Freedome

Another great weekend

2010-08-08T21:45:00.002+08:00

On saturday, early morning already got digged up by dad to go to this showroom at damansara jaya. is a showroom for home theatre system. this place specially design for accoustic means everything in the AV room should be place. the angle and position of a speaker and etc. the boss of the place is very good. i mean good at what he does. so we discuss of how the new home av room home theatre system gonna be. also we are also having piping system in the whole house. and in my room, i am gonna have a basic system with 2 front and 2 back speaker and a subwoofer. n i wil have a motorized projector screen, of course with a projector. the projector gonna be above my head with a motorized projector lift. when the lift goes up the whole projector will not be seen. cool rite. hehe. i know. and at first didnt expect to have any tv in the room. but watching long hours with the projector will shorten the life time of the projector bulb. so i m gonna have my dad current plasma tv which is i think is a 42 inch in my room. but not being place on a table or cabinet, but will be on a wall hung frame which is flexible.

afternoon go work lo. then evening went to Pavilion with parents. cos they wanted to get a new luggage. we bought a samsonite red colour suitcase. those hard type one. but is very cool! i like the red. hehe. then dinner at angus steakhouse which serve good kobe and wagyu beef. is one of the awesome fine dining place which you will feel full even with sharing. then went to watch Salt. the movie, overall not salty enough. hehe means i expected more from the movie. but everything just like my fren michelle says, predictable.

next day, woke up early to go pc fair. cos bought some things from the previous pc fair n it was faulty. so trying to find the store but cant find. too bad. next time not gonna go to pc fair dy. not much diff in price. and have to go thru the crowds and all those lala salespeople. worst than pasar malam. manage to buy a Logitech wireless mouse. in Red again. hehe. this mouse to use at office. much more convenience to go wireless. hehe. i guess i m da only one with own personal mouse. but those who use the machine in the company has a even cooler mouse from apple.

also went to klcc cos had some mystery shopping assignment. this round is with Triumph. hehe. quite like it. cos the bra that i bought is being paid partially. furthermore, i need some new one. hehe. bought g string too. bought a red one as well.

then rush down to one utama. meeting up with the ballet gang for lunch and movie. lunch was at nyonya colours. dun relaly like the place. expensive place which serve local hawker food. not very good taste and ex! who serve mee rebus with potato?? then we head for movie at one U tgv cinema. since ages watch movie at tgv One U. which is quite an old cinema. went there cos the movie that we want to watch, street dance only available there. but the movie was good. combination of ballet and street dance. very refreshing. love their choreography. and the best part is those guys in there got terribly good looking abs.

then meet up with Jun for another movie, Tekkan. bit boring. lots of fighting. at least some guys and girls in there are super hot with their bodies.

there goes another weekend. tomorrow gonna work. gosh, lots more work to complete. important and seem urgent.

new job

2010-04-24T11:47:00.002+08:00

Oh my, i think it had been quite some time that I did not update my blog. how come i suddenly will post up something here. cos just now flipping through this magazine, then one of the article writing bout blogging. and today is a boring saturday for me except the fact that later i m going to spa. hehe.

since the last blog, the biggest changes that i have in me is i changed a job. yes, i change a new job. currently working at Melium group. as marketing officer. what do i do?? i am actually mainly incharge of F&B. but i am also incharge of a few fashion brands. F&B mainly is Dome Cafe. for fashion brands include aigner, tod's, stuart weitzman & cole haan. i started since apr 1st. i m here for almost 1 year dy. so far so good. start picking up. alot to learn. alot of procedure which i am unsure that i have do some detouring before i get things done. manager and colleague are quite helpful. i m expected alwiz to be on my tip toes doing work. if 1 error done, means gone case.

another Sunday

2009-12-20T23:07:00.002+08:00

today is a Sunday, which is a day where usual people do not need to work. however ME, need to work as this month is December. I just have to explain to almost everybody who ask me how come you are working on a Sunday. yes, this is wat I m doing right now. work for 6 days. not entitle to most of the public holidays. and yes, i stil love working. cause it gives me money, where i can buy watever i love to. and of course the most important thing is it gives me experience which money cant buy. these are the experience that i wil need to setup my scsy group. hehe...

but lucky today wil only start work at 11am. so yesday was able to stay up bit later for andrew's birthday. had dinner at jarrod and rawlins. i love thinly sliced ham. probably next time i should go back for their thinly sliced ham to go with sandwich. they will surely taste damn good. then went to tropicana city mall for drink. at artista. first time been to tropicana city mall. although is a small mall, but it as a few restaurant/bar open till late. the place that we went has a band. trying to entertain the small crowd.

today tried krispy creme. now i understand how come they name as crispy cream. cos the outer layer is quite crispy and it has loads of cream in it. cos was bit hungry and the midst of work. pass by then bought 2 pieces. then i though it will be clumsy eating in the car while driving, so took it out when i was walking towards my carpark. then 2 bites, some cream oozes out. then after a few more bites, chunk of cream oozes out and drip on my pants. omg. a big patch. quickly throw the doughnut into the bag, then start cleaning up. tried the cappucino(if not mistaken) and new york cheese. cappucino do taste good. new york cheese cream are bit on the sour side but like sour cream taste. i prefer the jco cheese, the salty ones. hehe.

planning to go for my spa on the coming tues which is my off day and mayb some movie marathon. not sure do i have time as will be having appointment with my dad to view those showrooms in preparation of the new house.

heading off. tomoro wil try to get up early to get to office.

wil try to update this as often as possible.

cheers.

Birthday wishlist of 2009

2009-10-25T01:20:00.001+08:00

haha...how come i have this list again??

actually i never tot of it at all.

til a good fren of mine who ask me where is your birthday wishlist this year. hehe. he said better go create one list so he can know wat to get for me. hehe. then i actually creating this list just to make his life easier and make my dream come true too. hehe. kill 2 bird with 1 stone. omg. so lame. keke

actually havent thought about much things yet.

ok lets start.

hhmm

perfume is my favourite.

have eye on a few perfume actually.

1. Coco Chanel perfume.
this one got stronger smell, can last long,very feminine.

2. Laura Mercier , Creme Brulee flavour perfume.
this one got very sweet smell. just like how creme brulee taste.

3. Juicy couture perfume. vanilla flavour. very sweet too. feel like swallowing it too. very sexy.

4. cant think of any yet. will update sumore.

moving out

2009-10-20T22:41:00.002+08:00

planning to move out.

determined to move out.

budgeting to move out.

i m very determined to move out this time. had do some budgeting. had done some researching. will not be a problem supporting my own life. but just that mayb less shopping and less this and that. but i think i would prefer less this and that in exchange of more freedome and enjoyment of life. it will definitely be.

updates on me

2009-09-13T20:32:00.002+08:00

omg.. it had been so long that i did not blog. probably all my reader also disappear and forget bout this blog already. hehe. i was crazily busy these few months. let me slowly update my recent life backwardly as much as i could.

talk bout my dancing life first. concert over dy. I was proud of myself. cos i did my best and i think i did well. waiting for the dvd to be out. hehe. hope my tummy didnt got seen. so now no more ballet. cos the class i usually go is on sat. but sat i gotta work. sigh. but now i continue my salsa again. at my teacher's new studio. join back the advance beginner. so long didnt dance salsa, for 9 months dy. couldnt remember. but once i start dancing, then the dance steps are coming back. then today i also started to join the salsa styling class. quite interesting cos i get to learn more on how to style cos usual class they wun have much time to teach u how to style. plan to take up latin too.hopefully. but my work dun seem to be able to finish. and furthermore, now got some extra commitments on every wed n fri.

my work. i am no more management trainee since july. i m Assistant Marketing and operation executive now. is been 2 month plus. but there are still alot of things that i m not sure, there are stil quite some things which i dun remember i need to do. in conclusion, i m stil not satisfied with my performance right now. argghhhhh.......there are just so many things that i couldnt remember all.

basically now i work from monday to sat. sat i wil surely only work up to 7pm. then go shopping and dinner with family. then sunday ah, mayb lunch with family or with friends. then afternoon go to salsa class. monday surely got meeting. surely go back to office. then normally back around 8 plus. then the following days, depend on wat crisis i wil face. crisis like short of manpower, do wrong things, miss out things... then sumtime, got special sale or fair which i need to help out the whole day.so basically also goes back quite late. reach home almost 10pm. only have my dinner. then watch tv for while. online for while. then go to sleep.

work

2009-05-16T00:05:00.002+08:00

this is already the 11th week of my work. getting even more tired now. cos now i m stationed at sogo for Padini fair. this is a group fair where got the brand of padini workwear, padini authentics, vincci, seed and miki. and i m partially incharge of this fair. i feeling the pressure already. the first few days, my brand's sales is hitting the target. i feel overjoyed. but the 5th day onwards is not hitting the target til today. the fair is from 6th-19th may. and this is my first time working full day. full day means from 9.30am - 9.30pm. there was this time where i need to work 2 days consecutively full day. really tired man. leg gonna break. this job isnt easy. but always thinking what i can use all the knowledge i learn from this work and applicable for my future dreams then is worth it. thats all for tonite. wil type in bit by bit. so long no update dy.

feel touched

2009-04-01T00:12:00.002+08:00

thanks chee hwa for ur comment n ur concern

to my other fren who concern bout me, in particularly my gang of classmates, thanks for your concern. so touched. i dun feel lonely. i have so many people who actually stil care for me.

jus give you all some updates on my recent life, work is getting better. leg dun feel as pain n tired as the 1st 2 weeks in work. 1 month passed already. waiting for my 1st pay cheque anxiously. not cos of the money. is the meaning of it. haha. adelene told me mayb i should frame up my 1st pay slip. haha... next month i m going to klcc isetan, and in may going to sogo. so do come find me for lunch or movie after my work. i would love that. i need some entertainment to destress myself. my work is not stress afterall. except everyweek i got to submit a report to my manager. hehe. but not that hard la. i quite love it cos i really really learn alot of things. and is really a very very good stepping stone for my future business in fashion industry.

but my another commitment really making me tired of it. doing everything myself. stil struggling n surviving through.

feeling lonely

2009-03-20T09:42:00.002+08:00

yesday nite due to sumting at home, i was crying... crying quietly alone... feeling so so lonely... i just wish that there is sum1 can be there for me and hug me when i m crying, when i m tired, when i am down....

recently in my work, i m really really tired....jus wish that there is sum1 i can complaint to and sum1 who can console me....

b4 this, i was planning this this and this for my life, but then now, it seem to be unreachable...

life just seem so meaningless...

jobless

2009-02-11T21:07:00.002+08:00

i m stil jobless now. is fun and not fun to be jobless.

is fun cos u r so free
is not fun cos u r too free n got nothing else to do and felt bored

is fun cos dun have to worry bout paying bills
is not fun cos u cant use money freely cos is not your own money

is fun cos u can sleep til very late
is not fun cos when u woke up u stil feel like so tired although u didnt do much

is fun cos...dunnoo...

but for at the moment...i really wanna start working. those who start working sure said i stupid. but i feel like there is no meaning when i woke up every morning. make me so lazy. although i got things to do, but i wil always said i m so free tomoro, i wil do it tomoro....n i even procrastinate more....bored bored bored....

before this, i thought getting a job i want is very easy.

but now, after really trying, it is tough. it is not fun at all. i cant wait to start working......!!!!!!

fraser hill

2009-01-30T22:54:00.003+08:00

on 25th jan went to Fraser Hill with family and some relatives. all staying in 1 apartment - Silverpark Resort. never ever stay in this resort. it s**ks...

when we reacht he hotel, i saw there are many blocks of apartment. then i thought this must be a big resort. (but later only found out that there are quite some apartment lots are bought by people as holiday homes) went into the apartment, then found out some lights are spoilt, then the kitchen basin is leaking, some plug is not working. and their maintenance people are not efficient and one of them dun even understand what is tissue paper... OMG....told him paper paper, he brough old newspaper....haha....LOL...

we had our lunch, then play mahjung. hehe...then have dinner. after dinner continue mahjung. nothing else we can do there actually. cos the tv screen is as small as my laptop screen. and only have tv1,2 n 3. and is not clear also...

here come the worst thing, the whole fraser hill is out of water...when is my turn to shower, there is no water....damm!!! the resort management told that the JBA got problem with sum paiping or sumting. dunno la...then that dumb resort got water tank, but the pam of the tank does not work. lucky i m there for one night only, i pity those people who stay there for long period. the management also have no idea when there will be water.

fraser hill is freezing cold. when i went to bed, even with 1 comforter and 1 jacket is stil feel very cold. wish that there is sum 1 to hug me and give me warmth...

the next day work up went to the resort restaurant for breakfast. is 9 sumting only, but all the food is FINISHED. is included when we book the apartment. ask the waiter, sudah sangat lewat, tak de lagi. wt??? nvm, go back our apartment, got bread n other things to eat.

then after lunch, pack and went home.

autumn in my heart

2008-12-12T23:22:00.002+08:00

the song autumn in my heart, whenever it is played. then i makes me think of someone. someone who i spend very little time together with, but some1 who can make such a unforgettable mark in my heart. probably it is because it was my first love. my very first puppy love i would say. however, i never in contact with him anymore. it was because the last time i lost my hp n i lost his number too. the last time i saw him when i was 18 i guess.

when i listen to the song jus now, a gush of feelings came to me...i really must blog this out.

alrite, lets talk how i know him. i was form 3 that time. i am a st john that time. he is a pbsm. my school st john n pbsm had a joint gathering. so he came to the gathering. i remember that time he n his group of frens were sitting behind me n my frens. then gathering is all bout games. there was this game, he was invited out to participate in. but he did a gurl partner for that game. he is from VI. is a boy school. so no gurls he know. he just invited me to play the game with him. alrite. the game....haha. flour game. popular tools for games back in school days. so the game is like this, one person suppose to dip the face into a plate of flour which has rubberband in it. then bite on the rubberband. and the other person is biting on a straw. so have to put as many rubberband as possible onto the straw inorder to win. so of cos he is the one who dip the face into the flour. n me holding the straw la. when he is putting the rubberband on the straw, the distance of our face are very near. b4 that was quite shy to look straight on his face. but this was the time to look clearly how he looks like. although his face full of flour, but then he stil look good. he is taller than me half a head. not fat. not skinny. overall, good looking. we were laughing at each other cos kena flour. but he got more...THE. so when we finish the game we get back to our seat. then we started to chat abit. after for a while, he borrow my hp. i tot he needed to make a phone call. so i lend him. that time so innocent. didnt know that he actually use my hp to miss call his hp to get my number. i didnt realise that even after he return to me. when i leave the place for a while, then i receive a sms from him...haha. then that time only i knew.

then since then, we start sms to each other. chat over the phone...icq...and he really a very hardworking person in terms of studies. most of time, i ask wat you doing. study normally is his answer. i was motivated to study too that time. hehe. after the gathering we did went out. the first time was he came to my school by train. behind my school is lrt station. then we went to a kfc nearby. then we makan lo. then go back to my school. however, it was heavy rain that time. so fortunately my fren stay nearby, went to her place to borrow an umbrella. then we start walking back to my school. back to school is 15minutes walk distance normally. then before reaching my school there is this park. it was under renovation. when is raining, some part get flooded. we couldnt walk over to my school. and then he suggested and say he wil carry me over that puddle of water. is not puddle of water, i was quite deep actually. i said no need. we shall just take the long way. he didnt say anything. he jus squad now and scoop me up. wow. i know. that is so the romantic. hehe.... then while walking half way, then there was this crane at the park which does the renovation work, the worker inside horn us. and tell us to get out of there. cos it mayb dangerous. then i told him, we should use the other way. then he walk back. then i saw the water stain on his pants reaches his knee. omg. that is quite deep weih....[ting ting!!!] little gurl like me felt so touched again. then we slowly walk back using the other way. then while we were passing sum of those bungalows, i remember him saying, in future, i wil own one of these kind of house. hehe...[ woohoo.... a guy with dreams....add point...] haha....lol....when we reach at the bus stop outside my school, he actually take off his shoes n turn over. it was water pouring out...haha...he was wearing leather shoes. water cant flow out..hehe...poor guy got those water in his shoe when he was in that pool of water. n is mud water....

hehe...so far...very touching... alrite, i gotta go back to study... to be continued if i m in the mood...hehe

cover page

2008-12-12T15:55:00.002+08:00

hehe...this is the cover page of the brochure for economic department of HELP. which is the department i m studying at...hehe. that day i was with my fren adelene in the library. she suddenly got a call from the marketing dpt that they need to product the brochure like urgent. than jus grab me to take photos. hehe. there i am...hehe..i m not that ugly afterall..hehe.. :P

maxis broadband

2008-12-10T01:24:00.003+08:00

using this maxis broadband. hehe. the device is really cute. is so slim n sexy. is in white colour. but speed of cos uncompatible with streamyx la. wireless sure lose out in speed. but slightly better than dial up. not very good for downloading big files. cos modem spoilt. stil considering whether to get the maxis broadband. frens recommendation to use the trial. is free for 7 days. hehe. so try lo. but need to go return back to maxis centre onli..sigh bit mafan. nvm la. at least i tried. after exam, onli go buy a modem back. haih.

towards the end of college life

2008-12-10T01:21:00.002+08:00

am doing my last assignment for my degree. stil got 1 more final exam coming. and a final presentation for my thesis. thats all. OMG. cant believe it. my college life is going to over. half happy half sad. happy cos i can start earning money. sad cos no more companionship of friends and the amount of free time we have. hehe.

wants to start dating

2008-12-10T01:20:00.000+08:00

so freaking bored....wants to start dating...but no1 is available for me at the moment...hehe.

