Study

this week suppose to be a study week..coming tue,19th, is the last paper. s i said before, the assignment for this subject i screwed up. so i had to really work hard for the exam so i at least stil can get a second upper..i m always questioning myself,have i done enough??m i good enough?? have i done my best?? etc.... i really afraid i cant even get a second upper for this subject..if i really dont, i might lose my scholarship. i definitely get scolding from my mum. i sometime also question myself: i study is to get good grades so i can be proud of myself,so my mum wil not scold,so others can praise i m smart?????....or i study is for the knowledge and for the skills??? i cant choose one, i think both works for me as well..

ok..come back to my studies for this subject. wat m i stil doing so late night?? cos i cant sleep. y i m not studying instead now i m blogging??..hehe..hand itchy,heart itchy,eye itchy, cant stand computer temptation..how many percent i have finish study??i dont know!! how could i don't know??(me stupid idiot)!!... really not sure what to study..no confidence at all..dare not to hope for too much..

just now chatting with my 'kai sai lou', he were saying he wanna change his image, that is his resolution for 2007..i think i should start listing it out now..i actually already have a few in mind already.

• concentrate in class(never fall asleep), of cos need to sleep early the night before
• start doing assignment early
• start doing revision early
• read before attending class
• do more research

all this i know that it can help me in my studies from long time ago, but till now i still cant do it well..so i really hope i can do it in 2007...sorry not 'really hope'..is MUST DO IT!!

next blog,i shall think more resolution..whoever c i really fulfil my resolution in 2007, please praise me,if can present please,thank you....hehe...(i know, i very greedy)