by looking at the dance, you will feel for it also. is so fantastic. i think if got chance and time, i will learn it. hehe