Mass CPR

2008-12-03T21:19:00.000+08:00

Check out this link for the mass cpr event. got my photos in it...and sum comment on me..hehe..

http://sjamsriaman.blogspot.com/2008/12/national-mass-cpr-ou.html

such a failure of me..

2008-11-30T17:40:00.002+08:00

It has been quite some time i didnt feel this way bout myself in this organisation body. it was such a failure... or is actually is just ok?? i dunno....but most of the ppl say, this place is terrible. is not good. response sucks.. i dunno what to expect at all for this event actually. it could be alot or could be very little. is kinda expected or non expected. it also due to before this was too busy with my thesis till friday only i have the time to do preparation for this event. i dunno what, how, why...... i dunno...i m quite disappointed with the result. i m dunno should i be disappointed of myself. i not sure did i did the right thing for choosing this place. but, at last i get to try organising event at this place. i had long wanted to organise event for this organisation body at this palce. after going thru everything. i think is worth the lesson. i can be better in the future. but i guess, end of the day, there is surely blame to be put on a person. i m sure i m the 1 who to be blame to. although it will not be said out, but is defintely in their heart is them.

crossroads

2008-11-23T13:38:00.002+08:00

if all my current 3 subjects go on smoothly, then i will be graduating. graduation is only in april. but now, everyone are asking, so when are u graduating? then i say end of the year finish my studies. then they will ask, so wats ur plan after u finish? i say hhmm.. work loh...where? hhmm, dunno yet. most probably in marketing dpt. what company they normally wil also ask...hhmm, should be sum companies which related to cosmetics and fashion gua...

sigh....till now, haven really apply for any job, except for 1 application in jobstreet for loreal company. but that was like 1 month plus ago. til now, no news, means no la. and there are 2hundred plus ppl who apply for it. and 20 ppl who have higher education than me.. omg... how the hell i m gonna get it la... so far found 1 company with vacancy, will apply for it once i hand in my thesis. then later will start sending out resume to some of the companies..hhmm...not sure when i m gonna get a job. some even say, so u going back to ur parents copmany to work?? haha. i smiled at them and say, it is the last thing i would do. unless i really cant find a job. if i do find one, hopefully can start in feb. but before feb and after my exams, i m going to work in their office. mum already booked me to work there...

another crossroads i m facing, on every sunday i have salsa class from 3-4.30pm. and next year aug, will be my ballet dance school concert. from dec onwards, we need to start doing rehearsals. and the rehearsal time would be from 10am-2pm. then 2pm-5pm. the 10am one is for the opening and closing ceremony. the 2pm one, is a dance on point shoe name call firebird(i guess). and gosh, it clashes my salsa class. actually before that already did cross my mind that the rehearsal time might clash with my salsa class. but the confirm schedule not out yet ma. so now..hhmmwat i know, my salsa class dun have any other time for the same class level. so now, gotta reconfirm with them again on other class availability. which i doubt so. and then next next week, when rehearsal start, need to talk to the choreographer on the arrangements. sad...

still remember half year ago, i was in another big crossroads. and after deciding on taking road A, then already rejected to take road B. then later only found out that road A is blocked already. aarrrggghhhh.....

human life is all about coming to crossroads and decision making...

SCORPIO - The Addict

2008-11-21T23:45:00.002+08:00

SCORPIO - The Addict

EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring.

the above i got it from an email, which says, horoscope, very accurate. and say such things like if u dun forward, you will get 4 years of bad luck. but i never forward all this, unless i think is something really hilarious or important.

so let me go through this whole thing bit by bit and see is it that accurate. some say, how can u believe on this horoscope thingi, how can the world divided to 12 types of people only. hehe

- extremely adorable: i dun think i am.
- loves to joke: oh yes. i joke with all kind of things.
- very good sense of humour: issit same as loves to joke. not sure.
- will try almost everything once: hhmm, it said almost everything. yes, i would love to try almost everything. i m very adventurous. but except anything got to do with insects or animals. of cos except drugs and suicide and.....
- love to be pampered: of cos.
- energetic: yes. but not sure what others think
- predictable: not i cant tell. my fren gotta tell me
- good kisser: haha. i not sure. but got guys told me b4 that i m. hehe.
- always get what they want: disagree. i dun really get whatever i want.
- attractive: i dun think i am
- loves being in long relationship: not for now. yes when i grow old.
- talkative: yes i am.
- loves to party but at times to the extreme: yes i like. but got barriers of going out now.
- love to smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it: oh yes. money is not everything but without money lots of things cannot be done. am i good at making it? hhmmm....i thought i can. but haven start working, so i dunno. good at spending it? hell yeah! who does not know how to spend.
- very protective over loves one: yes i would so. used to fought for him with parents.
- hardworkers: i would say yes when i have the heart to do and i love and enjoy doing it. but at times, i m a great procrastinator.
- can be a good friend but if disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end: yes i can be a good friend. if disrespected only, dun think will end the relationship. probably is the person betray me more than once, then yes. first time normally give chance.
- romantic : i cant evaluate me myself
- caring: i think i am. if i want to ..

boring days during uni days

2008-11-19T22:50:00.002+08:00

when is the most boring days during uni days?? not when the time you got no homework to do. is the time when you got the most homework to do. alrite, in uni, we got no homework. only assignments. when the time we got assignments to do, especially when is going to due in 1 week time. most of ur classmate will not ask you out, cos they also kononnya want to do assignments. yes, doing assignments. but the whole day, probably spend one fourth of the time to do assignments. the other time, not lepaking outside. but is wondering around the internet. go facebook la, go chat chat here and there la, go play round of computer game la, or munching on food or watch a downloaded movie....that also include me and of cos my fren. hehe. but you wun think of going out to reduce the boringness. cos you will keep thinking, no!! i stil got assignments to do. thats apply to a few of my fren. but accept a few who finish their assignments exceptionally fast. they wil finish ahead of others very fast. probably 2 weeks faster than others. then they love the feelings of making others sad cos they haven finish. haha... then i got 1 fren, who is exceptionally good at their studies, who always said they are lucky for getting such high marks, which still goes out during assignment-ing time. their progression normally slower than others. but slumber only. but stil got superb high marks. that their talent i guess which i never had. hehe. i am a very very slow worker. i could not concentrate. although i start reading up early, but i never able to pull in all my thoughts into words quickly. i will always only finish it the night before. i jus always have this lacking of inspiration before the due dates are nearing. then adrenalin jus kick in when i feel excited...hehe... THUS, i got a very successful in business fren said, i can work under pressure. he said is good. i hope so. hehe. but procrastinating is terrible. i know since long time ago. but till now i m stil procrastinating. my fren ask me for movie today, i said cannot la, need to do thesis, then sumore at nite already agreed to my good fren to have dinner with him. but then end up in the afternoon. watching 1 movie n doing sum st john stuff. cos the st john stuff need to submit tomoro as sum superior going to the HQ tomoro.

procrastinate, procrastinate = me.....

:)

panda bear is blogging

2008-11-14T21:36:00.002+08:00

panda bear..who?? of cos me la... panda eyes getting bigger and blacker..

jus handed up an assignment yesterday. stil got 2 more to pass up. one really big big 1. which is 90%. my thesis lo. however was glad that i have this another lecturer, of cos not my supervisor la, this other lecturer who willing to help me with it. he really did give me lots of extra things that i can add on to the thesis. at first i did the topic jus for the sake of assignment. but then now, i do see it as a more useful paper. and i believe i can bring with me in my interview. hhmm.

got another assignment. is writing a business plan. the dateline changed from 1st dec to 12 dec. omg. too long already. i need to prepare for my marketing exam on 16 dec. aarrgghh..nvm..hopefully i wil get to focus then. hehe.

today the whole day i didnt do anything at ALL. afternoon was chatting with fren over msn for 2 hours. then watch tv series after series. until dinner. then after dinner, play game. then surfing the web. then now type blog. hehe. whole day gone. sumore got some st john work for me to settle. and i m sleepy now. hehe. thats me. not til the last minute also not excited to do my work. padan muka saya. hehe.

random thoughts

2008-10-30T23:04:00.002+08:00

today at last i submitted the first assignment of the semester. i wasnt really that satisfied with this assignment. i feel that i could have done better. hehe. every assignments also the same. never satisfied. i m a person who always looking for improvements. never easily satisfied. for almost everything i would said. is the first time me paying a person to look thru the english for the assignments. this lecturer very particular bout grammar in the assignments. so he recommended some1 to us. and is rm50 per hour. we ended up there for 2.5 hour. so is rm125. divided by 4 person, rm32 per person.....argh.... but i think is a better piece of work after the editing la....the lecturer did look thru our assignment this morning b4 we handed in. however, his face was quite sour. means not a very good piece of work. probably to him, is jus a pile of RUBBISH. he just said that we lack of the conclusion. we can still hand it in the following class. so thats bout the 1st assignment la.

tomoro morning need to meet up with another group. is another group assignment. is for marketing subject. this subject assessment got 25% group presentation, 25% individual report, both is base on the same case study. and another 50% for final exam. the only final exam paper for the sem.the case study is on a device which use to catch a rat. boring nya this case study. compare to the other subject assignment we had last sem also by the same lecturer was on ice cream. i suppose every1 really enjoy that. hehe ....omg...talking bout rat....eelllll....

dad asked me to do some stuff, is some office stuff..then i told him to ask the tuition employee to do it la. i m going back home after had my dinner. he ask wat u going to do at home? i said assignments la. he said u today not pass up 1 already meh....i stare at him and ask him, i 1 sem only 1 assignment onli meh....aiyo.....why they always try to find out wat i m doing with my studies. why u go there. why u need to go 1 utama to do your discussion....and all those stupid question. as if afraid i wil go lepak o sumting. dammm!!! i m crazily stress out with all my assignments. where the hell i have time to lepak la...dun even have enough to sleep la...they always saying people are stupid for sending their children to study overseas. local cannot study meh. those who study local also can get very high pay. study overseas have to pay thru their nose or their child might stay there and not come back. my parents are jus so ignorant. they do not realy understand what is the outside world like. they dunno what is the education system overseas. even the degree i m doing is a UK degree, my cert will be from UK also. but then is the process of study. studying a degree is not for that paper, is for the knowledge. i would say studying in malaysia for a degree is a waste of time. especially if study in a college where the CEO are some kedekut chinese businessman n who love to hire old people and doing non efficient job. dun talk bout facilities like computer or gym those la. those not very important. talk bout database to search for article, we were only offered with ONE....ONE!!!!! only. and can barely find any articles from there. compare those who study overseas, they called it the super library where got tons of articles to search from....help needs help...i seriously quite unhappy the fact that i wasnt sent overseas. really hate them saying others stupid for sending their children overseas. they never had their tertiary education b4. n my dad a so called teacher also tak paham what is really a tertiary education should be.

now mum already start saying that once u start work, these these expenses wil b on ur own n bla bla bla...saying i m 21 n is a freedom for them cos they no need to bare my cost anymore... yup, going to be 21 very soon...will i really get my so called freedome which i have been long waiting for?? i doubt so. unless i start working. i slowly i jus have to be tough enough. not going to depend on them at all and then i can just do watever i farking want. i would say now i m worry my farking big car. the installment everymonth is not little. so the biggest consequences i can imagine of going against them would be them not paying for the car installment. even after selling the car, minus the depreciation and interest, i think i wouldnt have money left to buy another car. probably a 10 yr old kancil mayb....haha.... then probably i wil jus use the no11 bus, which is my pair of legs. i will definetely need to really work hard, which i will. i even love to shift out, but shifting out have too much things to be concern of, the cost of the rental, the cost of everything in the new place. n also me tak sampai hati to leave my coming new house...

i m going to be 21....ppl say is merdeka for me...hell no!!!...so i dun think it will be a happy 21st birthday afterall....

what do i really want

2008-10-27T21:01:00.002+08:00

what do i really want ?? something which is compatible or something which is comfortable. compatible means you wil get really selfish. but comfortable means you are shy to bring out. this has been always conflicting in me. when the time comes, i hope i really know what i really want.

21st Birthday Wishlist

2008-10-26T16:18:00.003+08:00

friends are asking me for my birthday wish list. at last i can make a list out already.

1. Christian Dior Holiday Lip Palette. OMG... i really like this. this is just so pretty and so functional...everytime i pick it up i wil defintely think of you..hehe

2. a PDA phone....i know is quite impossible for any1 to get me this. other than my parents. which they will not get for me. hehe. u see, this is a wish list ma. i can just wish for anything.

3. so a more practical one and not so pricey one, an organiser. 2009 is coming, and i going start to work (if i do find a job), so means got alot of things to remember. so definitely i need an organiser. not too big ya. but also not too small. probably a A5 size... no pink. no black. something sharp but not cute, must be elegant. it would be best those which i can refill. means after 2009, i stil can use back the same cover and i just buy the refill for the following years.

4. a bluetooth might be nice too. never had one before. i think i need one. so i can very conveniently talk when i drive.

let me think of sumore then i wil post up again.

no need of perfume. i m getting 2 perfumes this year. cant wait for my 2 new perfume to join my collection.

comparative study

2008-10-25T13:16:00.003+08:00

comparison of Starbucks(SB) and coffee bean (CB) ..[cb means sumting terrible in chinese]

i am at coffee bean now online-ing. how come a starbucks fan is at a coffee bean now. haha. cos this coffee bean is really near to my house. this coffee bean is at desa parkcity. is less than 5 minutes drive from my house. parking is just very nearby and is free.

so now lets compare the drinks. (CB) dun have caramel marchiato. probably they dun have it cos is the best seller of SB and if cb does it badly then it will be critic. haha... when u want to have ice tea, they only have 2 at max for u to choose from. but SB, wil make it on the spot for u(btw, only certain SB, not all would do that also, but still...) i m having this salmon bagel an is 15.90. i dun think is worth it after it is served to me. the salmon is so little. and the side salad they gave is so little and so kedekut with their dressings. however, some of the whole food at CB are made fresh rather than SB all their food are pre made then later reheat or rebake.

at CB they only u to use credit card when ur bill is 25 n above. but SB any amount. at SB, you can get 10% discount when you use ur J card but only if ur bill is RM30 n above. [last time used to be any amount]. where else, CB had this card thingi. which u apply the first time is RM25 u get rm25 value. then the next time u top up, min amount of rm20 then u wil get value of rm22. so is like a 10% thingi. is like a prepaid card.

alrite, come to the conclusion, there are pros and cons for both.

Assignments

2008-10-20T21:45:00.002+08:00

assignments are going to kill me slowly in 7 more weeks time
basically every 2 weeks from now on, i wil have 1 assignment to pass up.
everyday, i dun really seem to know what i should do.
and this is my final semester, it is very important as it will affect my classification for the degree. i m aiming for a second upper. aim easy to say. but can get anot is really another matter. aarrgghh....really worry.

especially the entrepreneurship subject. that lecturer is very particular with every single words is type into the presentation. OMG!! even for the presentation his expectation also so high, it wil be even worst for the assignment. and this subject is a 90% assignment. so i m dee ee eh dee.

My Final Ball

2008-10-14T20:16:00.003+08:00

This friday is going to be my department ball. the economics department ball. and is also the last ball i wil ever attend in my college life. hehe. btw, since i m in my pre U, i attend each year ball. I do enjoy going to ball. especially when your whole group of friends are attending together just like this year. hehe. however, this year ball is ONLY at the flamingo hotel. and we have to pay rm100 for such type of hotel only. which alot of people think is not very worth it. but hell ya, is my final year, so got to attend. since last week, all the gurls been discussing what they should do with their hair la and make up. whether to do it themselves or pay sum1. for me, this fri going to retouch back the colour of my hair. so ask them to do my hair together. hehe. dun have to pay extra for it ma. keke...
this year theme is vintage. who would have vintage clothings la. gurls would be those dress with really big gown at the bottom, really push up top. guys would be tuks. aiyo, gurls dun own those dress, dun even know where to get those. college guys ah, dun think they would even want to own 1.

1101

2008-10-12T21:49:00.003+08:00

aaahhh!!!! today magnum came out 1101 for special prize....haha. i didnt buy. it is almost 3 weeks already. and the car already has milage of 1000 km. tomoro dad bringing the car to fix the window which had some hair line crack. then together service also lo.

today my car kena 3 spot of bird shit...damn!!!! :'(

Salsa Advance Beginner

2008-10-12T21:27:00.002+08:00

i had finish 1 level of salsa already. and that is only 3 months. hehe. that was fast. now i m in advance beginner level now. got more shines and turn combination to learn. as usual, some guys can really lead you and some guys just cant. hehe. and those good 1 really give u the right amount of strength, not too light or too much, to turn u around or lead u. for those, i think my turn wow, can go so smoothly. hehe. our teacher was saying, haha, when later you all get the double turns, it wil be much harder. hhmm.. i think i can gua. :) really tired today. yesday had ballet class, and i slept real late last nite. so muscle aching today. after salsa class, the aching was worst..

Cambodia Trip (Day 1)

2008-10-07T00:40:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 3.30am. the flight is at 7am. as the night before just came back from ipoh. so only sleep around 1am. so went to LCCT airport. they are doing some small renovations. even is so early in the morning, but the airport is already pack with people. probably is because it is the holiday season. not really excited on going on this trip. as all of them are at least 20 years older than me. so it will be boring. although all this adults love cracking some dirty jokes yet most of the time i m fast asleep once i am on the bus. haha.

it is a 2 hour flight, flying from KL to siem reap. once i m up the flight. i slept the whole way. there are 11 of us, some are relative some are my parents friends. when we reach there, a local guide welcome us. we were provided with this mini bus. i took the last row all by myself. we were took the the tonle sap lake first. it is the largest lake in south east asia.

then we were took to a souvenir shop. they demonstrate how they do the silk scarf, wooden monuments and all those souvenirs thingy la. then finally bring you to their shop. and watever sold there are crazily expensive. so every1 ended up empty handed.

then we went for lunch. after lunch, we were brought to our hotel. overall. i quite like the hotel. clean, pretty, got quite a big swimming pool. went to the room to rest for 2 hour. then we were given a free massage for 1 hour by the tour company. so we were brought to this place for the massage. first, they wash our feet with some soap. then change on a pair of slipper. then they ask us to change into the provided tshirt and pants. all of us in 1 room. we were asked to lie down on a mattress.. then they wil start massaging. after the 1 hour massage, body feel so good.

then later we go to the Angkor site, to 1 of this temple which is build on this little hill to watch the sunset. took around half hour to reach the peak of the hill. then we need to climb up the temple. wy do i say climb, cos their staircase are very steep. it is at 70 degree. the steps are very narrow. the steps are build that way because in ancient time, they want the common people to bow down when they climb the staircase. to show respect to the god. if you do not show respect, you will have accident at the staircase. so reach up there, but is quite cloudy. cant see the whole sun as in the egg yolk shape. not like in egypt, i think i saw few times of sun rise and sun set in the whole egg yolk shape.

once the sun set, oohh shit.is so dark. when going down the hill, is so dark. cant really see the road properly also. and is not tar road. all mud road. have to be careful. then went for dinner. is a buffet dinner. got cultural show. is called the bbq buffet. but wat is bbq, only some pork or some beef in a satay stick, BBQed. then went back hotel. sleep like a pig.

i had lost my way somehow

2008-10-01T00:34:00.002+08:00

i m abit of without directional now...in what sense?? in everything i guess. i am just doing what others are doing. other does their degree. follow lo. parents said what is better. follow lo. there are certain times, where i though i found the path, but somehow, it just seem to be unreachable. or it is jus too common where every1 is also using the same path. just getting so bored and sick of everything. i always think of death. i m afraid of it. life is too short. too short that i am so afraid of death. am i too young to be worried of it. i dunno. but average life i guess is onli 60-70. means max i left another 50 years. now i already had 20 years passed. another 2n a half 20 years to go. my pass 20 years, dun seem meaningful at all. whenever i start thinking up to this point, i will be so terrified. what is life?? whats after death?? in our religion, we were alwiz told that there is an afterlife. issit true.....??? if is true, how long will i be in that afterlife?? i m always so afraid that i might die tomorrow. cos i m jus too young, so many more things i have not done and tried and experienced. whenever i m alone during the nite, i often thinking bout this. it is so scary.

1101

2008-09-30T02:08:00.003+08:00

chinese love buying numbers, especially during special occasion. which 1 of the common 1 is when sum1 you are close with bought a new car, then you will buy the car plate number. so last mon my fren were saying need to buy my plate number. so my fren jowen actualy did bought the number on last wed. even me also not that excited to buy the number. but that day the number came out which was very close is 1106. then i bought the number for last sat and sunday at magnum. then my fren wye mun told me sunday came out 1102. haha....

today after class, went to bangsar village with a few classmate. need to go there to do some research for our assignment. so all of course wanted to sit my car. hehe.. then after do wat we need to do, then we went to eat chocolate fondue at the shop name CHOCOLATE. i like the hot milk chocolate. i got a fren miss liew, she said yih i dun really like this. but she keep drinking it. then i ask her u said not nice, how come keep drinking it?? she said cos i paid already ma....haha!!!!...cha tou....yesday bought the cable to connect my ipod with the aux jack in my car. so fun now. i do not need to change cd after cd anymore. hehe. jus plug in the cable. then i got thousands over songs waiting to be played. start getting used of driving the car already., when i jus started driving the car, stil quiet jerky. now better. can control the acceleration better.

coming holiday

2008-09-26T22:14:00.003+08:00

on the 1st and 2nd of oct will be going down to ipoh. then from ipoh go up to cameron highland. hhmmm....nice weather....got fresh strawberry. i wish i could buy some flowers back to put at home. but too bad, once m back on the 2nd, and leave to cambodia on 3rd morning. will only be back on the 6th evening. so i guess the time i m back, all the flowers wil be dried already. plan to buy some good tea from cameron.. hehe...but somehow, those good ones are imported. hehe... i guess that 6 days will be very tired especially on the 3rd oct. on the 2nd travel down from cameron to kl. then next morning the flight is at 7am. so means leave home around 4.30am. means wake around 3.30am. this trip have around 10 plus of relatives and parents frens. i suggest maybe we should play mahjung whole nite. no need sleep. haha!!!!!....

i wil be skipping 1 day of class which is on the 6th monday. wil be missing 2 marketing lectures. nvm... once i m back from the holiday, i need to really concentrate on my studies. especially my thesis. i been borrowing books back, but hardly touches them.. sigh.....

tomoro morning, wake up early to go open tuition centre. got replacement class. then both parents would be out for morning exercise. then afternoon going for ballet class. then going for highway duty at night. the duty starts at 8pm-8am. this will be my 3rd time going on highway duty. wish to gain some experience but of cos dun hope to have any accidents happen.

then sunday maybe going out with a fren from penang. she coming to kl for holiday. then mon and tue is going to college. means i dont have much time left to do all the things i need to do....sigh....me the lazy pig...

WRU 1101 is handsome and sexy

2008-09-25T23:36:00.002+08:00

i got the car on tuesday. dad drove me to the showroom to take the car. once i reach there, i jump down from the car. then the first thing is to look for my car. then i saw 1 civic in sparkling gray colour. so i quickly went over to look at the plate number. TAADDAAA!! WRU 1101!! hehe...OMG....the sunshine was shining on it, the colour was so so so cantek!!! that time look like gray colour. when no sunshine, the colour will look like blue. loving the colour giler!!!

so then later went to sign some documents. then the salesman explain further all the functions of the car and bla bla bla..... the handbreak is very cute. very different from normal car. then the storage space between the driver and the passenger seat was quite big. oh ya, very nice cup holder. but the dashboard really long. cant really see the end of it. the out look of the car is sexy.....got quite high bump...hehe...

then next day send to the shop to fix the alarm and those plastic for the glass but not vkool brand. is 3M brand. it said to screen off 97% heat. which is better than vkool. then got those theft prevention kind, which wun break so easily. then the alarm was cool. i can lock and unlock my car using my hp. and arm and disarm my car using my hp too. hehe..but when the guy want to stick the thing on the glass time, then saw a very very very very tiny hair line crack on the front left window. you just look like that cant realise it. unless go realy really near and see properly only can see. took to show my salesman. he said need to send the photo up to the office then wait for reply lo.

week 4 of final semester

2008-09-22T21:42:00.002+08:00

today is the first day of week 4 of final semester. i got total of 14 weeks. and i got total of 4 assignments and 1 exam for this semester. but i of the assignment is my thesis paper which carries lots of marks. this is already week 4. means 1 month of this semester going to passed. and i have done nothing. ZERO!!!!! i have done nothing for my thesis paper. i have done nothing for anything.....

not excited over the new car at all

2008-09-22T21:39:00.002+08:00

even i know i m getting the car maybe tomorrow or wednesday, but i dun feel very excited which i suppose to be. just the fact that i can plug in my ipod and play with my player directly, that excites me abit la. thats why i m tidying up my ipod library which was a total mess before this. hehe.

watch out for my new outlook

2008-09-16T23:10:00.002+08:00

This is the car i m driving soon.... WRU 1101
This is the colour of it:sparkling gray......

should i be happy or not

2008-09-14T10:41:00.002+08:00

should i be happy or not?? recently there are quite some perk ups at home which really upset me. i think is not only recently, it has been always. i do not know whether to say myself shud b happy with what i have or sad with wat i dun have. so let me list down wat i have and dun have:
(purple is wat i have and red is wat i dun have)

- a brand new car, a honda civic, with a plate number of WRU 1101 which is my birthday, it is in sparkling gray colour

- i do not have the freedome of go wherever i want without asking permission. i have to tel them where i m going, then they wil ask specificly how many ppl is going and who is going and how am i going. where and how stil understandable. if i said i m going with my classmate then farking stop asking how many going and wat are the names who are going. n as if u remember them. sumtime they even mix them up and i have to farking explain to them everytime who is who. and not only asking b4 i go. and even when i m back they farking like to ask again who was there. didnt i told u who was there b4 i went. i m so sick!!!!!!

- branded clothes, branded handbags

- dont get to buy new handphone whenever i like

- travelling around the world

- go clubbing all i want to go. they think go clubbing means drinks will get spike and then wil get rape!!!!! not that them saying that out. i guess had been a long time me not going to clubbing. the reason is i m too lazy to tel them that i want to go. then they wil ask even more question or even disallow me to go. i rather dun ask so watever they said are not going to spoilt my mood of the day. with them spoiling my mood, the whole day, i m unproductive at all. which is bad for studies, dun they farking understand!! i m defintely going all i like when i start working. cos i do not need to farking depend on them anymore. they not happy with me, i shift out onli la.

i hope the car that i m getting enough to make me happy for sum time.

hard day

2008-09-03T00:59:00.002+08:00

omg....i shouted til my throat hurts...but they all stil so damm noisy..

went to this private school at pj to teach them first aid class. they are group of secondary and primary student. most of them are not interested in the class. some of them even sleep. and i guess there are 50 of them. n they got 5 teacher advisor. i repeat 5!!!! but they dun seem like teacher who can control their student. u see, rich kids school. cant scold or cant be harsh to them. if they complain to their mama papa, means no business to the school. after the director of the school fire the teacher lo..haha..

most of them are talking there, i gotta speack really loud so they can actually hear me, for those who want to learn something la. i do see some students who are interested in learning. they ask alot of questions. but most of those who are interested in learning are the primary students. but got a few really participate but always talk crap. then onli got 2 or 3 of the secondary students ask me questions.

conclusion, they are the worst students.

so much things to blog but just too lazy

2008-09-02T01:07:00.003+08:00

i had so much things to do, but every night just seem to be so lazy. this 3months really make me so lazy. once i m back from work, then i wil on my tv and on my laptop. i wil be watching the tv and also online. nothing much that i had done during the holiday other than at work la.

btw, let me update on my life since the last blog.

on 24th sunday, after usual salsa class, then i and adelene rush off cos we are going to KOTA bharu. our classmate, han syn hometown. we went to the lrt station, taman bahagia station near adelene house. then we sit lrt to kl sentral. we are like some jakun who never ride on a lrt before. we took photo in the lrt. haha. i guess there are some ppl who are looking at us. lucky there are only afew ppl on board. we want to take photo to show every details of the trip. hehe. another trip of me and adelene. then from kl central go to lcct with the sky bus. i guess i m not going to talk much of the trip in this post up as we are planning to start a new blog to put up details of our trip and of course PHOTOS!!!..

back from kota bharu on wednesday, bad bad sore throat. took some medicine. throat stil very pain. mum also got sum chinese medicine for me.thursday, work lo. then fri work half day, then evening went to a st john dinner. at klang. as usual, dinner at klang means hokkien hall. this dinner is the state dinner in conjuction of 100 years birthday of st john malaysia. as usual wear mess kit.

this is the photo of me and chee hwa. as usual, hate wearing this mess kit. n is freaking hot even the place is air conditioned. this is the onli photo i receive during the nite. u see normally i dun bring camera out. took quite some photos with others, waiting for them to send over.

sat, afternoon went to work. then ballet. got relative from ipoh came. so went out with family to japanese food. then back home, watch tv n online. then onli get to sleep around 3am.

on 31st aug, my parents are going on a 1day trip to bentong with their frens. 1 bus load of them. so of cos i m not interested la. so boring. no friends. all their children are so young. nothing to talk at all. they keep asking me where m i going n bla bla weeks before the trip. then i said wil b out with frens la. but ended up the few fren which i always go out with r all not at kl. so i decided that i m going to walk around alone. since on sunday, i also got salsa class at 3pm. then i need to get a dinner wear.so went to gardens look see around. wanted to buy a movie ticket online.. but gsc website quite screwed up sumtime. so cant buy. then cudnt wake up cos woken up by grandma early in the morning at 5sumting. cos she slept in my room, she is following my parents to the trip. she dun noe how to on the heater of my room. then onli sleep back at 8sumting. suppose wanted to wake up at 9am and go to mid valley to get ticket. mana tau onli wake at 10am. by the time i park my car is already 11am. so decided not to watch movie at mid valley. as queue defintely will be crazily long especially on a public holiday. so decided go to gardens to watch movie la. bought death race ticket at 12.45pm. so went around to look for the evening wear. but look the whole midvalley and gardens stil cant find 1 which is even worth trying on. then time to go for movie. haven got my lunch. order a sandwich at the cafe of the cinema. they deliver to your seats. hehe. the sandwich not too bad, of course la, as the price i m paying for it. death race i think is quite exciting. but not much meaning. then after movie, went to salsa class at hartamas.

salsa class combine a few shine together and become 1 complicated shines. interesting and FUN.. then this week very unusual, as normally class has gurls more than guys. however, today guys more than gurls. haha. normally the second half of the class, we do partner work. so a gurl and a guy dance together. and we line ourself in a big circle in the classroom. normally the guys will anti clockwise. so means we actually get to dance with different guys. probably each guys around 3-5 times in a class la. however, today got guys more than gurls. the gurls are suppose to be the 1 rotating. means the guy stay put, n we gurls go around. hehe. so awkward. cos use to guys rotating for 2months already. hehe. we are learning more tricks and more routines.

after class, went to bangsar village. trying to find a evening wear. but stil cant find 1. then went to mph. bought a entrepreneur magazine and bought a first aid manual. which i lost mine 2 years back. i wanted to get 1 quite long time already. hehe.then went sakae sushi ate cold soba. hehe..not eating sushi as the nite b4 already had.

then went home, slept really early at 9 sumting. but woken up by family when they were back. so annoying. dun they know that i had sleeping problem. if i fall asleep before i really sleep like a pig, and i got woke up that time, is very very hard for me to sleep back. if i dun get to sleep back, i wil b awake for hours and very hard to sleep back. yup, they dun understand. DUMB... lucky stil get to sleep back after few attemps of sleeping and got woken up by those dumbies.

this morning woke up, go for lunch at a korean restaurant at hartamas as my relative is going back to ipoh. n omg, i saw this 2 korean working at this restaurant, 1 is very cute, 1 is quite cute. they work mostly around the counter. not sure are they related to the boss of the restaurant. the very cute 1 i saw him the last time i went to the restaurant. the quite cute 1 first time saw him at the restaurant. you know, sumting you might accidently both person eye just look to each other, yup, the quite cute 1 did had that eye contact, n he smile and a he nod his head a lil. the quite cute got good figure weh. not to say those 6packs kind la, tall, not skinny and not fat la.

then after that went to klcc to look for the evening dress. at last i found 1 from BCBG. is black long dress. wowhoo...look so good on me, love it. bought it at last. wil post up sum photos of me n the dress and sum other photos of me trying other dress. hehe.

jun asked me to sleep early as college is starting already. but now is almost 2am. gotta disappoint you again. hehe. but at least i already bloggged.

my worst day at Cheras

2008-08-21T21:14:00.002+08:00

today suppose to be happily go down to Queens Park at Cheras to shop. went with my mum, grandma, n 2 of my mum fren. so i drove my dad car there. mum decided to drive dad car than her own car as dad car got bigger space. so we went n i collect my armani exchange jeans which i alter the last time i buy from the shop there. then also got a pair of new jeans from dkny and a sweater from max mara. i like the sweater. so hot. then after done shopping, so went up the car n i drove back home. jus turn out of jalan peel and go around 2km. then the car suddenly jerk and slowly slow down n quickly manouve the car to the side and total stop there. then try to start the car again. cant. try a few times, at first thought the alarm buat hal, is not. then cant figure out as all female on board, so lucky that we stop right infront of this service factory like. i dun call it a service shop as it is huge. so called a guy came out, check on our car, cant figure out wat happen. then push into the workshop. check check, then conclude that the motor which suppose to pump the oil to the engine does not functioning well. call dad. dad insist do not change anything there. as the shop ppl might not have the knowledge for a benz car. after make things worst, then the car habis la. n that guy dun even sure where is the battery of the car locate. haha. benz car battery is under the back seat. so dad said can drive back. that guy jus knock knock ont he thing then the engine can start. so we drove off. and hopefully the car will not stop again until we reach home. we didnt even on the aircon. from cheras to reach home at 6pm, passing thru kl surely freaking jam. and while going up this bridge infront of Istana budaya, the car jerk and loss power and i quickly manourve it to the left as much as possible. as i m going uphill, cant go far. so wasnt really sticking to the curb. i guess my car stuck on the bridge make the jam behind worst. i guess if there is no jam, we can reach home smoothly. cant do anything cos we already expect that it might happen. suddenly this 2 indian guy on a bike, came beside our car, saying he is the foreman n bla bla bla.....we say we do not need his service we got our toll truck on the way. then he said u move to the side la to ease the traffic bit. so they push n really stick to the curb now. and 5 mins later, 3 traffic police riding their bike and came to the car. then the traffic police were discussing whether to get my car forward down the bridge or reverse down the bridge. but if forward down the bridge no space to put the car. then they decided that i reverse my car back down as there is this divider where there is red colour painted box. so let go my break,put to neutral, and start controlling my steering wheel. my car jus slide down, of cos need to control the speed and the direction la, the bridge is not straight. then other 2 policeman controlling the traffic down there so it was quite easy. but once a life time experience,escotted by traffic police.haha....sound grand...but.....hehe....waited for some time, my mum fren husband arrive. he try to knock the thingi under the car, the same spot the mechanic try to fix earlier on, then i went to start the car. but it does work. then i guess another half hour only the toll truck onli reach. haih so tired. all of us went into the uncle car. he is driving 5 series bmw. the new 1. loving it. the best part the top can be open. i remember there was once where i went to johor for a st john course. my fren driving this carat car, got the top opening, we went out at night for a drink. and we open up the top, standing there and let the wind blow, wow thats so hhmmm....that is a very good feeling...

will defintely get that in future....i love sea breeze too...if in future, if i got the money, i thnk i wil get a little boat for myself...hehe...

movie marathon day

2008-08-20T22:01:00.002+08:00

this morning woke up around 9. reach mid valley at 10am. got really good parking just outside of the cinema. so bought ticket.

10.45am:journey to the earth 3D
2pm: wall e
4.15pm:sex and the city

mid valley is the onli cinema with the 3D for journey to the earth. the ticket is rm17 weh...but of course they supply u with a 3d specs. that come with a theft tag.haha. and with broken or lost have to pay rm20 weh...the story line was fine, but the 3D not very enough. not scary enough....hehe...

then i and adelene went for lunch first. so decided to eat sumtime different. no chinese surely. so went to the gardens. look at the directory at last decided thai food. at flying chilies. the food not too bad. the thai ice tea was interesting and yum yum and special. and normal la, catch up time.n adelene did started talking bout gotta start finding jobs already. yup . me gotta start looking for jobs too. but i m stil not satisfy with my resume yet. i think i stil got alot of other things can add in. i not sure the company that i m interested in will be interested in taking me in. cross my finger.

then we watch wall e. ok la. is a cartoon lo. got quite some meaning bout that story la.

then sex and the city. i love that movie. i think it really meaningful and applicable to todays life where career has became 1 of the importance for women. i guess the movie did give me some enlightment on life, marriage and career altogether.

then went to office after that for dinner. then my mum anak angkat came to see her. so her anak angkat means my adik angkat. so he sendiri pandai pandai call me kakak angkat. hehe. the last time he visit us 1 month ago saying that he is going to australia for a tour to visit his brother who is studying over there. asking us do we want any souvenir from there. so i requested nougat. hehe. is quite hard to get over here especially the whole pack which have a varieties 1. yup, he came up today, pass us the souvenir. he really got it for us. didnt noe he really bought it. he bought those big pack 1 which have 4 flavours in it. it has the original flavour 1, the cappucino, green tea and peppermint.. the green tea and peppermint i guess is really new flavour. never try that before. i quite like the soft nougat especially the peach flavour soft nougat. but he got the crunchy nougat. is stil really good. i cant wait to reach home to try the 2 new flavour. i straight away already open up the green tea and peppermint, and YUMMY....is really good.....

movie marathon

2008-08-16T01:41:00.002+08:00

i guess the coming week i m going on a movie marathon..

this sunday going with a fren for the MUMMY and wed plan to watch 3 movies in a row with some friends. so happy...not sure what 3 movies we gonna watch, but confirm is sex and the city....watching the movie mummy with a fren where i meet him the same place i meet mummy...haha...interesting...but the mummy not really the egypt mummy, is the china mummy...probably china mummy is cuter....LOL

on 25th or probably 24th evening i m going down to kota bharu to visit a classmate. gonna be back on 27th..... yup...at least no pulau stil got KB. keke..but afterall, i guess 2 gurls going to pulau is quite dangerous, we are not familiar with the ppl and the place, kena tangkap wanna get help also difficult....

yup, so i guess most of the following week wil be enjoying then working..keke...

salsa this sunday, cant wait to learn some new shines and turns. i wanna learn that triple turn....cool...i dun think is hard if got the technique. but first of all i stil need to get a pair of SHOES!!!!

another awful day

2008-08-14T00:02:00.002+08:00

is quite a awful day today, i think for the past 20 years plus of my life, most of the day that i spent are quite awful. as long the day are spent in this house with THEM, then is very awful. i always tell myself, i m so much lucky than those unfortunate people. but i stil very suffering being here. i really hate being here. i dun feel like i m owning my life. i have been hoping that every seconds, every minutes, each day, each month will pass away faster so i can start working and start be independent. one day, when i start to work, can i really be independent?? i dunno....i dun dare to think. all those things had runing around in my head for the whole afternoon, n my whole day mood was so bad. it all started actually cos of me going to pulau trip.

sometime i really feel my heart got crush so badly, there is no one who could understand wat i m going thru. why must they always need me to think from their side, but they never think bout my feelings?? why watever they do is defintely right, and watever others do which contradicts them is wrong. they are not that smart and wise after all.

why do i just act like a tame pet to them, why i never had the guts to betray them, to shout at them, to run away from them. i m so so tired. i think i have been blogging bout this feeling for so many times. i guess everyday it stil have the same conclusion,

NOTHING THAT I CAN DO...

i hate myself for being so restless....for being so useless.......

Chee Hwa

2008-08-13T01:07:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to Chee Hwa. His birthday is on 13th August. He is 24 years old rite now. He is a friend of mine which i had known him for 5 years already. that can be said as long , can also be said as short. i known him through St John. i would say, in St John he is my best fren and closest friend. Still remember that time I and him was also the chairman of our respective school's St john society. so every year my school st john surely organise 1 gathering. so i m the chairman, i got to contact with all the other chairman from the other schools. we did talk on the phone few times before the gathering. i remember him telling me after knowing me better that i did not really give him a good impression in the phone. hehe.

so on that day gathering day, my ex chairman did introduce him further to me as my ex chairman knew him in the last camp. i dun really remember wat happen that day, but i just know that we wasnt talking alot during the gatherings as i m busy, and i m not that good at socialising with ppl i just know them. thats my weakness.

so day after day, we start to sms, then start talk on the phone. and it got more frequent. then we started to discuss bout our everydays feelings. til 1 of this day i late for school, and i told him. then he started waking me up in the morning everyday. he will give me a morning call everyday when i need to go to school. and til today, i stil rely on his morning call once a while. whenever there is an important function in the morning, or i was too lazy to inform my mate to wake me up, or is so early that my maid not even awake yet, so normally i wil drop him a sms , then the next morning i wil b receiving his morning call. hehe. so lucky of me. stil remember that time, when i knew him i was form 4 and he was in upper 6. so the following year, i m in form 5 and he is not studying. jus waiting for result. morning school have to wake up at 6am. that time he got no school to go to. but every morning, without fail, he stil wakes me up to go to school. i think that is a very sweet thing done by my friend.

last time when i stil were at secondary school, we used to send letter to each other using snail mail. we used to hand written those letter in chinese. i still keeping all of his letter. but it is also my habit of keeping every single card or letter sent by my friends. i love spraying some of my perfume on the letter i sent him. when he is reading the letter, i guess the scent will make him feel better. i stil remember once he told me, he normally keeps all my letter in his drawer with his school tie. so his tie will smell like my perfume too.. hehe..

few years back, both of us did have some sparks happen. but the sparks did not spark at the same time. but then, we are still very good frens now.

i think he is 1 of the first few person where i wil share my ups and downs with. for example, that day when i suppose to go collect my result, i was so excited and nervous on getting my result, i sms him n told him bout it, then he wil reply back and calm me down. whenever i m not happy or anything, i would normally think of him and tell him that i m not happy, then he wil start consoling me. every few days, he will call in and check on me how m i doing n etc. i guess he is the onli fren who do so.

all birthday present given by him to me, are normally quite handycraft like. there was this 1 year, where he fold stars and put it in a jar, with some cotton underneath with some perfume. hehe...cos i love perfume, keke.... he loves giving me things with my name in it. like a handphone string, with my name on it. a key chain with my name on 1 side and happy birthday on other side.

so now, i m stil thinking of wat to present to him. i ask him wat he wants, he stil refuse to. he just keep saying think of something myself. n he requested me to write a blog about him. yea, so i did, this it is. so i stil gotta think of what to buy for him which is special enough to be present by me.

PS to Chee Hwa:

I hope you will be happy everyday. Your always happy go lucky attitude do brighten my days alot. I appreciate for all the things you had done for me. I am very thankful for all the time you spent hearing to my downs. I am very glad that i have such a good friend. Thanks for being my alarm clock even you are not suppose to wake up at such early morning. Hope our friendship will last forever. Muaks!!!! hugsss.....

9 aug

2008-08-09T21:19:00.002+08:00

couldnt sleep last nite. dunno why. i think i only get to sleep around 3 sumting in the morning. then i gotta wake up at 6sumting in the morning. so basically i only slept 3 hours.

So woke up get ready then went to kelana jaya our training centre, we are suppose to give exam to the group of medical students which i gave course last week. so went there, most of them reach already. hehe. they are early. i would say this group of students so far i do not see any latecomers before other than the first day where 1 student forget bout the course. quite good students i would say. so we started with the practical exam first. as my senior officer is there, so obviously she wil take the cpr part. then me the fracture, bandage and transportation. basically all of them also know how to do their things. just some minor minor things which they forgot.

so the guy which i said which keep bugging me last week, wasnt really bugging me that much. but stil got abit la. probably he is just too busy with his exam.hehe.

i pass around a piece of namelist which i require them to sign then the guy which i said who did caught my attention, when i reach home, looking thru the list, i saw him draw a smiley beside the signature. and then i was marking their theory paper just now, i notice this guy got so high marks. i was quite surprise as he is one of the 2 which is not medical student. then i mark the guy which sit beside him, that guy got 100 marks. n i can see the style of answering of the 100 marks guy quite similar to the guy which sign with a smiley. LOL,....i think that guy curi tengok la....can see easily as the words use quite similar and with shorter answer...then the sequence of the answer is the same...

after finish the exam, so they request for a group photo, is more for proof of them attending the course...haha...then after that, quite alot of them did came and thanks me. thats the best part, where watever your hard work is being appreciated. i m happy that i m teaching others how to help others. so is a very missionary job i m doing...hehe....lagak pulak...keke..

then after that went to work. so freaking tired n sleep. then later went home ready for ballet class. then took a short nap. then go for ballet. a ballet fren of mine is going back to canada. she came back for semester break. she changed so much. she had more style and more self confident. so proud of her. and even her 1 year of not dancing, she stil can dance quite well...hehe...wish her all the best.

then went home after ballet, my relative from australia reached my house already. so long time didnt see her. but i dun really have much things to share wit her, as she is in her 50s la..i where got conversation topic with her 1 la...she keep saying that she saw all my photos on facebook la...so dolled up la...she wished her son was younger or sumting...lol...but her son is 33....kaka....

sad thing is she and her husband is using my room and my toilet. basically i took some of my clothes down to my study room, all my face things are in my study room. then i wil sleeping in the tv room.....sob sob....my room....sob sob....

had flu today..probably not enough sleep thats y nose quite sensitive. so tired now....tomoro morning have to go back to kelana jaya for st john area meeting....then afternoon going for SALSA...haha....

7aug

2008-08-08T01:46:00.000+08:00

today i got my new shower screen.....it is so so so so so pretty and hot n sexy....it has picture on it....guess wat....i did not choose those flower pattern on it, but i choose a gurl which only covered with some piece of cloth on the important part, can see her long slim legs, the figure...yum yum...i just wish i have such smooth skin, such pretty and long legs and such pretty face. which quite impossible. so thats for me to dream of...haha....but the effect of the picture is good. i got bit of 3D effect....from the inside or outside, it also look like the picture is facing you. got few times of mumble from dad cos of this shower screen. cos he been saying la you all should have bla bla bla,,, you just like your mum, go do only, never think. ya la, we got no brain 1 la.....quite piss of actually, whenever he not happy with my mum and he will mumble mumble all on me....i m like the mangsa.....i think i gonna go nuts already....

this year btw i am having my birthday party at some quite grand place. usually parents call their frens. n normally their frens bring their spouse and children. n furthermore this time it is the company 10 anniversary. is celebrating it together. i was telling him so prepare your guest list i need to print the invitation card already. n then he start asking so where is ur guest list. i said when i want to print i jus straight type into the computer. he said i want to see your guest list first. he start saying bout himself, those fren i have ah, which not very close ah, i CANCel their name out. i dun simply call any1 to come. i call those who are really FRIEND to me. WTF!!!! we are expecting 250 guest. n i think the most all my fren can occupy is 50 - 60. only fucking 20% of the total. and half of the event is mine, not URS.... i m jus fucking taking 20% only. i want to invite who then who la. why shud he fucking care so much. really pissed off. actually got quite some ppl which i really wanted to invite which i think i gotta not invite them. as my parents would be wondering how come you invite this person, you very close to this person ah.... even in my past birthday, i got these 2 malay classmate which were very close to me in form 4 n 5 time. in my 17 birthday, they came with both their bf. n 1 bf got long hair. n not very tidy kind. very very skinny. n then another fren punya bf got pierce all around, probably like 3 or 4 pierce in his whole head la. n dyed blonde hair. then i tell you, the STARE that my dad gave to my fren that time was so scary. what is his problem man. is there a problem for my fren having such a bf. my dad is always with his judging pair of eyes to my frens. guy with long hair means bad. guys with any piercing means bad. gurl with more than piercing on the ears means bad. i stil remember i had this course mate, he got quite long hair, he always wear his cap. n the only brand of cap he wear is FCUK. n this year he came to my birthday, with his usual cap FCUK and he wearing this red blouse which normally the chinese guy wear during the chinese new year type. then my parents then came to me keep asking me who is this guy la n bla bla bla. they pulak sangat jakun dunno wat is FCUK stands for. they just thought it was in purpose on spelling FUCK wrongly. althought i was luckier than so many other ppl that i have my birthday party every year. but i can say probably i m not that happy after all.. most of the ppl who attend the party are my parents frens n their family and my relatives. my frens probably 20% the most. this is birthday party meh....then every time after my party, then my parents will be questioning so who is this guy, who is this gurl...

this coming 1 is my 21st birthday, if they are so restricting, i think i would rather called off the birthday then rather having a non happy birthday party.
my parents always thinks that they give me the best thing and i should be grateful of it and i should not compare with my friends. although i have most of the thing to be branded and so forth. but everything single thing also need to be approved by them. even if i want to change a hp, i m not allowed to unless i have a reason to do so. so far the hp i m owning now is the 4th one. the first was 3210, was passed down by my mum, that one drop to the mangkuk tandas. then 2nd was 3310. is like the cheapest model at that time. i didnt get to change it for 3 years until it wasnt really functioning well. then i got this sony ericsson hp but i cant remember its model name. but defintely the cheapest 1. then later my handbag got snatch, then i got this nokia 6230 that i m using for i think 3 years already. even getting a 1K model hp also with some condition which i exchange with my mum. which is attending this thing called the Landmark Forum which it supposingly get to transform you. my mum hope this can transform me into not such a rebellious daughter. HAHA...gladly, it fucking not work. cause from day 1 onwards, i already tune my mind that i came here cause of my phone...haha...and when later part we had this group thingi. n every1 in the group knew that i attended the forum cos of the HP....haha...but something i was so happy that i meet this fren, name chee chung. will talk bout him next blog.

come back to my fucked up life at home, yup, basically i got not much life at home. so my fren, dun be surprised that if i called off my this year birthday party.

2aug - 4 aug

2008-08-04T23:41:00.004+08:00

2nd aug

so today woke up quite early to go down to kelana jaya, our st john there is a group of medical year 2 student from IMU are coming to attend the course. there are 24 of them. so most of them are around the same age as me. i was really worried that they will ask me certain question or disagree on my saying as watever they learn could be more than i know. i was really worried. afterall, i m not that good in first aid after all. at the end of the day, i do find them very nice ppl. they didnt really give me any hard time. n they are quite crazy too. haha. n i can see some of them do quite respect me although i do not have much incredibility in first aid...hehe...

i did spot 1 guy which quite interesting to know further. hhmm..he is not a medical student. but 1 of the medical student brought his gf and his brother to attend the course too. n that guy was quite interested in knowing my age. but that was quite early part of the course, i didnt really review my age because if you are too young, ppl might doubt your credibility...hehe...so he was guessing i m 21-23. which supposingly i m not even 21 til my birthday. today mostly are the theory part, n quite worried that if i said anything wrong.hehe..but afterall, bravo to me,i did well..keke

3 aug.

today is the 2nd day of the course. wasnt really worried today already.as today mostly are practicals. but there is another officer who will be doing most of the talking today. i will only back him up on any circumstances or just add on to wat he left. so today i do realise this guy which is quite fond of talking to me, keep asking me question, keep having conversation with me. can see that he is the only guy doing that. even the other officer also realise that. so i went to mc'd to makan. some of them did follow, n so do this guy. this guy was very obvious at mc'd was trying to sit beside me. supposingly on my left is a walkway, but he put a chair on my left, then on his left he purposely like buat buat to reserve a seat for his other fren who is ordering food. but mana tau, his fren sit somewhere else. so he have to retract the chair beside me, n sit on the chair which he reserve for his fren. then he actually went to the basin to wet his hair. EEELLLLL...... to show he look cool i guess. haha...or probably he jus runs out of gel today, he shud use glue la to stick his hair up....LOL....so then i was half way eating, then he ask me, so that ring who gave me. i always wear this ring which my mum bought for me which i like a lot on my right index finger. i said my mum. then he ask ur 21st birthday present. i said nope. i not even 21 yet. not til my birthday. he said...oohhh, so gonna be 21 la...btw, he is the same age as me. cos on their attendance list got ic number. then the speaker of the day was telling me that, even him can see that this guy was hitting on me...haha....he said ppl talk to u then dun talk back la. i said cannot, thats so rude...hehe...then later part, where 1 of the practical is transportation. 1 of the transporting method is piggy back. so he was trying to piggy back this other gurl which is quite big size. but fail. then he ask me to go over. n let him piggy back. then i like hhmmm....so i jus go over la...cos this method is the casualty suppose to sit on the chair n get piggy back. so i sit on the chair. he got my leg and hand la. then the st john officer was looking at me n smiling ahead there. i stare him back n rolled my eye at him. he start laughing at me over a corner quietly n observe wat this guy do to me..kaka..but that guy stil fail to piggy back me up, cos he lack of techniques la...hehe....so 1 of the other transport method is craddle, means like carry a child on ur arm. so the officer assistant was very heavy. 70kg. compare to me 50kg. so he carry me la. so he carry me up and walk a few step, once he carry me up, and all the students were like "aaawwwwwhhhhh" (sound out). it actually let me remember back wat my first ex did to me many many years ago. where he cradle me in his arm n walk across this flooded area. was so touched that time. when i leave, some of them did said formally, thank you sheryn. or thanks alot sheryn......i was so trilled. i think i wasnt that bad afterall....keke.....

4 aug

stil like yesday nite mood, very very moody...dunno why....probably cos my body is aching...n the day is very very hot..make me really not feeling good.then went out for lunch wit family. then went to bank to run some errands. then go work. then went to a member house at sri damansara to collect the st john flag day tin. cos tonite some officer gonna come to do the counting of the money we collected from the tin. the amount that they collected were onli half of the amount last time we used to collect. sigh. wat to do. members now do not have such a commitment anymore.

5 aug

quite happy and excited as at nite i m going to meet up with my frens, 2 of them which i long time didnt see them. i went out with adelene, michelle and vern may. last time there there were 5 of us which named by a fren of us as 'glamours' ...haha...not sure why we were given that name. but that time during foundation we were very close. we go everywhere together 5 of us. even we decided to eat instant noodle for lunch at college, all 5 will go buy a bowl of instant noodle from Kiosk then our college have water filter, and it has the hot water. so soak the noodle with the hot water, then all 5 of us will be sitting at the long corridor of help underground building eating our maggi....haha...there were once all 5 of us brought laptop to use during our break, all 5 were displaying our laptop 1 row...haha...that was the fun time la...1 of them is in perth now studying. another 2 is stil at HELP but doing another program at another block, hardly get to see them. semester break and exam time all different. then me n adelene together at this program.

so michelle and vern may was talking bout the eshopping business that they are doing. cant believe it...me n adelene the business student haven even think bout doing business now, but the psychology student is doing it....haha...can see that they are doing very well..so happy for them..when i reach home, i was so excited to view their eshopping site. as usual, the site which design by michelle is fantastic. looking thru their site, got quite a few wows...hehe...so proud of them.

had a really great catch up with everybody's life. every1 seem happy. n all 4 of us will be graduating in the same convo. quite happy actually...i really do miss andrea alot.

28 july

2008-07-29T01:11:00.002+08:00

woke up around 11sumting. need to get ready to go out. today work only start at 5pm. need to meet up with a landscape designer to discuss about new house landscaping. so the person office is at hartamas. and hartamas has lots of korean restaurant. so far we only tried 1 of the restaurant, that 1 is good, been there around 5 times already. so thought maybe we should try some other ones. so we try the 1 jus opposite the designer office. the designer told us last time it was quite good. there are 4 of us, me, parents and our architect. so we order 1 set is the beef set. it comes with 4 types of beef for bbq. then 1 stone rice and 1 soup. that suppose is for 2 person. so we order a seafood pancake and a ox soup. the beef set is only rm120. but is so worth it. u got 4 type of beef for bbq. although the portion is smaller. the normal 1 beef bbq cost up to 40 plus or 50 plus. so i think is quite worth it. yum yum....i guess jun is drooling when he reads bout korean food.

then after meet up with the landscape guy. he showed us some of his previous projects. then he was showing that there is this bungalow which cost 15million to build. OMG. n WTF. so much...SIAO.... the designer was showing 1 of this picture which is 2 lying kind of chair which put beside the pool, each of the chair cost rm30,000. SIAO!!! i cant really see what kind of material is the chair made of. but is crazily expensive. probably the owner just got too much money n the bank book got not enough space to put in the zeros...so they just gotta stuff those money sumwhere.

i got a close fren, andrea who is studying landscaping. but too bad, she is stil studying. stil got quite some time b4 she graduate. just wish that she can do my house landscaping. probably she can do my room landscaping, i got a little so called garden outside of my bathroom. i hate to maintain it. not sure what should i put there. probably just put my tortoise there.

i m going to collect my results tomoro. and also my thesis proposal. hope the marks wun be lower than i expected. hope is not lower than 2nd lower class. if not really lost hope to myself la.

2nd salsa class

2008-07-28T01:37:00.002+08:00

today is my 2nd salsa class. i learnt 2 shine and 1 type of turn. i realy really need to get a pair of shoe specially for dancing salsa. but have no idea where to get it. i love salsa...

26 jul

2008-07-28T00:22:00.002+08:00

only slept for 3 hours, then woke up at 6am. need to reach pj at 7am. so tired n sleepy. i didnt know my that ceremonial uniform need to wear glove. too bad, already reach the venue. impossible for me to get any. supposingly the letter sent to me said that there is a rehearsal at 7.15, but there were no rehearsal. so we waited waited n waited. then the event start. start giving up the warrant for officer. then later is the promotion letter. then later is the best member n officer award. then is the 5 years service medal. wow, the rm50 sumting medal, is heavy. haha. so i guess it is slightly worth its money.

so after that there is some refreshment.

then went back. plan to take 1 hour nap. then i only woke up after 2 hours. supposingly i wanted to wake up to prepare some of my MC speech for the Hi tea event. mana tau slept too much. quickly woke up get ready then left to the venue. lucky i wasnt late. then reach there, quickly prepare my speech. is jus a very small event, so not much speech i have to do. i did some call card, only 8 pieces needed. thats how little things i need to talk. the VIP came really late. other wise everything else run OKly.

nite went to watch movie RED CLIFF wit parens. cos they wanted to watch movie. RED CLIFF part one, the movie really ended with no ending of the story. the movie is to be continued. but jus wonder when the part 2 going to be out. cos the movie is GOOD. but if u want to understand the movie better then gotta understand a bit of the CHINA history , the 3 kingdom legend.

St John accessories are so expensive

2008-07-25T00:16:00.002+08:00

this year, i have been awarded with this award called the 5 years award. so the area will gift us the medal which is to be put on our ceremonial uniform. we as officer got 3 set of uniform. 1 is duty uniform which we wear most of the time. 1 is ceremonial uniform which the top only cost me rm150 which we wear during parades and certain ceremony. i would said thats the cheapest tailor in KL. the 1 more is called the mess kit which the top also cost rm150 and it is only wear during st john dinner. so the 5 years service medal need to be put on the 3 set of uniform. it is not a must. but it is an indication of seniority i would say. so i need to buy the service medal for the mess kit 1. it is a miniature size to the ceremonial medal. cos today i went down to our state level hq at klang, i saw the price was rm36. is such a little thingi. and when i was wowing on the price,my area commander said the 1 which the area giving to us is rm50 sumting ah. i m like...hhhmmmm....so expensive. jus now i open up the plastic, n is so small n so light only. omg.... but it stil look so pretty la...haha.... i wonder those very senior 1, they got their long service award, n also other award, i wonder in total how much they have paid to hang on their uniform. i think u rompak 1 of their uniform, probably u sell also can get three four hundred. haha...the ceremony to receive my that 5 years award is this sat. sigh. gotta wake up at 6am. sien....

then in the afternooon is the hi tea event, n i m the MC. at last i already figure out wat to wear already.my mum suggested me to wear my white blazer and those formal long sleeve collar shirt. and formal pants. wow!! formal. adelene said look PRO...kaka...but i have not prepare my speech yet. DIE...

I passed all subjects

2008-07-24T00:17:00.002+08:00

thank god...i passed all the subjects in the last semester

han syn this evening called me up and said that results can be view online. normally the online result can only see whether pass or fail. but there is no indication of what gred. at least better than nothing. in my previous blog i did mention that the finance subject had lots of ppl fail. so i m really worried. once i got back home, then i straight away went to check. lucky i passed. actually cant be said luck or anything, is all the hard work i put in. i would not say is very very hard work. but sufficient of effort to allow me to pass. hehe...now waiting for the results with gred to be out. before i reach home to check my result, i was kinda worried. wat if i fail 1 subject??!! means i have to retake it not this coming semester, but the semester after the coming 1. which mean i will only graduate 1 semester than expected. that is 4 months. no way.... i already plan to start working already....i already plan to start be financially independent already...

results

2008-07-22T00:28:00.002+08:00

results gonna be out soon in 2 weeks time. i m very very worried. adelene told me the other day that there are quite alot of ppl fail finance subject. i m not that confident in that subject. our thesis proposal can be collected already, actually can be collected quite some time ago already. around 1 month ago. but either dun have the guts go collect or when i m around that area is a sunday. college is close. so....

time flies. semester gonna start soon. i suppose to start with my thesis. but til now, have not started. so....ya la...me stil procrastinating....

salsa class...

2008-07-21T00:48:00.002+08:00

salsa is
FUN!!!
123..567... got no 4 and 8
is quite easy
is a very good form of excercise where u work out most part of your body, except the arms la. probably i wil loose some fats at my butt cos lots of butt swaying...
is interesting...

btw, it is just my first class but i m so excited to learn more. first of all , i need to get myself a good pair of ballroom heels first. just a regret that i only get to start it so late. i m so excited to learn more moves.

today we learn 2 shines and 2 turns. cos we rotate partners. we all stand in a circle. and the guy wil change partner anti clock wise. so basically we get to dance with all the guys in the class. some are very good lead. some of them really very (dunno how to describe them) normally after doing 1 turn, suppose to do a set of basic step before doing another set of turn. we learn 2 type of turn. n this guy, lead me to single right turn, then immediately after the turn set, then he lead me to another turn which is the cross body lead. cos normally wat the instructor does after every turns set or shines set wil also recover back to the basic step. thank god la, i pick up quite fast n didnt missed even A STEP!! really testing my limit man. then the class after our beginner class is the intermediate class, so some of them reach early. so we lack of guys, so 1 of this guy from the intermediate class join in the circle. he is quite tall. n he is the only guy who lead me the turn, and his hand sweep pass my hair.. gggrrrr......so many other guy who is shorter than him n lesser experience than him also didnt terkena my hair....

actually didnt plan to start the class today, just thought of checking out the classes schedule, so didnt really get a more appropriate pair of shoe. yup. so my feet got quite some bruises. as i told my mum b4, my feets are used to torture already. numb. cos of those pointe shoe. haha.

if time is right, most probably i m thinking of taking up either ballroom and latin. i hope can take up both. but dun think i really have the time to do it.

MC

2008-07-20T01:14:00.002+08:00

i m going to be MC again. it has been a while. in st john, i am the famous MC choice. any event the 1st person they would think bout is me. haha... there was once, it was a competition event. i was part of the committee. supposingly another lady officer suppose to b the MC. i do not know wat was the reason that they suddenly just ask me to b the MC. and you know when they inform me bout i m going to b the MC??? 5 minutes before the event. 5 MINUTES k?? omg. i cudnt prepare anything. i was only a member. so dare not to question those officer y suddenly change ppl. that lady is a much more experience st john person than me. wat the ..... then within the 5 minutes i quickly gather all the information needed. then went up the stage to start off the event. normaly closing ceremony for competition event sure get some ppl to go up the stage to give speech. so when the ppl is up to give speech, then i wil start scribble things on the paper, then also start thinking what to talk later. what are the better wordings to use. but afterall, i stil give myself a 8/10 marks for that mc performance. hehe.

btw, i m going to be the MC for next sat event. n i m thinking wat to wear. shud i wear a skirt or pants? i decided on a knee length skirt. it wil b a pencil shape skirt. but i still have not figure out wat to wear for the top. shud i wear sumting formal like a blazer or long sleeve collar shirt, or shud i wear a sleeveless shirt. i know wat shoe to wear already. haha. my new shoe which i jus bought today at isetan gardens. Anne klein. when my dad saw that brand, eh, anne klein ah, not calvin klein ah? {cos the whole family also got quite some CK garments} i said is anne klein la. so calvin klein and anne klein mayb sister brother ah...haha....i said dunno. i heard bout anne klein, but very little knowings bout it. haven done any research on anne klein b4. so i surf the net to check. i type anne klein and calvin klein. the first search i found was a person asking yahoo answer is anne klein and calvin klein related or married.?? haha. i guess quite some ppl do have the same thoughts too. both also are at the same price range. anne klein is not so well known in malaysia. as they do not have any independent store in malaysia. onli at isetan i guess. anne klein is based at new york. when i do further research on anne klein, found out that anne klein do name has a line call anne klein new york = AKNY. so it sound bit like DKNY rite whcih is donna karen new york. haha, u guess akny copy dkny or dkny copy akny? give u 2 seconds to think bout it.

is DKNY copy AKNY. is not copy copy kind la. jus that anne klein, the founder of AKNY pass away in the 70s, it was continue by donna karen. so, hehe.

btw, come to the MC part, it is not a very big event, but got lots of big shorts attending it. so have to be very careful with the protocols. and also those big shorts name n gelaran. very confusing punya. n dunno wat is the appropriate shirt to put on. it is a farewell event. for this person from stjohn which is quite high post. n it is not a dinner. is a hi tea. at 2pm - 4pm. so wat to wear la. is not at hotel ballroom or wat. is at a club house multi purpose hall. with quite a small stage i guess. so wat to wear??!!! aarrgghhh

laptop gotta format soon

2008-07-20T00:24:00.002+08:00

sigh...laptop so so so in bad condition. my msn i been using this thingi called ebuddy. kinda troublesome. wait til i finish all my st john work then i wil start formatting it.

updates of my boring life from 14-18 july

2008-07-18T22:12:00.002+08:00

14 jul
woke up. start processing my 2 feet high of st john documents. real hectic. caught a flu. nose sensitive wit the dust. cos that lady is packing my so called study room aka store room. a st john fren came over to settle his pile of stuff. he was asking me has i been talking with my ex.
me: dun have la. i even block him from my msn.
him: oohh really ah. no wonder la he asked me bout u.
me:really ah
him : ya la
me: so wat he ask bout me?
him: he asked how are u doing? do u have new bf. i told him dun have. he ask m i happy? or m i worse off without him? he said that he thinks ur life will b worse off without him. i told him i think u r happy.
me: seriously he ask u such question ah. omg. haha..loll...cant believe it..

omg. i cant believe it he can say such thing. such an [eh as as h oh el ee]

then evening went to work. back home. rest.

15 jul
stay at home, didnt go work to finish up my paper work. so much more to do.

16 jul
morning went to office cos programmer coming over. mana tau, after half hour of the appointment time onli he called me up n informed that his car battery flat. gotta change the appointment to afternoon. (if battery flat, arent he suppose to know it once he try to leave his place??....) then me went home, continue my work. when he reach office, onli ask the lady to call me. then at nite, some st john ppl come over to sign the form, some to redo their forms, some to help to recheck the documents again.

17 jul
same thing, morning woke up, do some paper work. thank god, it is almost done already. i think i m with it for days or even centuries already. so sick of it. then later went to work. nite, went for a st john meeting. then home. i was very tired. very very. but didnt feel like sleeping yet. so s usual, once in my room, then i on the tv, n online. then was clearing off my mail box. my hotmail got 300 over mails. my yahoo mail got 700 over mails. gotta slowly clear off. then i was trying to fall asleep from 2am. til 4sumting i think almost 5am onli really fall asleep. i was thinking so so so much. thinking bout wat i m going thru now. thinking bout wat is coming up for me. thinking of wat i have been thru so far. all the ups and downs. thinking of certain things which i have done which to others is a very bad thing, but to me, m i doing the right thing?? thinking of certain ppl. i was thinking til a certain extend where i m start whippping there. get really emotional...then i even thinking more. caused me cudnt sleep. when i cudnt sleep but so tired, i realy so frustrated.

18 july

got up really late. felt so tired. cos didnt sleep well. after lunch. went to work. then went home. so there goes 1 week. that is how boring my life now is.

jun: thats why for the whole week didnt really have any post up. nothing seem interesting in my this boring world.

another sunday passed.

2008-07-14T02:15:00.002+08:00

today morning early morning wake up at 7am. cos i gotta be at bangsar for the exam at 8am. the group of public which i mention in my past blog. examining them, was really different with examining those school kids. they are even harder to control. they can just go off for makan without informing. they can come at 10am even the exam start at 8am. n sluber only, bring in a cup of tea which bought from mc'd. lol. cos the venue is a judo centre, n i suppose sum of them actually a student of there. so some of them were judoing there. lol... some of them so playful while doing the exam. tak boleh tahan. i can only laugh. they are not normal secondary school member, cant scold. none of them is younger than me k. some even 20 years older than me. then everything went on quite fast. by 11am i already start doing the theory paper.then after they finish the paper, then i had discussion with them. then whenever they had a wrong answer, they would be debating with me bout the answer. i learnt a lesson from here, never discuss paper with adult public anymore. but quite happy that all of them actually did learn something, and they keep thanking me.

then later went to mid valley to meet up wit a fren to makan. cos got some extra time before the show.

the show is the HSBC classics piano festival. it was good. it started off with the winner for the best composer. the composer play the piano, n accompany by other 4 who play the string quartet. then 15 min intermission. then ochestra, it was lead by a conductor. then after they perform finish 1 piece, then the conductor went in and came out with his violin n join the ochestra. then Denise Lee, a famous pianist,he base at england, but he is a malaysian. he plays the piano and conduct the ochestra at times too. n he did 3 pieces. then later he left the stage. ppl keep clapping for encho. so he came out n say i wil perform 'impromptu b major' if not mistaken thats the name la. it was good. btw, i got in free. cos my uncle is the piano tuner for the event. manage to get 2 free ticket for me n his daughter.

so went home. sleep 1 hour. wake up for dinner. then so tired. lying on my bed. i dozed off for about 3 hours. at 11sumting, my mum knock on my door. benci, i woke up already. cant sleep back. then watch tv til now. gotta sleep now. nite.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Angus steak house

2008-07-14T01:26:00.002+08:00

angus steak house at pavilion. i would recommend every1 to go. the steak is so yum yum, is so juicy, is so tender, although it does not come with much sos, but it taste great. so original flavour. angus steak house uses beef from japan. probably is the way they rare them. thats y is quite pricey too. their normal beef cost around 60 for 150gm only. if 250gm, i think around 80 or 90. they have another type which is called the wagyu beef, is graded as 9+. and cost 200 for 150gm. but 200 is for the set menu. the normal beef cost around 80 for set menu. so the starter came. it has mashed potato. then got a quite small piece of fish fillet. then it has this sotong cut into very tiny pieces. then came the soup. it was pumpkin soup. i hate pumpkin. but the soup taste great, cos it was mix with milk. then came the salad. the salad does not have salaad sos. but cos it is a little japan theme restaurant, they put japan soya sauce over the salad. it turn out to be great too. i should try that next time with my salad. then here come the grade 9 tenderloin. then came the lamb. then came the normal rib eye.the lamb was so so yummy. it was so tender n juicy. i was joking about the grade 9 beef, it taste so good n so pricey probably because the cow drinks shark fin soup, drink bird nest, eats abalone. haha... then after the main course, then here comes the dessert. it was tiramisu. but very small piece. i would said it is fine dining. the appetiser and dessert come in big plate, but small portion, beautifully garnished.

victoria station still have a standing in my heart. both have different standards and pricing. different style.

deposit paid

2008-07-10T00:28:00.002+08:00

deposit already paid, but mood didnt get better.

reason: cos of them.

mayb i shudnt even get that car, mayb i shud not change car. then i dun need to depend on them later.

conflicting myself.

i dun undersand even got a guy coming after which i m not interested, they also wanna campur tangan so much. then bebel this bebel that. benci giler.....

hate being me...

6 july 08

2008-07-07T01:25:00.002+08:00

today was such a long day. the nite before went to the Garden with parents. did some shopping. gotta start buying some clothes preparing for my coming job.hehe..mayb this is too early. but i guess is the right time. cos normally i prefer to buy branded when they are on sales. but also have to find the really right 1. so cant be simply. end up buying a shirt n skirt from raoul. they are hot. i like wearing long sleeve shirt. make me look so pro. i love wearing those pencil shape shirt. (erm...izzit call pencil shape..not sure) is knee length, then bit low waist. the back of it really follow the butt curves. bought a pair of shoe from nine west. once i put it on, it is so damm comfortable. so so so comfortable. then got a shirt from CK. they always have quite funny design. but it always look good. bought a top, erm, the shirt is those type which are not proportionate. i like the back part of it the most. it reveal abit of the middle of the back.

then at garden i met 2 fren. both also related to st john 1. 1 of them is my best fren gf. she is working at the machines. then watch hancock. dad requested to watch that movie.quite good. but his movie u can use ur brain think logically la.

so reach home around 2. slept at 2.30

woke up this morning at 7.30. onli had 5 hours sleep. cos need to go down to klang for a ISO meeting under st john punya la. at first wanted to go for breakfast wit a fren, then tunggu the whole day also no reply. then tot, mayb he not interested. then a st john fren call me said she got no transport, she wants to follow my car. then i agreed lo. then the klang guy onli contact me n said ok for breakfast. aiyak, i jus agreed to pick up another person. how can bring her together for breakfast. not so nice ma. so end up didnt go for the brekfast lo.

then after that rush over to 1 utama. supposingly have gathering with my ballet friends. that gathering actually mainly because some of our ex ballet classmate, went overseas to study, n they are back now. then mana tau, at first 10 became 6 onli. although the hi tea lost its meaning. but we stil enjoy ourselves. cos of the laughter we had over the hi tea. we went to the Cinnamon at 1st world hotel. it is rm64 nett. but it is not worth it.some of the food are lousy. wat i had the most over there, is the fresh salmon n the tuna belly. (sashimi la, not sure is that tuna belly.) cos thats wat didnt got screwed up. n is value gain lo.hehe....got lok lok. got chicken rice, chocolate fondue, all kind of satay stuff. i think i would rather spend another rm10 for jogoya. some of the food this afternoon quite lousy. some of the food dun really have taste. but some are good too la. especialy their dessert la. creative and good taste.

then after that, onli left me n alicia wanted to watch movie. so we went to buy ticket at gsc. decided to watch made of honour. is the onli movie which both of us also haven watch. then met up with this family. erm, i would said i noe them since i were a baby. i used to go to a baby sitter near my house and this family live few houses away. dunno how, my mum noe their mum. then end up we going to the same primary school. cos can car pool ma. the worst part is during standard 1 , i have to be the same school with this family eldest son. he is same age as me. but he is like a kayu onli. that time standard 1 not sure why he disgust me also. then that time his mum purposely ask the teacher to arrange him sitting beside me. OMG....wat is this man?? is like i need to take care of him....but i was a smart kid that time, i went into the 1st 3 class, he is jus in the middle class. so since standard 2 til 6 i never same class as him. but i stil see him everyday. cos we been either car pooling or use the same transport lady. so that been for 6 years. then i went to a gurl school. sure tak sama school la...

their mother:we are watching movie cos (the gurl) is going to UK soon to study
me: oh. so which uni?
daughter: oxford bust
me: oxford wat?
daughter: oxford BUST (not sure how to spell the bust, but thats the pronounciation i heard) is beside oxford university
me: oohh
mother: a sister university of oxford
me:doing wat course?
daughter: law
mother: k.s.(the son) going to london also end of the year
daughter:oohh..doing wat course?
mother:ACCA
me:oohh
mother: so when u finish your degree?
me: end of this year
mother: where you studying? LOCAL rite?
me: ya local. i m going to graduate already. no need to go overseas.

i went to search online, cant find bout the university. anyone know bout the university please provide some information. cos when they tell me the word 'oxford bust', they really emphasize the word 'oxford' but not 'bust'. i m so eager to find out as these auntie and her daughter love to boast around...not to say i pandang rendah la, but with her result, i dun think she is that excel to enter top universities like oxford. must be just another common university.

so we went in for the movie. the movie is good. very meaningful.storyline is good.

masseur is needed

2008-07-04T01:13:00.002+08:00

so tired and so exhausted.....but cudnt sleep well...

masseur is needed

qualification:
dun have to have good skill
but jus a good heart and a caring pair of hands

benefit:
my caring to you in return

civic is getting a botox

2008-07-02T23:30:00.002+08:00

my old civic is getting a new face lift. it is going to look 14 years younger. it is going to get botox. to look much younger. it is going get a bigger boobs, bigger bump, bigger body... it is going to get a new dye of colour.

cant wait to see the new face lift of my CIVIC....

picking up a shirt turn to buying another 2pieces

2008-07-02T22:43:00.002+08:00

i got a versace shirt which i had some problem with. i send to fix 2 months ago. then was too busy. so didnt have time to pick it up. at last i had the time, so ajak my parents to go together n have dinner. then before we reach that shop, then we pass by escada. woohoo, they are having their summer sales. so we went in....slowly glancing thru, pick a few. then the sales guy, ya a guy, not sure is he straight. but he dun act much like a macho guy. however, he jus got good sense of fashion la. have to i guess. he work at such boutique.then went into the dressing room. there onli got 2 dressing room. before i step in, my eyes wide open with surprise n wow... the wall paper that they use is so special. so elegant, so pretty, i think i need to have it too for my new room. n is so so so spacious. omg...so far the nicest dressing room i ever been into. i think i try on a total of 10 pieces of top and bottoms. the guy keep getting clothe to let me try in. end up only 2 top is suitable. they are both 50%. so buy lo. hehe. happy.

first aid course at bangsar

2008-06-29T23:19:00.002+08:00

there is this group of public are quite interested in learning first aid. i m quite sure that they are mostly with very good profession. was looking thru their biodata form. n when most of them reach, i think only 1 guy which did caught my eye. he is in his specs. quite fair. wearing a polo t. quite good looking. wearing a knee length short. but not those normal kind of short, but those formal looking kind. can see that he got a better sense of dress compare to the others. erm, cos the others, i mean the guys, most of them jus in a t shirt n shorts. some really short shorts. like at home onli. aiyoooo....then he pass up his biodata form,they are required to pass up their photos and photostated IC too. so he is actually the youngest participants. which is 24 onli. n probably the 2nd youngest is 26. n i have sum probably at their mid 40s. haven really count their age. cos i was onli looking at those who are born in the year of late 70s and 80s. his photo not that cute. the pic inside his IC haha...so funny. ya la.normally photo in IC very kiddy punya.

so we started teaching theory first. that time i wasnt teaching, but i was sitting aside dealing with some of the forms and documents on the table. then he came to the table, wanted to borrow a pen. the table didnt have anymore pen. but except my own personal pen left on the table. the pen is cost rm180 n i hardly lend to any1. i was hoping that he wun see it. but he just pick up the pen n ask can i borrow. cos he need to use it to copy down the note, n those are adult. hardly bring any stationaries. so dun think any1 could lend him, ok lo. lend him.

so after lunch, was the session for practical. so i need to conduct the simple bandaging and fracture. so each type of bandage i wil get a volunteer to be the casualty. so come to this bandage, the scalp bandage. he put up his hand. he sat in front. then there is another gurl behind was like waving her hand. so i picked the gurl. since the gurl so eagerly waving her hand there. then his fren was teasing him, haha, she doesnt wants you. then after the simple bandaging session, then i teach them fracture. i jus show them 2 type. the upper and lower body. so upper body i got a volunteer. then for lower body i change my casualty. so his fren was suggesting his name. ok lo. so he lye down , then i start to put the bandage under him with him lying down. so is quite hard la. take quite some effort la. then his fren tease him and said, wow, so hows the feeling. cos i was trying to tuck the triangular bandage under his waist to go thru the other side. so the other trainer came and help me on the other side to pull over the bandage which tuck under. then the one which tuck under suppose to tie on the pelvic. so i was tying the knot. i m very careful with my hand movement cos i do not want to accidentally be in contact with any thing else and thus caused more ppl surrounding me and talk nonsense. i tell you, when adult are attending class, they are more playful than children. cos the venue we are using is a self defence classroom. so is full of matt, n i suppose 2 of the participants are the students of that class too. so after they practice, they will be going on top of each other. n trying to roll the other person over and defeat them. n is not 1 time only. and is few times. come back to the guy with the lower body fracture, after tying him up, his fren said wow must take photo of you with 2 gurl tying you up...those guys in the class is always teasing each other. after i demo, then i asked them to practice. so there are i think 8 guys, eh no, they are man la...not very young men....they tied up the shortest guy in the class. his body size quite cute. even he is not that young, but he stil has that cute face. they are suppose to tie the upper and lower body fracture separately. but they did it together on that 1 person. while they are tying him up, some of them tickle him la. make fun of him la. cover his face with bandage la. n do a bendena(not sure how to spell) over his head with the triangular bandage we provide him. in a nutshell, these grown grown up men are so so so playful. and alot of them took photo of the bandage they did on their partner. the reason not because to remember how to tie, but as a rememberance( you know what i mean). then the shortie guy was left lying there tied up, and those guys who tied him, pose around him for photos. i tell you. i seriously laugh my head off through out the whole practical session. i taught all ages of ppl b4, but these group are the most playful ones. you cant shout at them to behave. but watever they do is so funny that you can laugh your head off. LLOOOLLL....

so i gonna exam them 2 weeks later. i think that time i gonna laugh even harder cos they can see their seriousness face when they are worried bout the exam....haha....i enjoy the feeling of examining others....

monopoly

2008-06-29T11:04:00.002+08:00

i cant remember when was the last time i played monopoly. yesday, went to uncles house to celebrate grandma birthday. as usual the adults will play mahjung. where else, yesday there is some new game for us this younger generation. my cousin brother newly bought a monopoly. so he took it all out n v 4 cousin played together. it was fun n quite exciting. u noe, monopoly have certain area where the rent is the most expensive. if the owner start buiding house, then the rent that u need to pay even higher. so once we going to reach that area, is very scary. haha. cos the rent that need to pay might reach up to 2 million. by the way, this monopoly the smallest value of money is 10k. so everything also got so many zeros....by the way, i own 1 of the quite expensive land, n i build 3 houses there, n the rent is 9 million.wahaha.....i scream once i got sum1 visit that land. haha. cos that time quite pok kai already. then i m the only one which got the higest rent of 9 million. haha. so exciting. even more fun than mahjung i would said.keke...

movies

2008-06-27T01:15:00.002+08:00

last time when got pakto that time, every week sure visit the cinema at least once. now...sigh...max once a month. so sad. there are so many movies which interest me to watch, WANTED, GET SMART, BANK JOB....etc. but the problem is no1 wants to watch with me. if not go watch alone meh. better buy pirated ones and watch at home. go watch with parents?? boring.... frens?? already watch most of the movie. so me how?? dun even bother to think of going to the cinema. jus keep working like a horse.even not happy, also work!!! and jus let life be empty and meaningless....

robot guy

2008-06-26T11:15:00.002+08:00

why do i call this person robot guy?

not me who started it...but is my mum. she said he look like a robot. he is actually my parents office software programmer. recently we are upgrading from manual to computerised. so basically the whole upgrading also done by me. she said he has a look of robot cos he got quite a squaish face. he is quiet. means he dun talk much la. probably to my mum he is quiet la. cos he hardly deal anything with my mum. me is the 1 ma. he not that quiet. got some humour too. hehe. his jokes never lame. lol. my mum also call him a camel. hehe. cos he can b at my office for 4 hours. n not drink anything. offer him water he dun wan. he is jus pai seh la. then he can b at my office from 6-10pm and not having his dinner. we asked him go have his dinner, he said is ok. i m used to it. haha. thats y my mum called him a camel where can keep water n food.kaka.

he is a business grad. but he is doing a software programming. haha. cos yesday he was asking me wat do i study?? so.. ya la. told him i do business. at help. uk program. university of east london. he is from south bank university of london. haha. lol. then discussing bout the classification. the 1st class, 2nd upper.....etc. only recently i found out he is doing the whole software for us. cos wat i know he is the boss of the company. the other boss of the company is my fren. but not very close la. so not really sure how their company function. but my fren has so many other businesses. n dun think he has much concern on this IT firm too.

dun think he is that robotic after all...

beautiful kitchen

2008-06-25T00:13:00.002+08:00

went to see a showroom for kitchen design. is located at jalan ampang, KL. is actually for our new house. cos is better to get a kitchen specialist for the new kitchen. it is even reommended by the interior designer. btw, i stil haven meet my new house interior design company boss. i heard he is good at wat he is doing, quite good looking, n is a entrepreneur la. looking forward to meet him. wait, come back to the kitchen. so once get in, the boss of the company show us around. in the showroom got total of 5 kitchen design. some for bigger space n some for little condo kitchen. then the guy start showing how the kitchen cabinet works.i could not find the website for any picture for your viewing. try to find later. the design for the functuanality of the kitchen cabinet is fascinating. some of it where we can even imagine such thing may exist. the guy love emphasizing of there are 1500 colour choose from. 1500 man!!! i wish i can have rainbow colour in the kitchen. or maybe one small little part of it is in pink. haha..of cos not la. i not gonna spoilt the overall design of the house. cabinets does not come with handle anymore. some are suppose meant for you to use your butt to push it open. n all doors which close have a silencer. when u slam it, it will actually close slowly by itself.n the combination of the colour. means in 1 kitchen there is few colour scheme. rather than some where the whole kitchen with jus 1 type of table or cabinet surface design. the combination they done is pretty. very different, very extra ordinary. there is a new type of surface for cabinet door. it got sumting to do with louis vuitton.some kind of texture design by louis vuitton. n of cos the price of that design also louis vuitton price range la. and even our queen also order it from them.

so basically the main mechanism and the design and the colour really attracted me. is so good. it just make me love at first sight to this kitchen specialist company.

i am such a good hearted person

2008-06-23T00:21:00.003+08:00

i m such a good hearted person??

am I??

yup!! i think so....

why??

because i never could angry with someone for long.
at least at the surface i am not angry of that person. (on the surface means i dont show muka masam)

yesday wanted to show THEM muka masam at least 2 to 3 days. so they know my colour. but dont know why, i jus couldnt do it. probably they didnt even dare to talk even a word bout that issue. jus asking bout some issue surrounding it but the issue itself. SO FUNNY.... so i m not that mad of them after all. why i jus couldnt be pissed of them longer??

useless ME...

frustrated

2008-06-20T22:29:00.002+08:00

who am i frustrated with??
who else??
of cos them..
mayb also myself.

i am frustrated with myself for being lack of courage. why i til today stil do not have the courage to fight back? why til today i stil do not have the courage to runaway from them? why til today i stil dare not to fight for my own rights??

i am frustrated with myself for being worry too much. why i worry so much bout the consequences? why i worry so much bout the future which is yet to come? why do i have so much planning for my future? why do i need to make sure they are part of the planning in my future?

i am frustrated with myself for being such a patience person. why am i so patience of them? why i can just act nothing happen even i feel so bad deep inside me? why i can be so patience to wait years after years??

i m frustrated with myself for being so powerless.

i m jus so frustrated with everything in my life. my life sucks.

2008-06-20T00:11:00.002+08:00

woke up at 12.30 pm today...wahaha. why so late?? cos yesday watch the sitcom which i copied from Chee Hwa. it is cantonese detective show. and always have all these couples scene. sigh. and watch up to almost 5am..haha...then i sleep n sleep n sleep...

strawberry and whiped cream

2008-06-18T23:02:00.001+08:00

mum bought 2 boxes of strawberry from market.

then of cos go buy whipped cream.

omg.

the amount of whipped cream i put on is so so so so much...

yum yum....

i think i swallow more whipped cream than strawberry.

hhmm...

indulgence

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2008-06-17T01:49:00.001+08:00

JUN:

HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY!!!

thoughts of life

2008-06-17T01:37:00.002+08:00

just now went to visit my uncle at hospital. he is having hepatitus C. but is under control. then i had some other relatives who came to visit. my other uncle wife, was saying her younger sister got breast cancer n her older sister got blood cancer. i m like...huh!!!! omg. i suppose they are around their late 40 to early 50. her older sister who got blood cancer, is kinda waiting for the DAY to come only. nothing much can be done. i m thinking, life is so fragile. life is very very short. i m going to be 21 soon. another 20 years more, i will need to start worrying bout sickness. the coming 20 years will be worrying my career and money to support my life. first 20 years of life will be all bout studying. then the following 20 years will be all about work and family. following 20 years will be about ageing and medical check ups and sickness. the remaining years will be all about waiting for the DAY. what is the meaning of life?? what is the meaning of us staying on this earth. how important are we?? we are probably jus a micro nano cell of the whole universe. i always question myself about this. i always wonder our life issit like a game of 'The Sims'. jus that the player of the game is the GOD. even i m only going to be 21 soon, but i dunno how long i can live. probably tomoro will be the DAY for me, probably next month.....i dunno..is there really some thing call the after life?? is there something called the next life?? is there really heaven and hell?? is there really that someone up there?? whenever i think about this issue, i will have this cold shiver. i just wish there is some1 here can hug me tight and tell me, he will be there for me all the time, he will be protecting me all the time, he will go through all the hard time with me, and will share my sorrows with me.

say goodbye to my old honda civic.

2008-06-16T01:00:00.003+08:00

there is already a confirm buyer for my car. my first car. the car which i use for 3 and a half years. the car which i use to speed to lepas geram. the car which i take myself around.

but not very confirm what car to get yet. parents plan to get me the new VIOS. if it got a better design, i surely straight away no need to think then i said i want it. but the thing is, it dun look hot at all. i think my old junk also look better than the big buffalo. honda city is the other alternative. but it also look more or less than VIOS also. jus lightly better than VIOS. wat is really cool and caught my eyes is the new model Honda Civic. oh....is so hot, is sexy. i like the shape. i like it cos it is low. rather than vios and city quite high. i dunno how to explain. but i m so used to my old junk civic, is low. is very stable especially when speeding at cornerings. dun even need to break. u wun feel is floating or unstable.

if get the new model civic then have to get second hand. cos new will be kinda out of budget. if get vios or city then will be brand new. headache headache.

...

2008-06-15T20:20:00.003+08:00

lets have some updates of my life..

15 jun

morning, woke up at 7am, went to a school to give St john first aid exam. stil sick. bad cough. flu not fully recover. not many candidates today. so can finish before 12pm. went home. sleep. then wake up go work. came home. dinner. now actually screening those photos to develop. already hutang my mum those photos which we took in our trip. always procrastinating. the usual me. her trip to taiwan la, our recent trip to egypt la, then last year trip to vietnam la...hehe..she give me kinda dateline.

14 jun

morning, went to my division to give first aid exam lo. only got 4 hours slept. i m like floating. after the exam, then went back to rest. went to ballet. a ballet fren who went to canada to study 1 year ago was back. n she join our class yesday. she is one of the true'est fren i would say. hehe. did witness some of her transformation. happy for her. then at nite went to the Gardens. wanted to watch Indiana Jones for a long long time already. but didnt have the chance. not that no time. but no1 go with me. sad. so get parents to go watch with me la..hehe. wanted to try the Gardens GSC signature. that cinema only have the primier class and gold class only. premier class is rm20 per ticket. in 1 cinema got less than 100 seats. all are couple seats like. more cushion type of seat. can order food to serve to you. and the ticket is rm20. cos only 3 of us went. so basically the chair beside me is not occupied. i got really alot of space. can put the shopping bag. n i can put my leg over it.hehe. dad wanted to eat western, mum wanted to eat japanese. me both are fine. then end up mum won. so we went to a japanese restaurant. first time to this restaurant. quite impressive. they got quite different type of dishes compare to some other japanese restaurant. btw, all good japanese restaurant got their own specialtys. this one, quite good with their japanese beef. got something called the stone grilled. n their soup is in a tea pot like thingi, n can pour to a little ceramic container, look like a sauce plate more than a bowl to me. CUTE. mum saw Coach got some clearance sales. so we went to look see. there got quite some items with 30% sales. hehe..good news..keke. end up bought a handbag. mum said she buy for me for working use. very spacious. i think i can fit in my this laptop too. and probably some thin files. loving it. but not sure do it look too mature for me?? pls pls give me some comments on this bag.

btw, the movie was good. some said aiyo why la see some old man swinging around like a monkey. but i think is exciting. hehe.

13 jun

suppose morning made appointment to see my face doctor. but was stil having a bad flu. if stil go there, then when doing my treatment time, the fluid from my nose will flow out non stop. so better dun go. change my appointment to next tue. i woke up at 10am, but i keep sleeping back n keep waking up like every 15 minutes. end up only woke up at 12.30 pm to eat lunch cos need to prepare to go to work. but whole body damm aching. even slept for like 12 hours cos i slept at around 12am the nite before. but whole body stil feel so tired. feel so sick. but stil gotta go work. sien!!!! so went to work, lucky wasnt that bad after all. still can to work and not feeling sleepy. but keep on sneezing. my nose felt so pain. it hurts. couldnt tahana. i wish i can cut my nose out. aarrggghhh...stupid stupid nose. thats how i pass my entire day.

11 n 12 jun

anything special i can recall today?? let me think....hhmm...

these 2 days, nothing special ..jus another boring day. woke up around 12. then prepare to go work. back from work, lying on my bed, watch tv n online.

10 jun

woke up slightly earlier, cos got appointment with the office software programmer. nothing else. work, back home. watch tv.sleep

9 jun

went to shopping with han syn. went to sunway pyramid. always go 1utama also boring already. we went there, first thing. eat. cos hungry. wanted to straight go eat japanese food. but only open at 12pm. is only 11am. so hungry. so go buy movie ticket. then eat a&w. share 1 set. then walk walk around. then 12sumting only go eat the japanese food. the shop we went cant remember the name, got quite good 'maki'. their salmon is good. so went to watch the movie. we watch super hero movie. reason for choosing the movie, no other movie. she watch indiana jones already. the remaining ones are either horror movie or malay movie. no interest. so watch superhero movie. i already know is a lame movie. but wat to do. the only movie. so ya. it is funny. but it is also very very lame. at last get to buy present for 2 fren of mine. one had passed quite almost a month already. paiseh paiseh. until now, haven have a chance to pass to her yet. then another 1 birthday is coming soon. but dun seem to have a chance to pass to the person. pass by jco donuts. there is no queue. so we thought go buy some. we ate 2 over there. then i bought half dozen home for parents. they quite love it.hehe. i love the cheese the most. the green tea and tiramisu also not too bad. after send han syn home, i also straight to work.

* actually thats bout it for my life recently. nothing much interesting. but stil got some la.hehe.

holiday dun seem like holiday

2008-06-08T23:48:00.002+08:00

it has been 1 week since i updated my blog. i think before my holiday start, i update my blog like almost everyda. however now, i seem to be more busy. lol...last time at home do assignment and study for exam, boring boring then go type my blog. but now, hardly at home. and hardly online too.

jus came back from my penang trip yesday. it was fun. it was fattening. it was delicious. we ate alot. we practically took photo of each single food we had.photos will be uploaded soon over here. we went to couple of temples. of cos Kek lok si. but quite sad cos i was having flu the 2nd day. so wasnt in the best condition for enjoyment.

today went for trainer exam. i only started doing my slides and everything last minute, very very last minute which is like last nite. but b4 that did some research already la. so yesday i onli finish at 4am this morning. then slept for 1 n half hour n woke up at 5.30 am. was too blur til i went to the wrong area to look for my st john fren house. then the things that i prepared i would jus said it was just ok. last time i used to put more effort in doing it. dunno, probably just got not enough time la.cant be bother. hopefully can pass onli lo

hurray...tomoro go sunway pyramid walk walk...gotta go pick up some birthday presents for some friends..hhmm...

sleepless nites

2008-06-01T01:45:00.002+08:00

i think for the past 1 month, i have been going thru some sleepless nites. at first was because of assignments..then later exams..then now, st john work.

just like yesday nite,i onli slept 2 hours..cos this morning got a talk to give, so need to prepare slides. then that morning itself also need to prepare these forms. cos need to finish up b4 the dateline..lucky today, got some help from the others n get to finish 95%. left abit more then kao tim...not really actually, cos got so much more work in st john need to do. tired.

Year 3 Semester 1 is OVER officially

2008-05-30T00:14:00.002+08:00

today i finish my final exam...

i would love to thanks those who wished good luck for me for this exam. n also the one who did encourage me to go back to study from my laptop..

hhmm..was hoping to get first class for this subject. but after taking the exam, not confident after all on getting the first class. the questions are very straighforward. but not that easy.

the exam is over. in this subject, got quite alot is final semester for them. half of the class are international student. so were saying goodbye to them as will not be able to meet them anytime soon. then also exchanging contacts. actually very glad to have them in our class. they really make the class more cheerful. although this class is quite small, only 30 of us. but quite fun. is very quiet without some of their presence. btw, i still love marketing classes the most..hehe...cos marketing class is not that bored compare to other subjects...

right after the exam, i straight went to work. only slept 3 hours last nite. so tired. at work, need to start test running the whole upgrading system of the office...so many things to do...

then st john. even before i get any real rest, already got a couple of calls regarding what need to be settle n the dateline is so damm close..so much to do yet so little time..n limited resources...

looking forward for my final FInal exam for my Final semester of the degree..

....

2008-05-28T17:56:00.001+08:00

the term "smart" or the term "clever"

when it is said by a guy about me,

i will feel very SEXY...

cant wait

2008-05-27T00:36:00.003+08:00

cant wait to finish my degree...

so tired...

feel so lazy...

no encouragement...

drive from 1end of selangor to other end of selangor

2008-05-26T13:39:00.002+08:00

yesday there is a course at kajang. i gotta pick up my members from pj.then only get down to kajang. cos i m going thru pj, then my other fren straight from kepong using federal highway. so our meeting point is at the after toll of kajang 1st toll.. then go up to federal highway, haha...so dumb me, go on the wrong direction. so find a uturn. then drove all the way. then keep looking for the sign board seremban, kajang /cheras. then go go go...then the signboard were really confusing..then both of the member also tahu abit bit bout the road to kajang. thank god. especially 1, she stayed near the toll b4. then she manage to lead the way there. she shud have sound earlier..aiyo, i was takut giler. cos i wasnt confident the way i m going..scared dunno wil ended up where..then reach the toll, waiting for while then the others reach. so follow car only. i leave my house almost 7am. then reach the place at 8.15am. it is a sunday, no traffic, also need 1 hour. walau weh....so tired...then the nite b4 i only had 3 hours sleep. dunno y, wudnt sleep. morning have to wake at 6am. then the whole day was talk after talk....so tired..lucky didnt fall asleep. then when want to go back, heavy rain. then my best fren, chee hwa, will b using the LDP. so i follow his car la. easier.cos i m more sure with the routes at LDP. then LDP is go straight only. then u wil jus come ended up in kepong...hehe...so leave the hotel around 5.40..then only reach home at 7.20am...walau wehh. so so tired. i already tired la.then rain sumore. then is evening. not much sunlight. then the cars are slow moving.

n during the journey back home, i lost count of how many this chee hwa fren called me... until i tell him that i reach home only he stop calling..hehe

Jowen's Birthday...

2008-05-24T21:43:00.003+08:00

Look at the cake...i like the barbie doll alot...the skirt is made of jelly....cool rite??!!....so pretty...we not sampai hati to eat the doll skirt, cos too pretty. i love the candle too. didnt noe got candle with alphabet...today 24th is Jowen birthday..so yesday nite, she organise a birthday party at her place. we had bbq..

(adelene,han syn,me,jowen,wye mun,chian huey,joanna)
so misty...we had the party at genting... but wait, most of us either wearing short sleeve or sleeveless.. so cold how can we stand?? haha...we are at selayang onli la, at jowen house. on our right hand side is the bbq pit, suddenly got smoke while we are taking this shot...

(rick,ruby,me,chian huey,adelene,ah sai)

posing as if we very hardworking bbqing...

(han syn,me,adelene,chian huey)

supposingly is only me n han syn taking this photo. then we took 1 already. adelene came in n took another 1. then chian huey shouting i want, i want to take also....here can see a closer look at my new hairstyle.. i was slightly late reaching at the party cos was waiting for joanna to pick up wye mun and only me. so once i get down from the car, they saw my hair , saw my hair but not me..then waaaaaaaaaa!!!! waaaaaaaa!!! waaaaaaa!!! then after entering the gate of the house...waaaaaa!!!! waaaaaaa!!! the actual times of the waaing is more than wat i put down, the length of the waaing is longer than wat i put down too...there is once during the party fan chong came to me n said: can i ask u a question? he said it in quite serious tone. i tot wat happen. then i look at him in 1 kind,n said ok u ask la. he said: can i touch your hair ah? i like hahaha...then i ask is his hand clean anot la.he said yes then i said ok la.touch la...then he touch then said, hehe so funny..

woo hoo....me n han syn were about to kiss...this is not the 1st time we take such picture..but this 1 not close enough...aiya...we had another 1 took at johor, that 1 very real..

had a great nite...me of cos always laughing laughing n very loudly...hehe...the signature me...keke..we had chivas..hhmm, i jus had 3 cups..but whole body red already...hehe...when i reach home, n lye on my bed, i can feel i m having a headache..omg.never had headache b4 after drinking..probably didnt have enough sleep the nite b4 cos was studing for the test yesday morning. then yesday went back home, do some st john work, then wanted to rest for 2 hours. then half way sleeping, some1 call..then sleep back, some1 sms. then cudnt continue sleep already...

conclusion: had so much fun...

comments on my new hair

2008-05-20T20:19:00.003+08:00

these are the comments i got so far from all the ppl around who saw me...

1. first is my mum of cos la. she went there with me..she said, haha...u sure u can accept this hairstyle...this hairstyle make my hair look 3 times more...

2. my maids. laugh of cos....then say cantek oh...then touch touch my hair...

3. jun (thru photo) wa....african style...

4. han syn (thru photo) dun look too bad...

5. fan chong(thru photo)....wa...when u gonna redo ur hair again?? means he dun like it lo...haha....

6. dad.....wah!!! n keep on laughing...

7. chian huey...from more than 20 feet away...in the library...she already covering her mouth...means OMG....LOL....then she came to me n laughing there...wa....so big changes ah....i said also told u in the msn la...bigger changes than the cutting to short hair...she commented, your hair wun get spoilt meh?? aiya sure spoilt 1 la...perm hair sure spoilt 1 la...but as long it look good nvm la..she said, look like the african hair...they want straightened hair, then u want their frizzy hair...lol...

8. han syn...look like lion....look like ASLAN in Narnia the movie...LLOOOLLLL......cos my hair also bit yellowish colour...hehe...also keep touching my hair, n said very nice to touch your hair...cos is fluffy ma.....hehe

9. adelene: eyes pop out..i guess she didnt realise wat i wrote on msn nickname...so i suppose she didnt noe i did my hair....then she jus said wah....so funny..

10. michelle (i mms her my photo) she said wow...japanese style..

11. staff at paren office: wa...very YEH!! something means like bit wild...they also commented....not bad...

of cos dun u wanna noe wat do i think of my new hairstyle...
i describe it as
- puppy fur
- mop head
hehe...

wats ur comment?? pls commment!!!!

consumer behaviour assignment marks

2008-05-20T20:13:00.002+08:00

today, our consumer behaviour lecturer put up the marks for our assignment..gues wat...hehe...

i got

20.5 over 25 marks.....

woohhooo....

so happy....

add my presentation marks, which is 20 over 25 marks

means i already got 40.5 over 50 marks for this subject...

n the final is 50 marks...means i need another 29 marks then i get FIRST CLASS......

OMG.....

i wish i can really score in the final exam...which means i have to work hard .....hehe OF COS LA...

since year 1, i never had any 1st class in my year 2 before..hopefully can get this time...corssing my fingers.....

disappointment

2008-05-19T23:23:00.002+08:00

yesday i went to see a person. while talking wit this person, all my disappointment towards this org suddenly back again, n the words said by this person even add up to this disappointment.

last time i join this org because of a reason. a reason which i always think is so great. in anything i do, especially someting which interest me, i wil do my very best. of cos, it got some kind of recognition from these ppl. when i started to get some recognition, it actually motivate me to work harder. however, when come to a point, where the recognition is slowing down. started to be fading off.

but i always question myself, wat is my main aim to b here.

so...

there is onli 2 option i have here

first, stick to my main aim, means i gonna be low profile and jus stick to my main aim..by staying low profile that means i m going to stop doing those job which do not contribute to my main aim...

second option is, continue with the way i work now, but make sure i get the recognition i should have when i m expecting it. if not i gonna stay away...

so thats it...

feelings

2008-05-19T23:15:00.003+08:00

all the while i tot i had this thing for this person, but it seems quite unclear. i not sure what i really want also. i also not sure what my real feelings also. probably just a good fren feeling, but nothing else. probably me just thinking too much.

my hair

2008-05-19T23:09:00.002+08:00

i did someting to my hair again...

this time...is total different from wat i had previously...

this is like my hair kena (chikaboomb) means kena bomb...

lol...

hehe

when u see me, i think you might get a shock too...hehe...

but hopefully after sometime i dun look so kembang...but it actually make my hair dun feel so little anymore..is like 3 times amount of my actual hair..which even the curl i had last time cudnt make it like this...

hehe...

Assignments all is over for this semester

2008-05-16T21:48:00.002+08:00

i jus got 3 more assignments to pass up for this year. which is in the next semester.

today i had passed up the last assignment for this semester. but i think i did a lousy job in doing it. hopefully i wun fail...hehe...cos if fail, means i need to stay on for one more sem in next year. CHOI!!!!!

i had only 4 hours of sleep last nite. i didnt even get any afternoon nap too. so is like really tired. then i got my flu today. as was waking so early, then staying at the study room which is made to half of a store room like, make my sensitive run.

now, left 1 more case study test coming friday. n 1 more final exam on 29th.

yesterday was Rick birthday. cos because of our assignment, rick have to wait for us to celebrate with him only on today. so we went to seoul garden again. where han syn celebrated her birthday. but the food there wasnt bad. got lots of varieties. then we wanted to watch Narnia. i was kinda blur when watching the movie at first. wasnt very sure wats going on. then having this flu n the lacking of sleep make me freaking sleepy n tired. but lucky did not fall asleep during the movie which i was afraid that i wil b4 the movie. but Fan chong who was sitting beside me was snooring away. haha .,.no la...he didnt snoore la...jus took a short nap..he ah...got more sleep than me, n dun have assignment to pass up today, but turn out to fall asleep.

movie was quite good overall. except for the front part la..hehe..

of cos there is some hot chic n dude in the movie.

then no dinner at home. so bought some sushi back home from jusco onli..

now, gonna take medicine, lye back, watch tv, n fall asleep....

truth or dare

2008-05-13T00:22:00.004+08:00

LOL.... have u ever play truth or dare over msn.?? mayb just the truth part la.. i did...a fren suggested to play it over msn. so is like taking turn to ask each other questions...some real ahem questions....then the dare part wil hutang 1st and play next time when we meet. most probably at starbucks, where whipped cream can b very useful...

got tagged by jun

2008-05-11T21:11:00.002+08:00

1.Real name - sheryn chin sze yin

2.Nickname - dun really have 1, cos my name sheryn is too sweet to give me any nickname

3.Married - stil single and available

4.Male or Female - female

5.Highschool - Sri aman

6.College - HELP

7.Short or long hair - used to be very long, then cut short, now not long not short

8.Are you a health freak - no..i love to eat

9.Height - 160cm

10.Do you have a crush on someone - yup

11.Do you like yourself - nope

12.Piercings - yea

13.Righty or Lefty - right

FIRST'S

14. First surgery - never

15. First piercing(s) - ear, when i was 7, i cried

16. First person you see in the morning - myself from the mirror when brushing my teeth

17. First award - erh...cant remember.. no3 in class when i was in standard 1 maybe

18. First sport you joined - ballet(if is a kind of sport)

19. First pet - tortoise

20. First vacation - australia when i was 8

21. First concert - jay chou

CURRENTLY

23. Eating - nothing

24. Drinking - plain water

25. I'm about to - do some stupid assignment which might not be benefiting me at all

YOUR FUTURE

26. Want kids - erm...too early to decide

27. Want to get married - yea

28. Careers in mind - entrepreneur, tycoon

WHICH ONE IS BETTER

29. Lips or eyes - lips

30. Hugs or kisses - both

31. Shorter or taller - taller of course, i love wearing heels, i dun want to be seen going out wit my brother

32. Romantic or spontaneous - both

33. Sensitive or loud - Sensitive

34. Trouble maker or hesitant - Hesitant.

HAVE YOU EVER

35. Kissed a stranger - nope

36. Drank bubbles - milkshake sure got ma

37. Lost glasses/contacts - never

38. Ran away from home - kinda, jus a few hours

39. Liked someone younger - NOPE.

40. Liked someone older - yea

41. Broken someone's heart - yea

42. Been arrested - Yup by parents la

43. Cried when someone died - yes

44. Liked a friend - of course from friend become partner ma..if not from stranger meh

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

45. Yourself - quite

46. Miracles - nope

47. Heaven - not very, but i hope there is one

48. Santa claus - lol, nope, cos never got present from him b4

49. Angels - nope

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY ~*

50. Is there one person you want to be with right now - yup..

51. Do you believe in God - yup

52. Tag 5 people - aiya...no need la...no body in my mind wud do this

what is life??

2008-05-07T01:50:00.004+08:00

after we were born
then we just eat, sleep, play...
for 3 years

when we were 4,
we go to kindergarden...
start to have homeworks
start to have spellings
start to have test
we were often "BRIBE" to do well in spellings or test
(BRIBE includes: sweet, fancy stickers, not getting scold...)
btw, i start going for tuition during my kindergarden years..
for 3 years

when we were 7,
we go to primary schools...
those who go chinese schools especially
have to bring a big big school bag, which may over weight some of the small size pupils..
then start to have caning if homework is not pass up, book is not brought to school...
more tuitions as there are more subjects...
have to finish up the homework every night before goes to bed...
if dun finish, scared will get canned..
btw, i got cane once til my hand got bruise..
exam comes, studyyyyy...
results out, gelabah already..
if good marks feel relieve, but not happy, as getting good marks is a responsibility, so no rewards will be rewarded,
if marks not very good, scared to go home. reason: parents will scold why such silly mistake also can make, why you so careless...so many whys' which the little you do not even know how to answer them...
this went on for 6 years...
end of primary school, got a big test, UPSR, do i have a reward for that? cant remember.

here comes secondary school
omg...more subjects...
means more tuition...
shit!!
tuition are all free now
means: each classes available you must attend
homeworks not as much as primary chinese school..
but homeworks become much harder..
exam become much harder...
wat gelabah the most, parent teacher day,
cos parent will see the report card...
if good felt relieved..
if not up to THEIR expectation, haha
mumbling begin....%$#^%&^(*%$#$!
language scored lowest, every week must pass up 1 essay to each language tuition teacher
didnt pass up, kena scold...
last time hate essay the most, especially the BM 1..
but maths scored highest, how come no such thing as no need go for math tuition...
so here come PMR...
reward was u got straight A's which is 7A's then get RM700.
if less 1 A also get nothing..
want to take the subject of BC..
not allow
reason: this subject very hard to get A, dun take, take during SPM..
result came out...
7A's
haha...happy cos got money...
then here come a sentence...
" expected you can get 7A's,
very easy to get only..."
&^(&*(&%%^&*(&(*R$$#%^
then enter form 4,
which stream to go to,
wanted art, as no interest in being anything which related to science, already start to show interest in business..
but not allow
reason:you still young, not matured yet, when u wanna take science related degree then you will regret then..
no choice...follow lo, but condition not taking biology..
allow
took extra subjects...total 12 subjects...
means more tuition...
5 days a week tuition...another 2 days ballet class
12 classes a week, not cos is 12 subjects, cos some subjects got 2 different tuition teacher, so attend both class.
not much time left after minusing school, coco activities, tuition, ballet class, homeworks...
btw, no tv allow during the weekdays, god knows since when...
exam period, no tv even in weekends...
were sent to a gurl school,
reason: scared got bf, then cant concentrate studies
but this point useless,
stil can have bf anyway
so SPM come
then study study

then go to pre U
go study foundations
study again lo..
assignments lo
exams lo

then do my degree
study again lllluuuu...
assignments...
exams...

then after graduate..
do wat??
work lo..
work...then go to sleep
then next day work again...
so working lifes go on til retired...

then retired already do wat??
spend time doing this n that...
then life ends there...

so wats the meaning of life??

m no1

2008-05-06T17:12:00.002+08:00

m not smart...
m not pretty...
m not slim...
m not hardworking...
m not favourite of any1...
m not noticed...
m not good...
m not good at studies...
m not good at socialising...
m not good at writing...
m not good at language...
m not good at everything...
m not talented in business studies...
m not talented in ballet...
m not talented in watever i do...
m not loaded with money...
m not getting freedome...
m not doing watever i want to do...
m not feeling happy...
m not feeling good...
m not feeling life is meaningful...
m not feeling being surrounded by any1...
m feeling alone...
m feeling lonely...
m feeling useless
m feeling life is not meaningful...
m start not to feel anything...
m start to feel like being in a coma...
m in a dddddddddddddddddddduuuuuuuuuuuuuuutttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt__________________________________________________________________________________________________________...
this means her feeling is dying off...
this means her heart is cold, is frozen, is heartless,
this means she is lifeless...

m in deep trouble

2008-05-06T00:13:00.002+08:00

i just find out got some crash of date with my trip and an exam for st john. aarrgghhh!!!!!!

felt like an idiot

2008-05-05T23:58:00.001+08:00

all the efforts i have done, is going into the dustbin right now...

pinky is alive for a few moment

2008-05-05T01:29:00.002+08:00

wow!!! so HAPPIIIEEEEE

why??

cos finish 1 assignment already lo... thats my CB assignment... not cibai ok. is CONSUMER BEHAVIOUR. i was putting CB assignment almost done, left editing only. then got a fren said, it can bring another meaning. which some thing like my CB went through some kind of botox or plastic surgery, left some finishing only....wahaha...great imagination of my this fren. btw, he is a guy. of cos only a guy can have such good imagination.

was quite happy that i did not really rush through the assignment. even yesday i wasnt doing this assignment. i slumber only go work on other assignment. today, i sumore took like 2 time nap after my breakfast n lunch.. aiyo...me ah..hehe...n further more, i am not finishing like 4am in the morning.

i quite like the print out this time. thanks to my beloved colour laser jet printer. the quality of print out is perfecto!! even on a 70gsm paper only. thats why didnt bother to use expensive paper. cos i also put in lots of ice cream picture, coloured graphs...but the content dun have full confident la.hehe..

if you have the money, must buy colour laser jet. or black n white laser jet if you dont print colour at all. it is actually very worth it. you can print more. unless you use those ciplak ink jet which refill also ciplak punya la. which water drip on it, it will smudge la. then those cant compare la.when you buy you think is expensive, actually not. it become pricey cos of the toner and the drum in it. it comes with 1 black toner, 3 colour toner and 1 drum. i think i have been using it since 3 years ago. until now, i have not refill on any of the toner yet. except for my yellow toner, is running low la.

so monday, gonna start working out on my research proposal. then hoping to finish the draft by Friday. I HOPE I CAN!!!...crossing my finger....

brain dead...

2008-04-30T21:48:00.002+08:00

In my this little brain, for time being it is stuffed so much by

Consumer behaviour:
- baskin robbins
- market segmentation
- marketing concept, product concept, production concept
- some stupid personality traits which all book have limited write up bout it...dumb!!

finance:
- direct quote
- foreign exchange risk exposure
- foreign exchange participants.